Sunday, November 30, 2008

Day 68

30th November 2008
Sunday
Sunny... with a little bit of rain in the afternoon
Guess what? Today is the last day... Last day to prepare for my exam!!! Hahaha!!! Was kinda happy somehow because the day that everyone is waiting for is finally here. Of course, this cannot apply to all students. >.<'''
I woke up in the morning, as my parents ask me to follow and get breakfast. After breakfast have a little short stroll in Boulevard, a Mega Market. LOLs!
This is like a routine to my parents. Wonder why every Sunday they sure do this? LOL!
After that, went home... and starts with my studying of Tax!!! TAX!!! TAX!!! =.='''
Was like... feeling that there is nothing to study... So... was like kinda loose... And... Of course... cannot sit down there just study, walk around and talk. LOL!
Afternoon... I started to feel the pressure. LOL! Some how gets tired. @@ Go for a short nap when my mum asked me to go for a haircut. Good also. Can relax when having my haircut. So i go... Only during the haircut, the hair dresser show me my head. =.=''' Get what i mean? Show me my "head". LOL! I AM STRESSED! He said. LOL! Why? Cause a certain part of my head is "hairless". LOL! Should say my hair is dropping off in a very scary way. Luckily it is just little "holes" now. Just looking at it makes me feel like... OMG!!! LOL!
Went home, bathe, then read again. Sleep abit... then dinner. After dinner then... WHOLE NIGHT there read Tax Tax TAX! LoLS! Feel fear all of a sudden. Nervous... Wonder if i can make it through tomorrow! Take a Deep breathe... again... then continue. Whenever feel the fear, take a Deep Breathe... again... then continue. LOL!
But did manage to cover most of the part. Hope that tomorrow comes quick so this nervousness and stress can BEGONE! LOL!
Good Luck YA!
All the Best and be the Gods be with you.
...

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Day 67

29th November 2008
Saturday
Rain...
Today afternoon was raining heavily... makes me feel so calm... mind so empty. I woke up quite early. I start to read law when i just woke up... But after awhile, i on my comp and starts playing. =.='''
So... like not read much. But still, i just played for 2 hours. LOLs! Not bad also.
Then, have lunch, start whole afternoon studying. It was like... hmm... good thought. Can some how focus. Just that was more tired than usual. Feel like sleeping more. Get a very short nap, then continue with the study. LOLs. Then, hmm... did manage to finish the whole book. LOL! Not bad. XD
At night... haih~ night fall... games again... spend some little time study... finish the whole thing. Then had some little nap again. =.='''
After that... GAME! Relax! LOLS! Suppose that is unnecessary now! @@ Anyway...
So now, i can put my law book aside and focus on my tax. XD
Tax Tax Tax. After Tax, that is, tomorrow, will be the start... and also the end of everything. My exam... and it is also finally over. LOLs!
2nd Of December. My last day. Law paper too...
Good Luck! and all the best!

Friday, November 28, 2008

Day 66

28th November 2008
Friday
Today i woke up with a worn neck! So pain... whole day so pain... Even now is also giving me a sudden cramp. =.='''
Suppose last night i did not sleep well... i had dreams. I can't remember. But i am sure i had dreams.
I was supposed to be going to school to study but because of this "sore" neck, i skipped. LOL!
But i did manage to focus and study at home. XD That is somehow an accomplishment.
I go to school at 4 something... by then was raining heavily! @@
And ar... my neck pain... =.='''
of course, after i reach, i went to Insead room and start studying again. But was not as focus. LOL!
And!!! I FORGET TO BRING MY WALLET! T_T i cannot have my dinner. Sobs~
So i might as well watch them eat... and have my dinner later at 930 after class.
Today was like spotting questions and final questions. ^^ Did get a lot from the Lecturer, Mr Kho. He greet us all good luck and give some counseling just before then end of class. So nice a lecturer, where to find? XD
I will try my best to pass your paper. For you, and myself of course. XD And... someone who is important...
As i always said, there is no chances left, no time to waste...
GambatEH!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Day 65

27th November 2008
Thursday
Today i have to wake up early as was told by my parents. Today got some events going. LOLs. Joking la... just need to go to the temple to pray. LOL!
We meet up with some relatives there and had breakfast together. ^^
After that, go for some shopping at Saberkas. LOL! Lately was going to Saberkas a lot. LOL!
haha...
Anyway, was home at around 12. Today didn't touch any books. Haih~ why like that?
Anyway, i am going to school tomorrow. My last time to touch Law book. After tomorrow, will be tax, tax and tax. Hopefully i can totally abolish games starting Saturday. Why? because wanna set my mind for exams. !!!
!!!
Final is just a few days away now! OMG!!!
Anyway, wish me all the best!

