Day 666

21th July 2010
Wednesday
Insane day... 666 is actually a so called bad day. But, that is not cared upon anyway. I woke up around 7 in the morning... lets skip... went to attend engagement of my sis and her bf from Taiwan. Her dad treat us to lunch, then went to JPJ with Alvin Koh n LKB. Anyway, this is just the content. What happen is at night... The party. I went with Delon... reached around 7. Sanity is never the word to describe the night. Human crowd... i hate it... Smoking for the first time... i did it... and... i don't like it. Feels like choking... Jokes throughout the night... n rain falls. You always came into my mind when the rain falls down. I wonder why? There are always some moments of silence for me when i think of you. Leaving the insane crowd for a few minutes to reminisce our time together... Perhaps it is the engagement, the ring...
I even go count the date to day... and i get 666...
i am always so speechless when it comes to you... Double clicking your msn... and yet don't know how to start. What a failure i am... KEEP UP! ACCA FIRST! THEN I CAN COME FOR U... this is what i can tell myself everything i can't find the courage to face you...

Days xxx (Lost Count)

22th June 2010
Tuesday
On the 9th of June, i have finished F8, Audit. I m now closer to my promise. I wonder, if you still remember? Or perhaps, you have forgotten about it... None the less... i will keep my promise. Hopefully, by December 2011, I can face you with ACCA in my hands... Hopefully... I do miss you. I really do...

Day 519

24th February 2010
Wednesday
Yesterday, Tuesday, class day. LOL! I woke up early around 8, for my notes. LOL! I am 3 chapters behind. So, i spent nearly the whole day working on my notes. After completing Chapter 4, i feel tired. So, i rest a bit, then continue with it until nearly 1pm. Finally, Chapter 5. Of course, i can't finish it. So, i rest some more, when i go to school around 5, i continue with it. Luckily, Chapter 5 also complete. Left chapter 6. Luckily, the lecturer didn't check on it. Anyway, i did try to complete it. Just left chapter 6. Anyway, the day was spent mostly on Audit Notes. LOL! Tired! Yet fulfilled. LOL!
Today, i woke up 11 something. It must be that i m really tired from what have been slowing me down. After knowing that i pass my F5 and F9, i am more stress free. But, i still feel the pressure. Haha. Good thing. F8, is a must to complete this June. P papers, will be completed by 2011. Hopefully, everything are on time. Good Luck! All the best! So i can confess to you, closer to complete. No matter what the outcome is. Perhaps, what they told me are true. You had already gave up on me. But, at least, i don't want regrets. Leaving is already a big regret. Hope everything can go well.
Night fall, Tiff called and we went out, she get the songs she wants. It have been ages since she asked me for the songs. LOL! Finally, she got it. 4gb+ of songs. LOL! Treated to Starbucks + a cup of hot chocolate. Thanks. XD Didn't know 4gb of songs worth this much. LOL!
This should be all for now. GO! GO! GO! Dream is not a dream when there is ACTION!

Day 517

22th February 2010
Monday
Today is the day. Result is coming out. The morning... I tried to keep myself calm by doing F8 notes. However, after completing Chapter 4, i feel lazy. So, i on drama and started watching. Around 1, i starts to get nervous while waiting for ACCA website to load. Daniel called and told me that he pass. That makes me more nervous. After awhile, i finally went into the site. Shocked! I pass both papers! Excitement and achievement. F5 got 63! A 6x marks is very rare for F5 and i really do have a feeling of achievement. LOL! Congratulations to myself. Of course, to all my classmates and juniors too. Congratulations! Keep it UP! The afternoon was spent with the 2 Alvins. We went to Gizmo for some games. Home... LoL! So, this is all for today.
Few days ago... lols... I just remember yesterday, i saw ur FB posts and MSN post. I feel like knowing why... but i never ask. I don't dare to ask? LOL!...

