30th September 2008
Today i was having law class... hmm... it was quite ok all along... lol... but since the first thing the lecturer give was an exercise... I was not doing much of a revision, and that was giving me a big time just doing the questions... LOL!!! It was about Memorandum of Association and Articles of Association. Hmm... It is actually not hard, just that don't know why mind blank... Haih~ should be more focus on study le... cannot like this... Gambateh... if not she will wait more longer!!!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Day 6
29th September 2008
Seems like the days all started at12am in the morning... LOLS!!! anyway... I am trying to heal now... heal myself from sleeping late at night. Six days already... And... i seems to be better now. But... before i sleep every night, i still will miss her... Whenever i see "Big Head", i will think of her...
Today, i wake up 1pm! @@
LOLS!!!
So early ho? Anyway... i was having F5 class ... luckily, it is evening class... so... Didn't study much lo... Haih~ wake up already 1pm, eat "breakfast" then online check mail already late. Need to prepare go to school... Can say as no study at all... If i do not study hard now, i fear that i might not be able to take 3 exams in year end... I cannot break another promise... Please... I should be more focus... Stop playing so much .. .. ..
I wanted to sms her... Yes... i do... i really wanted to... But, whenever i finish typing... i deleted it... Don't know why... just don't know how to press send... i wanted to see her... yes i do... But, i don't dare to meet her... ... Please stop being like this lo Zechs...
Seems like the days all started at12am in the morning... LOLS!!! anyway... I am trying to heal now... heal myself from sleeping late at night. Six days already... And... i seems to be better now. But... before i sleep every night, i still will miss her... Whenever i see "Big Head", i will think of her...
Today, i wake up 1pm! @@
LOLS!!!
So early ho? Anyway... i was having F5 class ... luckily, it is evening class... so... Didn't study much lo... Haih~ wake up already 1pm, eat "breakfast" then online check mail already late. Need to prepare go to school... Can say as no study at all... If i do not study hard now, i fear that i might not be able to take 3 exams in year end... I cannot break another promise... Please... I should be more focus... Stop playing so much .. .. ..
I wanted to sms her... Yes... i do... i really wanted to... But, whenever i finish typing... i deleted it... Don't know why... just don't know how to press send... i wanted to see her... yes i do... But, i don't dare to meet her... ... Please stop being like this lo Zechs...
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Day 5
28th September 2008
Again, didn't go to bed early enough... was still up until 3+ early morning. Was telling a friend about my life story... i remember what happen, what i had done in my past few years. And... i really find that i am not a good guy. I hurt quite a lot of people on the way... I blame others when i feel sad... why i never think of me hurting them...? they also will feel sad. She must be sad for me being like this... asking to quit... i feel sorry... i m so selfish... i cant choose my study and her at the same time... I just wish that she can be happy...i will surely get back to you. i sure will... i remember the promise i made for u. I remember... i look at my phone's message folder... i kept some of my creation for her which contains my promises for her... i break my promise...
"i will wait for you... here... i promise..."
This was the promise i gave to her...
Yet, i tell her i cannot stand the pain and stress... i am bad... so sorry... But i will try to settle my ACCA as soon as possible... If you find a better guy, i have no choice but to let go... Hope that i can be fast... and get back to you... I hope you don't miss me... Don't be sad... I want you to be happy... as always...
Again, didn't go to bed early enough... was still up until 3+ early morning. Was telling a friend about my life story... i remember what happen, what i had done in my past few years. And... i really find that i am not a good guy. I hurt quite a lot of people on the way... I blame others when i feel sad... why i never think of me hurting them...? they also will feel sad. She must be sad for me being like this... asking to quit... i feel sorry... i m so selfish... i cant choose my study and her at the same time... I just wish that she can be happy...i will surely get back to you. i sure will... i remember the promise i made for u. I remember... i look at my phone's message folder... i kept some of my creation for her which contains my promises for her... i break my promise...
"i will wait for you... here... i promise..."
This was the promise i gave to her...