I receive your sms today. Haha... just a few moments ago. ^^ Was happy when i receive it... it gave me... some how... a little motivation. I really do miss you. I suppose... if i do not stop writing here, i will never forget you. @@

Haha~ Most probably. I started because of you... end? When? Until the day i forget to write here, maybe that will be the day i forget you. Suppose that is not possible? Already reached Day 65 now. I am still the same... i never change. Take care ok?

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Day 64

26th November 2008
Wednesday
Today, i need to wake up early. Why?
because i am going to school to do revision! LOLS! So, i wake early and prepare for school. Had breakfast with Daniel, then go to Insead room and start studying. It was quite good as i did make a lot of notes and study quite a few topics today. LOLS!
By 9 something, Chris called and asked us whether wanted to go out with him or not? LOL!
So we go lo... luckily it is just awhile. XD
So after that, we came back at around 11 and continue with the study.
At 3 something, we grow tired. LOLs~ so we play a bit while studying... was taking video clips. XD
So funny. haha... after that i went home le... at home... also know la... sure is cannot study already. LOL!
So... so... like usual then... play play play... LOL
Until night time... still play...
but tomorrow need to wake up early... so stop early lo~
Sleep time...

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Day 63

25th November 2008
Tuesday
I woke up quite early today.
What i do? on comp then play game... =.=''' can easily guess huh... LOL! Today was like... spend quite a lot of time on playing!
Since the night is having a class... so... i prepare for class and stop playing earlier. Something happened in school today. @@
I was like arrive early. And i go to the classroom. No people there... so i stay there and study awhile... Then after like 1 hour, i go down to the computer lab. Then... i saw someone... that someone. i really don't know her... then she came and ask me: " are you from St. Paul?" @@ LOL?
Who the heck is this? How she know my primary school? a classmate from primary school? duh~ i didn't ask for her name... but i can't recall who is this... @@
Anyway... after that, i had my law class... the last class...
LOL!
Was so disappointed. DISAPPOINTED!
Why? My result lo!
Get only 46! Not even a pass! OMG!
=.=''' need to work harder now... Starting from tomorrow, that is the 26th of November, i will focus on my study! Law especially! LOL!
I cannot fail even once! =.=''' already defer the exam. If i am to fail, the time consume will be so much longer!!!
GAmBaTeh!!! One Go! PASS ALL! LOL!

Monday, November 24, 2008

Day 62

24th November 2008
Monday
Exam is so close now... yet i don't give a damn...
Why? i still am playing game every day... so worse... if i turn out to fail, i really is going to take all the blame myself for not studying!
i woke up with a little headache... and i continue to play games... and that make my head pains even more... haih~ but i did get some sleep after dinner...
I wasted a whole day playing games... wasting time... i need to control... perhaps i should go to school, so i have no comps to play... then i can study. LOL!
I think this maybe worth a try... will do it Wednesday as tomorrow is having the last class. Hmm... Zechs... This is no joke ok... must take it seriously now... less than a week to final now... the exam is only 2 days... just suffer for these few days then after that u can play all you want for 1 month!!! 1 MONTH!
=.='''
Gambateh!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Day 61

23rd November 2008
Sunday
Sunday... Forced to wake and go have breakfast with my parents. Today is nice... no rain. LOL.
I spend the day... like ... games... again... games... duh...
What to do??
i think of the exam... and i still play...
but... why?
today was spend meaninglessly. LOL!
...
...
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really no comment about it...
U know... ever since we broke up... every night... i don't have to wait for any sms... or even touch my phone...
My phone bill dropped. I feel... odd... not about the money... but about the burden i carry. I used to wait... wait... and wait... now... i don't need to wait... and even sms come... i feel lazy to even go and open it... last time... i will always be like expecting something... something from you... it has been 2 months... approximately 2 months now. Yet i still miss you every night every day... =.='''
I do not feel grief... i just feel weak.
Anyway... i will try to pull things together... let me be me again... hope that i can still win your heart back... but not now... Take care!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Day 60