Day 513

18th February 2010
Thursday
Few days ago, was Chinese New Year. Busy with visiting. But that is not me. I just stay at home... LOL! Boring? Perhaps. But, it is like usual. Only that i went to Gizmo with The alvins. LOL! So lame... CNY go gizmo play games. LOL!!! That was on the 16th.
Next day... Spent whole day at home. LOL!!! TV and laptop are my best friends. LOL!!!
Today, i follow my friends out for visiting. It was 10 something when they came. After that, we went out for more visiting. Delon's first. Then went to Mdm Laura's house. LOL! Her kids are kinda cute. But, i wont change my mind for that. I like children, but i won't want them. Bringing them to the world, is like giving them worries and suffering. LOL! After that, we went to Ryann's house too. After that, we went to Wendy's. She is FTMS staff. LoL! Her house was quite big. After that, i went home and Delon follows. Awhile later, Daniel came. So, we together went off to pick Wei Wei then went to Chen Pin's. Secondary school's classmate. LOL! Had some chat, then we went to Wei Wei's house. We were suppose to visit Delon's and stay at his house having liquor until a certain time. But, Daniel was tired. LOL! So, the plan canceled. LOL!!!
That's all for today. Haiz... ...

Day 510

15th February 2010
Monday
Happy Chinese New Year! LOL! Happy Valentine's Day! LOL!!! Haiz... Lately was busy... Although i totally have no idea of what am i busying on. Preparing for the New Year? Perhaps? Cooking, shopping, cleaning... Sianz... It's so extra. LOL! Anyway, i can't recall much. I just knew that the first day of CNY, i fall sick. This is totally annoying. Luckily, it was at night. The afternoon, i spent my time at my cousin's house. We play games and i helped Pauline install PPS. She wanted to watch PPS and helped her install Chinese programme into her computer. After that, install PPS. The worse thing about pps is that it take up all the line speed. LOL!!! That is bad. We had a bad time playing the games. LOL!!! After that, we went down to play badminton. Badminton... The day was basically... ended this way. First day of CNY. Bored? LOL! Quite~
Today, i woke up quite early as i sleep quite early. Early morning, i finish my movie and was checking Facebook... around 10am, i clean up and went out with my dad to visit my relatives. My uncle. LOL! Talking about uncle, New Year eve, we went to my mom's side uncle's house for gathering. His new house, was near to kota samarahan. That means, we pass through Riveria. LOL! Riveria. Haha. Your house. Perhaps? Anyway, i had my dinner, sumptuous one. After that, go home. I think i was sick already then...
ENDED! Chinese New Year. LOL! What is it all about? Gathering. Valentine's Day... LOL! Hahaha... This year's valentine was spent at home. Just like every year. Even with you... it's my bad. Never did i do anything for you. So bad of me.

Day 506

11th February 2010
Thursday
Yesterday... LOL! My memory is not so good recently. Just a little of what happen i also can't remember well. Perhaps, i should use back to blog everyday rather than blogging every 2 days. LOL! Since my memory is getting weaker, is it possible to forget you? This is such a stupid question right? Hahaha!
LOL! Speechless as i am... I recall watching a movie that i downloaded. The Rebound. It is about a relationship between an elder woman with a younger guy. LOL! It is quite funny. Night time, i was chatting on msn like usual. Did i went out last night? I can't remember. I just hope that when it come to exam, my memory don't fail on me. LOL! Good Luck!
It was 9 something in the morning, when i woke up with a quite severe headache. LOL! I don't really like it. My life is a little unstable lately. Late sleep, early wake. Perhaps, i need to get some sleep early and do exercise more regularly. Healthy healthy please. LOL! I rarely visit the temple now. Please do meditate more and wake yourself. LOL! It is like writing a note to wake myself. Anyway, night time, went out shopping a little then go fetch my brother. We went to have our dinner. Around 10 something, we reached home. I helped my parents prepare the ingredients for cooking. After that, i spent my time on MSN. LOL!
How are you now? Sometimes, i really wonder. Better off without me? Hahaha. Should be. Take care anyway. I still misses you.

