Day 5

28th September 2008
Again, didn't go to bed early enough... was still up until 3+ early morning. Was telling a friend about my life story... i remember what happen, what i had done in my past few years. And... i really find that i am not a good guy. I hurt quite a lot of people on the way... I blame others when i feel sad... why i never think of me hurting them...? they also will feel sad. She must be sad for me being like this... asking to quit... i feel sorry... i m so selfish... i cant choose my study and her at the same time... I just wish that she can be happy...i will surely get back to you. i sure will... i remember the promise i made for u. I remember... i look at my phone's message folder... i kept some of my creation for her which contains my promises for her... i break my promise...
"i will wait for you... here... i promise..."
This was the promise i gave to her...
Yet, i tell her i cannot stand the pain and stress... i am bad... so sorry... But i will try to settle my ACCA as soon as possible... If you find a better guy, i have no choice but to let go... Hope that i can be fast... and get back to you... I hope you don't miss me... Don't be sad... I want you to be happy... as always...