22nd November 2008
Today is Saturday. A Saturday with no class. Of course, it is now so close to the exam that there will not be much class left as all are preparing for the finals.
Today i woke up early and followed my mum down to have breakfast. LOL! It is quite long now since i didn't have breakfast with my mum. After that, i go to my cous' house. We played there... and had some little mapling going on... and some chatting. LOLS!
Around 12pm, we go home as my brother is going to have his activities going. So... alone, i online and play alone. XD
Luckily there are friends in there... so we trained together... It was tiring... don't know why today was tired when i play. Maybe because of the morning... waking early...
4pm, i stopped... and get myself some rest.
I didn't study today! @@
OMG!
I just keep thinking about it in my mind... the exam is coming... the exam is coming... then questions appear... then i try to solve it... all happens in the mind... @@
Odd eh?
But maybe that is how i study when i am not studying? ? ><
My dad wanted me to follow him down as to be his "kuli" LOLs!!! Need to carry the Cooking Gas Tank down the staircase and up again. Some sort of exercise for me~
But... after that was carefree... again... nothing to do... today seems to had more time spend on games. @@
Oh dear...
i need to control now. Should have started 1 week ago... need at least 2 week cooling period before the exam... but now is left 1 week... so... 1 week of cooling period... MUST NOT BE BROKEN!
I'll try my best... Take Care and all the Best to me ^^
Good night...
i suppose you are sleeping now... it is late. Good to hear that you sleep early now. Take Care...

Friday, November 21, 2008

Day 59

21st November 2008
Friday... Sunny...
Guess what happen today? my mum is not working today. And... i woke up at 8!!! @@ OMG!
Earliest ever now... I was like feeling nausea when i woke up... after that... i had my breakfast... feel better... Then... start playing games... whole day! LOLS! But did stop once in a while for break. LOLs... Then 3 something, i needa prepare to school le... So sianz... 2x time cannot play til the end... anyway... i prepare for class... as today the result will be given... was quite nervous and hoping to know what i get. LOL!
And... Wohooo~ i get the 3rd highest ranking in class... although just 68 marks... LOL! Was quite happy... but...
I still need to work hard on my studies to ensure 100% pass.
Must jia you oh!
oh... and my parents came so late to pick me... waited til 11PM!!! =.='''
Luckily Fook Quan them accompany me til 1030. LOLs... so i just need to spend 30 mins alone. LOL!
Now i back home... already almost 12... so i decide to on this blog and start right away. haha... so committed? Yes... just as if i am committed to you dear... I really miss you once in a while... can conclude it as every night i miss you... LOL! May be cause the happy blue face you give me... hehe...
i still feel happy just looking at it...
Take Care.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Day 58

20th November 2008
Thursday, Sunny in the morning and raining in the afternoon.
Today was so carefree. Was like without worries. I woke up at 830 in the morning... earliest ever since ... long ago. LOLs~
What i do? i on my computer... then starts mapling... if not mistaken, i spend the whole day mapling! @@
Wasn't i supposed to be studying? Anyway... i didn't study... i hope i can hold myself together and stop this insanity. I need to focus more on my studies... there is no reason and even a tiny slight space or gap for failure...
So...
seems like there is inside conflict again...
But that is not the point. The point is that... there is a need to study! Study! STUDY!
=.='''
Sign~
Good Luck in holding yourself together...
And remember... remember your promise... remember everything...
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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Day 57

19th November 2008
Wednesday...
Today is having F6 exam. OMG?
Haha... it is like usual... i go to school at around 5... Then, go to my friend's house... get some tax and start to study some. LOL! why? because i did not study at all at home!!! Was saying that i will be studying i will be studying... in the end... do what? Nothing... Dreaming... =.='''
When we go into class for the exam, it has just started... just in time in another word... XD
So... is started doing... i didn't even flip through the questions like everytime... i just do... LOL!!!
And it ends up... i think it is better. LOL!
I finish first among all.. 830... LOLs... i was like walking alone... when delon called... asking me where am i... so we go for a meal at Da Light... LOLs... After that, only 900... dad not coming yet.. so i went to his hostel and hang there. LOL!
Until my mum called. XD
When i reach home... patch maple! Then started playing maple... since maple is having a 2x, i played... and got new server... everything new... all started all over again... this new world... said is specially for Malaysian~ Nah~ your head la... where got? Even I play also lagging... called smooth game play for Malaysian? All thumbs down~
Anyway, that is not important now... i should be putting more effort on my study rather than games. LOL!
It is late now... it is time to go to bed... ^^
Good night.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Day 56