Day 504

9th February 2010
Tuesday
Yesterday was a day... I spent almost the whole day outside. Firstly, i follow Alvin and Nicro to send their stuff and collect their stuff... Then, we go pick up Alvin Tan and go to Gizmo for GAMES! LOL! It was long ago since i never stay in a CC for so long. 4 Hours and above. My God! After that, we went home and get bathe and had our dinner. We went off again around 8pm. We go to Tan's Shop to get our haircut. Nice one. After that, we had some tea at the coffeeshop nearby. LOL! Reached home around 12am.
Morning, 9 something, i woke up. Facebook... Then, DOTA! LOL! But, awhile later, i watch Twilight New Moon. I finished it today. LOL! Then, Dota with my bro again. Around 4, i go prepare for class. When i reach school, i go to Food Dynasty for some refreshment. LOL! After that, i went to class and started to work on my notes. NoteS!!! LOL! Class starts at 630... Recess! I went to Food Dynasty again. But this time, i go with Delon, Ryann and Damien. LOL! After that, go back to class. What makes me feels more satisfied is that, this time, my exercise get better score. At least, both of it get a pass and one even get 10 out of 12. Such Satisfaction. LOL! Anyway, i intend to do better and comfirm my pass in June! GOOD LUCK!

Day 502

7th February 2010
Sunday
Yesterday... Holy Cow. It was really tiring! It was 8 in the morning when i woke up. My phone rang for a few times already. It was Delon. I am late! I quickly pack my stuff and went off. We go to pick Terence first, then we went to King Centre to get Mei Ying. After that, breakfast. LOL! I didn't eat as i don't feel like eating that time. We went to the badminton court at 9 something. Started playing... Wow... We play from 930 until 1230! That is... LOL! PRO! Hahaha. So tiring too. Then, i went to Mei Ying's place with Delon to clean up, then we go for lunch. Class!!! LOL! After class, went home. Play some games, then went out with parents go pick my bro as he has a dinner. Then, we had our dinner. After that, Alvin called and asked me to join them for a drink. LOL! So, again, i followed. It was quite late then. Anyway, i did follow as well. Chat chat... It was 1 something in the morning when we all went home. I clean up and get some rest.
It was 8 something when i woke up this morning. After cleaning up, i watch drama. Today, i completed the drama! Finally... LOL! After that, i need to help my parents with the house cleaning. 7pm, i prepare myself to go basketball. !!! YEA! BABY! Continuous exercise! Now my leg muscle and arm muscle pain. LOL! But, i don't care. Haha! REST!

Day 500

5th February 2010
Friday
Day 500. Wow? LOL! I myself can't believe it myself. Yesterday, i got the news that my friends gone from in a relationship to single. It is kind of sad as both of them are my friends. I went out at night with my parents, then, Tiffany (The female character) called and asked me Isaac's (The male character) friend's phone number. So, i don't know what is happening, i told her. Then, after my dinner, i went home. I on msn and just knew that they had some issues again. She ran off. LOL! So funny. Then, Isaac was complaining to me about everything that they've been through. Again, i feel that, i am blessed. You never give me this much problems and this much pain... this much worries. At least, not as much. Besides, i am not facing this type of problems too now. LOL! Love... is so hard to understand. It may be simple, yet it can be hard. So, i listen to both of them talking out their heart. Hopefully by doing so, this can help them.
Today, lucky i have peace in the morning. I don't mind helping them. After i played maple for awhile, i off and started the downloads and go work on my notes. After awhile, i watched drama... Night time, i had dinner with my cousins. Again, time to face them. LOL! This is really a new task to me. Facing 2 friends who ended their relationship. I used to only face one. Now face 2. Furthermore, both are my friends! LOL! Hopefully everything can end well. There seems to be no turning back for them. But, no matter what, hope the can end well without hurting each other too much.