Yet, i tell her i cannot stand the pain and stress... i am bad... so sorry... But i will try to settle my ACCA as soon as possible... If you find a better guy, i have no choice but to let go... Hope that i can be fast... and get back to you... I hope you don't miss me... Don't be sad... I want you to be happy... as always...
Friday, September 26, 2008
Day 4
27th September 2008
4 days had passed. Sometimes, i do think of you. Maybe i should stop missing you... But i just can't... every night if i am not focusing on doing revision, i will think of you... when i look at the "doll" u gave me on my birthday, i will start talking to him. You taught me how to talk to them. Today was having f5 class as well... The lecturer treat us breakfast. Too bad i was not having any appetite... didn't take my share of breakfast. Anyway, i hope that you are having a nice day today as it is a Saturday.
4 days had passed. Sometimes, i do think of you. Maybe i should stop missing you... But i just can't... every night if i am not focusing on doing revision, i will think of you... when i look at the "doll" u gave me on my birthday, i will start talking to him. You taught me how to talk to them. Today was having f5 class as well... The lecturer treat us breakfast. Too bad i was not having any appetite... didn't take my share of breakfast. Anyway, i hope that you are having a nice day today as it is a Saturday.
Day 3
26th September 2008
From 1+ in the morning until 4+, i was doing my revision on law as it will be tested today... good thing also... she had made me immune to sleep early at night... Months ago, her time of examination, i will always greet her good night on 12 midnight, hoping she will sleep early... as i was used to receive a reply from her, i have waited for her to reply every night. Yet, she didn't reply... So, i will keep waiting, until 3 something when i feel tired and get to bed... Of course, not all night she didn't reply... on certain nights, she may give a reply... but just a reply... it is ok... a reply will do... better than no reply... So... it had made me sleepless at night. ^^ but Sing Ying, don't feel bad for me... thank you for giving me more time than usual people... maybe this will jeopardize my health, but it did give me more time. I think i had done well in this exam, because i was able to answer every question with more than enough time for revision.
...I do miss you now...
From 1+ in the morning until 4+, i was doing my revision on law as it will be tested today... good thing also... she had made me immune to sleep early at night... Months ago, her time of examination, i will always greet her good night on 12 midnight, hoping she will sleep early... as i was used to receive a reply from her, i have waited for her to reply every night. Yet, she didn't reply... So, i will keep waiting, until 3 something when i feel tired and get to bed... Of course, not all night she didn't reply... on certain nights, she may give a reply... but just a reply... it is ok... a reply will do... better than no reply... So... it had made me sleepless at night. ^^ but Sing Ying, don't feel bad for me... thank you for giving me more time than usual people... maybe this will jeopardize my health, but it did give me more time. I think i had done well in this exam, because i was able to answer every question with more than enough time for revision.
...I do miss you now...
Day 2
25 September 2008
i was down today... having F5 today... teacher asked about the exam few days ago... i was blank... i feel sorry for myself... i didn't even attempt the questions... mind was blank... Sing Ying... i am not blaming you for what that has happened to me... but i am really sorry... because i was unable to control my own emotion well... and end up giving up our relationship... i am sorry... i am stressed...
i was down today... having F5 today... teacher asked about the exam few days ago... i was blank... i feel sorry for myself... i didn't even attempt the questions... mind was blank... Sing Ying... i am not blaming you for what that has happened to me... but i am really sorry... because i was unable to control my own emotion well... and end up giving up our relationship... i am sorry... i am stressed...
Day 1
24th September 2008
The first day we break up... i was kinda sad... really sad... as i asked her how much i meant to her... but she never reply... she just reply that she should give me back my heart... As i was suffering badly since August... i accepted it... Seal my broken heart... and dump it into the sea so i can focus on my study...
I really hope she is happy... more happy because i am not a good man...
The first day we break up... i was kinda sad... really sad... as i asked her how much i meant to her... but she never reply... she just reply that she should give me back my heart... As i was suffering badly since August... i accepted it... Seal my broken heart... and dump it into the sea so i can focus on my study...
I really hope she is happy... more happy because i am not a good man...
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