Day 399

27th October 2009
Tuesday
I suppose... It is almost time for me to stop this thing. I heard a lot of advices. I am stupid to keep this promise up. I am stupid to give hope. But, as long as i think it is worth it, it will worth everything to me. Anyway, my conscious is telling me to stop, while my heart leads me on to keep it up and hang on. LOL! Inner conflict once again.
It was 8 in the morning when i woke up. My bro gave me a kick, that is what wakes me up. He is still sound asleep then. LOL! Anyway, i go clean up, then on laptop just like usual. But, this type of live will be over soon. November is coming. LOL! It sounded like the end of the world for me. LOL!!! Later, i play some Dota on my own. My whole day was spent like that... Boring right? Haih... Oh, my downloads completed today too. I was arranging my files today. But, the anime is still downloading. Hope that it will done before November. LOL! Around 5pm, i off my laptop and go bathe. I cook myself a cup of maggi noodle and ate some cheese cake. After that, i get a nap. When i woke up, it was around 7. I feel a little tummyache. So, i skipped going to the temple with my parents today. Haih... I feel quite lazy too lately. Lazy to do everything. Lack motivation. Around 9, my mum called and asked my brother and I to follow them out for dinner. So, we prepare ourselves and wait for our parents to come and fetch us. Dinner... I really don't have the appetite. I feel lazy about everything. Even eating... LOL! After eating some "Kuih", i feel full then had my tea. We reached home around 1030pm. I on facebook and MSN, just like usual. At the same time... i am doing the blogging. Haha... Shall i continue to make you the birthday gift i think about whole night last time? Or should i give up and just send you a happy birthday sms? Haih... Perhaps... i should just let it be and stop thinking so much...