18 November 2008
Tuesday... Sunny + rain
I woke up at 9 this morning. @@ earliest ever since... forget since when... tomorrow will be having exam... Haih~
just thinking about it give stress. LOL! Today is law class. It is like usual... just that that Daniel and Phang... still the same... keep disturbing me... =.='''
And... during break, Daniel wanted to have his dinner... too bad the chicken rice store he wanted did not open. XD So... nothing to eat. hahaha... Then end up buying snacks. LOL!
After class... go home lo... but today my parents was late... so Daniel accompany me. We talk about cars... and lols... future? @@
It is weird. Lately was dreaming about my family... all about my family... My cousins, my uncle... all came out in my dream... wonder what it means... LOL! Anyway, tomorrow is exam... and after tonight... there will be no more games for me... LOL!!!
Hahaha! Gambateh! Stand to your word... Only after exam then continue to play games... Please... must focus on exam now.
And also... take care... myself... and also you...

Monday, November 17, 2008

Day 55

17th November 2008
Monday... woke up 10 something in the morning... @@
WOW? getting earlier... just when i started mapling, Ah Jin called. Asking me whether want to go out or not... lols. Of course~ then i joined him. LOLs... we went to a new restaurant. The food was kinda expensive. LOLs~ But still ok la... cause it was like very comfortable there... even got a chess board! XD
We had a game of chess... and then... ate... =.='''
Just chicken chop rice and honeydew juice cost me RM10... LOLs~ kinda... worth also la... juice wor. LOLs~
After that, we went to Saberkas to find some games to play... he bought some... while i was still there considering whether to buy or not to buy... =.='''
Still considering... better don't la... So... i go home empty while he have 2 piece of game with him... Tonight i am totally not sure got class or not... so i just skipped it... if got then = skipped. No class = correct. LOLs~
Then, all night didn't touch my books again... game game game... haih~ wonder what will happen to me... people says, future is in your hand... i will look... and see...

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Day 54

16th November 2008
Sunday...
I actually hate today... =.='''
Why? Cause it is a full day class!!! And si all doing exercises. Alot Alot OF EXERCISES!
Anyway, it is close to exam also now. So it is a good thing to do anyway. So... today was like so tired... and my back hurt.. no idea why... =.=
Then... when i reached home... my mum asked me whether wanna do facial or not? XD
Of course i wan. XD
So... i take some hour relaxing... haha... Then... start with the games... I think i will need to work out on my tax and law... almost exam le... Gambateh!!!
Must put more effort... cannot play so much. If not... i will let myself down this time... also... i will let u go further... will be leave behind further... i don't want that to happen...
Take care....

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Day 53

15th November 2008
Saturday, Sunny.
I was awaken by my dad... when i was having a weird dream. I was like... sacrifice myself for my family members... it was like... so odd. And to my amazement, my sacrifice bring me more good. @@
Anyway, the worst part of the dream is that there is a giant centipede appear and my uncle take a hammer and hit it flat. Eww~ you know? the Juice of the bug spit out like... =.=''' and it is slimy and smelly... and... i even go near it and "study" it. =.='''
Anyway, not important about that... i woke up... go prepare for school. My stomach is not feeling good since morning until evening. So bad... i ate... i gone to poop... But still feel bad. Wonder why... and also gastric... @@
Ate still got gastric? Odd right?
Anyway, i feel better now... but still will feel slight pain once in a while. =.='''
When i came home, i started doing my homework. Hmm... F6 lecturer gave 3 questions for us to do at home. We had F5 class in the afternoon... i only have tonight to do! XD
Say is like that... but i was doing the homework when i was having F5 class. LOL!
i managed to do 1.5 questions in F5 class. So when i reached home, i bathe and have my dinner... continue with my homework and done. Wala!~ XD
Got plenty of time for games... But think about tomorrow, there is a lot of things to do... tomorrow is another whole day class of F6... Tax =.='''
And the lecturer told us it will be Intensive! @@
OMG!
Hope that i can do it...
I still think of you... always wanted to see you... yes... last week God gave me a chance. I screwed it. =.='''
Anyway, i don't know how to face you too... but i just wanted to see you from afar. Just wanted to know that you are happy and well. Your smile still amaze me... ^^Make me happy...
Take care...

Friday, November 14, 2008

Day 52

14th Nov 2008
Friday
Time flies... it is now 52 days... and already 14 of November... So close to exam now... Yet... i m not well prepared.
Tomorrow is having a full day class. So tired of it... so hate... !!!
But what to do? i must also go. Cannot skip class. Haih... and teacher told us that there will be intensive revision class. Oh dear... should be a lot of exercises to be done. Tired...
Just thinking about it feel tired... LOL!
Anyway... today is having exam. F5 exam. i just do 1 question! actually i did 2... but only 1 that is the one i have confident about.
What next?
Daniel and i done fast and we go to have our dinner... LOL!
we like walk all over King Center looking for our dinner. XD We wanted to have roasted honey chicken rice... but then, the tau key say no more... Then we want go have vegetarian... Walk til there... shop no open... =.='''
so Finally!!! we decide to have char kueh tiaw! LOLS!
We ate... and then... just finish eating, Delon called... he just finished his exam. LOL!
So... since we finish eating, i call him to wait for us at school. So we walk back to school. Only by then, i didn't see him at school. LOL!
So we guessed he must have gone to Mei Yin's hostel. LOL!
i went up since my dad is not here yet. Just when i reach... he is here... =.='''
So i have to go down stairs again. =.='''
So... reached home at 830... was early. LOL!
so... on comp... play play play like usual... my homework is still not done. =.='''
Feel annoyed... Duh!!!
Anyway... Hope that i can handle tomorrow's work well...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Day 51

13th Nov 2008
Thursday
Today's weather... i don't know how to describe. Sunny... rainy... wet. LOL! But i just remember the moon is bright tonight.
I woke up quite late today... and feeling dizzy too... So... i had quick lunch. After lunch, i watch The Matrix! LOL! Old movie le... But i still watch it since i feel bored... Today exam F4(Law)... yet i did not study yet. LOL!!!!
But, when i reach school at 5, i flip the books and text... reading and try to memories. !!! Just hope that i can pass. This is just a Mock Exam... hope i can do better in real exam and ensure a pass. !!!
Important!
I finish my exam at around 8 to 830 pm. Then i give a call to my dad. He cam and pick me quite fast as they are also outside.
After that, we go for dinner at JLN Song. Hmm... Was quite full even now. I ate quite a LOT!
Tomorrow is also exam... F5(Performance Management)... haven't study also.. But i am not taking the exam in the final... so not so worry... HaiH~ but also must try my best in mock right?
Anyway... Hope i can make it...
Good luck!
I saw you online today... Wonder what are you doing there... i did not PM you... nor did i chat... i was thinking of going offline as soon as possible... LOL! But anyway, i left it there... Hope that you are as happy as always. ^^ take care ok?
Nights!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Day 50

12 Nov 2008
Sunny... Rainy... And rainy wet!
I woke up with a great sunshine in the morning... Since my bro is going out, i am left alone at home. I on the comp, start playing maple... play play play... feel bored... actually... i am having an exam tomorrow! But i haven't study!
What to do? no mood study also... So... play play play... Then 4 something... i go bathe and get ready for school. And homework also haven't done. So i did go to school a bit earlier to finish it. LOL! Did finish it. XD
Lucky~
Mdm Tan was like "shooting" again today... but at least not as "fierce" as last time. XD
Do the exercises she gave, do do do... until 930. =.='''
But got short break... today was a bit more relieve. LOL!
But she say that we need to prepare for Saturday and Sunday class! Why? cause there will be intensive revision! Meaning, no time to breathe!!! =.='''
Yeah right... scared? stress? no actually... don't know why... just don't have the "fire" that will set me burning and focus on my study... But no matter what... i will try to attempt it! i will not let myself down... i will not let you down...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Day 49

11 Nov 2008
Tuesday... Sunny...
I woke up earlier... 10am. @@
Getting more and more early... LOL! good right?
Life is getting better... But it is only today... i realised i fear death so much! So So Much!=.=
Why i say so?
Because... i was going to school today... and on the journey... my dad was driving quite fast!!! And scary... i was like... i fear that i will die @@
I don't used to be feared. Last time, i was like no worry... no fear. Now... scared... =.='''
Anyway, after that i went to school... Like usual... today's class is like ok... until that daniel start disturbing me... and phang join him Disturbing me. =.='''
So... ended up like no listen at all... Anyway... i at least know what the lecturer is talking about at least. LOL! It was Ok~ LOL!
It is like this... another night... u know... i really think a lot... And that caused me to be a bit like... worry too much... and my hair is dropping a lot nowadays... Really a lot... sometimes it is so scary...
Anyway... take care... you too ok?

Monday, November 10, 2008

Day 48

10th November 2008
Monday... Today i woke up 11 in the morning. Nice? ^^ Yes. it is... i am waking earlier and earlier. Now is getting better and better. I sleep at 230 now... And having a short nap before class is nice... cause it can give a boost on the performance in class as also apply to the ability to listen. XD
So... i went to class at 4 something like usual... and when i reach... they was already at the lab.
Go there watch them play chess and so on... so i decided to online... i downloaded some games... surfing with Google... then sharp 630... i go to class. LOL!
Since i was the only one in class when i arrive, it really feel odd. Daniel, Delon and Phang was having an exam... =.='''
Then soon... someone came... finally... not one on one with the lecturer. Anyway, now is not lectures... it is just revision class now... so... the lecturer drop down some exercise... and went off. Then, Lina came... LoL! Was still focusing on my work when she start to ask me about the notes and so on... and then... started to talk there.. =.= although just 3 person...
LOL! But also did done my part and complete the exercise... not actually complete... but did do some questions.
Then around 8pm, Delon come... he had finished his exam. @@ FAST!
1 hour like that he finished...
So... when he came, the exercise stopped. LOL! started talking there... All over the class...
Then Daniel come... When he come, it is impossible to study. XD Play games, chit chat... LOL!
Then 830, Phang came... LOL!
Then join in the chit chat... And that is it... the class like stopped when Daniel came. LOL!
930pm, go home...
Go home... upload the games into my comp... Then... now, still haven't try it... might as well try it after typing. ^^
Again... i thought of you now... still remember last time, we always start smsing starting now... until 12 something... sometimes it reached 1 or 2am. haha...
I missed those time... i did... now i do not have it... regret?
yes... regret... but what to do?
It is remembered... until my death... until my soul is dead...

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Day 47

9th November 2008
Sunday... It a sunny, cloudy and rainy day. i woke up in the morning, sunny... before going to school... cloudy... during class... rainy. =.=
So... there is no suitable word to say today...
I woke up... with a little pain in the chest... and top of my stomach... that place should be the liver... i think... i must have my liver damaged... =.='''
Why? because of all these late sleep and all these things... I sometimes fear... i don't know why... i fear... death... Seems like i still don't want to face death... It is still too early for me...
Stop thinking...
So... i watch the unfinished series... Finish it today... and after awhile... times up. 1.30 pm already... prepare to school... Reach school just on time. LOL!
Today was about Tax Planning class. It is kinda nice... But i feel a slight burden... making me down and a bit moody. LOL!
But anyway... it is ok now...
After class... the rain was so heavy. I went to pick my brother and then... poof... go home. XD
Home Sweet Home...
Started with a bath. Since i got caught in the rain ... quite wet when i was home... So directly go for a bath... After bath... dinner time... after dinner... Game... =.='''
Only now that i stopped to write down what happen today... it is now already 12+ midnight... should be considered as another already... Haha...
No matter...
U slept? Should be... take care...

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Day 46

8th November 2008
Time is getting shorter and shorter... even i feel my life is getting shorter and shorter... i feel tired... but there is little urge for sleep... today... i saw you... i really saw you... i even meet you... my report about my feelings when i saw you today... i can only hand in a blank report...
Why?
Reason is simple. I had 0 idea what i feel. I feel sad... i feel happy... i feel anxious to go talk to you when i first saw you... But i have no courage... But God decides that you appear in front of me... giving me a push to you... yes He helped... But me... i still dare not do anything...
At least i see that you are fine. I am happy for that... and grateful to God... that you are safe and happy... healthy all along. ^^ Hope that keep up. i saw you smile... i feel happy... yes... i did. But i was running away... too fast that i cannot catch a longer time with you... i really regret that... but that is what it is... do take care of yourself well...
I was feeling down after saw you in The Spring. I reached home at around 2pm. It was early... and lonely too... because my parents was out. That is good... at least i got some time to hold up myself. ^^ No one can see me cry or drop a single tear... good that no one will worry...
See... it is already Day 46... didn't know i had already been writing this long... sometimes... i really feel tired... every night there is a must for me to type what happen everyday. But this may be a very nice remedy for me when i feel sad. Even when i feel happy... i can come here... to share... Of course... i know there should be no people that can or will read this blog. ^^
Anyway... Cheer up ok?
It will not be a good thing staying this way. Exam is close... so close now... and you haven't start your revision... Take care... We 2 must take care of ourselves well...

Friday, November 7, 2008

Day 45

7th November 2008
Today's a Friday... Friday. It was cloudy when i woke up. Late? nope. The weather is like that. I take my lunch while playing Maple. LOL!
Then, after that, i take a short rest. Continue with my drama series. But soon after, i need to go pick my bro since it is raining.
Go to school... then... law class... Today was talking a lot. But didn't interrupt the class like everytime. LOL!
So... was quite ok... Not ok actually... cause was not listening!
=.='''
I really dislike Friday nowadays... No idea why... I don't feel as good as other days... hm...
Anyway... Let it be... Time will pass...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Day 44

6th November 2008
Thursday... Sunny...
Today, i was forced to wake up early. Why? To bring my bro to school as "Parents". LOLS!
So, like usual, my dad bring us there. When i arrive, i saw my teachers. They still remember me. LOLs... And most sarcastic thing that Puan Jong ever said to me happened this day. What is it? She say... wow, u upgrade to be parents now. LOLs!
Anyway, means no harm. XD
I just sit in there like a dummy. And only 10+ it is over. So, i take him for lunch before going home as we will not be coming out from the house after lunch. LOL!
So, we settle our lunch at a coffee shop. Hmm... Cost me Rm 11. It is ok. LOLS!
After that, we go home. Started Maple... Then 2 something, stop playing and rest. I was quite tired. Since i had to wake up early... LOL! So... i tried to sleep. And that stupid bro of mine... he keep on disturbing me. =.='''
Can't sleep...
No choice. Don't sleep lo... Then go to class at 530. Today was late. LOLs. But still not late for class. XD
Was feeling like collapsing... LOL! And that Daniel and Phang... OMG! Today like "sot ki"... "harrass" me the whole class. After harrass me then harrass my pencil case. =.='''
Anyway, didn't mean any harm. LOL! At least that keep me awake. =.='''
After class, my dad came to bring me home. Was punctual today. LOL!
Home... then on my comp... play a bit of game... but was like watching youtube more than playing game. LOL! Watching some very funny and stupid stuff =.='''
Now 11+... Today is almost over...
Just like usual... it seems you came... and you go... so freely in my mind... that i can't control...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Day 43

5th November 2008
Wednesday, Sunny.
It was a fine day. i woke up 11 in the morning. Seems like i am getting better. Had reduced my time for bed from 5 to 3 now and wake up earlier. From 1 to 11 in the morning. Good news. ^^
I woke up, and i saw my bro still not prepared for school. So i asked him why is he not ready... he said he don't want to go. LOLs! Like that also can? Anyway, it is ok as there is already no more class. Now only go there to waste time.
So, the afternoon was just playing games. Since he is at home, we played Dota. With his friend. LOLS! And was good games. Because... i win. XD
Anyway, after that, my dad called quite early. 4pm only. Luckily i go bathe earlier at 3. So that i can prepare for school right away. I packed my bag, then go. When arrive, we went to the office to make payment for the course next year. Hmm. Like usual... dad will ask a lot of questions. After that, i went to my friend's house. LOL! Hang around there before class. When reached school, that Kim Leng asked us to sign at a birthday card. For who? i asked... Quan~
LOLs! i didn't know!
Quan is my Dota Teacher. XD and also a nice friend. Really nice. Cause i told him a lot of things too. Hmm... so... after signing, the lecturer came too. He also ask the lecturer to sign. LOL!
Then, good thing, Mdm Tan also played along. She went to the cake house near the school and bought a cake for him. LOLS! Still had a short party in class. LOL!
Anyway, my dad came to pick me up on time today. And my bro is in the car as well. So meaning must be got go to some place else before going home.
As i expected. We are going to jln Song for our "dinner". LOL!
So we ate... Hmm... i ate quite much tonight. =.=
Anyway, after dinner, go home of course. I start playing games when i reach home. Games again...
hahaha!!!
... A rainy night...

Missing you...

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Day 42

4th November 2008
Today... i was like so blur. Wake up blur... Everything blur. Even my sight is blurred half way in class. Don't know why...
I woke up at 12. It was better than yesterday. Even my sleep is always 1 hour earlier than yesterday. It is good. But... i was having sudden heart pain today. Twice. Once in school. Another when i sleep. But it is over now. LOL!
I go to school as usual on 5. Then, after dinner with Phang, we go back to class. We were late. LOLS! The food we ordered took 20 minutes to serve. SLOW!
Anyway, we didn't miss out much as Mr.Kho was recapping what was taught yesterday.
So... as i said... my vision blurred all of sudden during class. Don't know why... I was like fainting... But still not fainted. LOL!
But that was scary. Anyway, don't think about it too much. It will get better soon.
I think i saw someone that had walk in my life... Linda Wong... But i cannot be sure. Because was far. She was sitting in "igloo". Anyway, it is not important. Just curious. Seems that i do not hate her anymore.
I reached home at around 10. So... see my bro playing Maple... Join of course. LOL! So that is all... Still... i am typing this when i am playing half way. LOLS!
...

Monday, November 3, 2008

Day 41

3rd October 2008
Monday... Last night, i sleep at 5.30am. Early? Yes, very early. =.='''
Had severe headache when i wake up at 1pm. OMG~ Anyway, just treat it as if nothing happen, i had a quick lunch, then pack for tonight's class. Monday class is really tiring. Just don't know why i hate Monday having class.
So i went to school... with my headache...
Then today was having revision class. So the lecturer drop down exercise let us do. So just do lo...
Then after class... came home...
Just like usual... Just that during the journey... i was thinking about someone. I was thinking about you...
Anyway... Tired of the pain... Maybe should get some rest...
But the sleeping seems to leave me so far... that i am not sleeping well...

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Day 40

2nd November 2008
Sunday. Sunny + Cloudy
Today, i woke up quite early in the morning and followed my parents for breakfast. And of course, they will certainly go for shopping. I as well, followed. Had some talk about my course with my mum during the journey.
After that, reached home. Then i started to feel that there is nothing to do... So... start to on my comp when Isabella smsed. Then started mapling until my bro came home... and continue as my bro asked me to help him train.
Then 4 something... stop mapling and get some rest. Was thinking of having a nap while saw my parents watching drama. So i joined them... =.=
Didn't get any rest today...
So tired...
Night Fall... Had my dinner... then started the games again. See... seems like every post i write, is related to game. I never get the time to study!
Can i continue on like this?
=.='''
God Knows...

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Day 39

1st November 2008
As usual, a Saturday is a day i dislike. Why? Because always having class in Saturday. And it is whole day. But good thing... i was not having class this afternoon when teacher told us that the afternoon class will be canceled. So happy to hear that. LOLs. But the afternoon was so tiring... and tedious. As mum was already scolding my bro for losing the key in school this morning... and then, i go down to pack lunch for my dad...
After that go to salvation army to put down those clothes. Then after that, my mum came home, asking about the course. I hate this. Everytime that come to this sure is like there nag nag nag...
ask me do this, ask me do that... say me stupid... what so ever... haih~ Tired of it... So ignorance is a way to solve this. =.=
So, they called the school asking about the details. Good thing... don't have to bother me. I don't really bother. =.='''
Anyway, we had a simple dinner after this. Then had some supper...
It was quite a boring and... tiresome day...