Day 498

3rd February 2010
Wednesday
Yesterday got class. So, basically, i went early like usual. But this time, i had my dinner there and then went to class at 5 and started working on my notes. Time flies when it comes to doing notes. Awhile later, 6 already. The lecturer came then i stopped my notes and go prepare myself for class. Class... Then, go home... That's all. Nothing much.
Today, i woke up around 8. But it feels so late. I don't know why... Just a feeling. Maybe because of the nightmares that haunts me nearly whole night. LOL! Anyway, i check my downloads... then... i was playing Dota. After a game, i stopped and watched Drama. Drama Drama until my bro came home. So, i play a game of Dota with him. After that, stopped again. LOL! Checking Facebook, playing stupid games... off and had a rest. Then, LKB called and told me that my salary is ready. WOhoo! Finally... So, we went out at around 8 after my dinner. We went shopping, then go to had a drink at Jalan Song. Reached home already nearly 1130. Clean up, then on comp and started blogging. LOL! This is all for today. Tomorrow will continue with the notes! COMPLETE AND EDIT! Hahaha!

Day 496

1st February 2010
Monday
Monday... a day without class. Also a day when my friends are mostly free. It was quite early in the morning when Alvin Koh called me and asked if i wanna join him to go to BDC to have our haircut. Since i still got some housework to do, i don't want to follow. After i completed my housework, i on my comp and let my download run. While doing so, i go watch drama and have my lunch. Then, Alvin called again.So, we went out and go to Hock Lee. Meet Nicro there, then we went to Gizmo to play games. Sadly, Gizmo is having some maintenance going on. So, we went to CL to have our game. LOL! Today we played some very old games. RedAlert2. LOL!!! Anyway, around 7, we stopped and went home. I had my dinner then... online. I was checking facebook. Then, found Dota6.66b ai map. Erm... Later on, it is now. LOL! So, this is all for today. LOL! Short... Yesterday... I woke up late. My parents bought lots of stuff. Afternoon i didn't follow my dad out to have badminton. Then, at night, lol... i was watching storm rider then my dad asked me to follow them out. To The Spring. So lame... i have no idea why i needed to go. Anyway, i just follow to prevent further nagging and complaining... SHOPPING. Of which i am totally not in the mood to do so... That should be all. ...

Day 494

30th January 2010
Saturday
Yesterday?... Yesterday i can't remember what happen. I just knew that i am tired. LOL! Of course i mean today. Today... got class... night time go basketball. Actually, something interesting happen today. I wake up in the morning, follow my mum to BigSpoon to have our breakfast. LOL! After that, came home and started playing Dota with my bro. After some Dota, already 10 something. I stopped and go watch Drama to finish my drama. LOL! It was around 12 when my dad came home. He was like very excited. He asked us to look at the window. Someone is fighting downstairs at the coffee shop. LOL! Who cares??? My drama is more important. LOL! Bathe, prepare for school. CLASS... LOL! My previous questions that the lecturer give... was marked. I scored 9 and a half out of 20. Too bad. Just a little bit more to pass. But, that means i still need more hardwork. LOL!!!
Basketball... LOL! Quite fun... and tired! After that, i went home bathe and follow my parents out for dinner. Meet them while having dinner. LOL! Such coincidence. Haha... We have our dinner and chat until 11. Reached home, clean up... now i online and blog. LOL! I used to blog everyday. Now, i hardly blog. Recently, i started blogging again after that incident. Haha. So cute... A lie wake me up again. So sarcastic.

Day 492

28th January 2010
Thursday
Yesterday... nothing much happen... Just some bad dreams... ... ...
It was 6 in the morning, my bro's phone alarm rang. LOL! He put lion dance's anthem, so loud and so annoying, waking me up as well. I went back to sleep after he off the alarm.
8 something, i woke up. I check mail, on facebook... LoL! Just like what i do all the time. I just remember my audit notes for chapter 4 is still undone. LOL! Anyway, i didn't complete it anyway. I on garena afterwards. Today i have no mood for maple. LOL! After some Dota, i off my comp and started watching Drama. DRAMA!!! When my bro came home, we continue watching until the end of 1 episode. We then go play Dota again. I think i spend almost whole afternoon playing Dota. 4 something, i stopped for some rest and go bathe. After that, i had my dinner. Rest... LOL! Sleep directly after dinner... that must have add some weight! Anyway, who cares. Later, i follow my parents out for shopping. Reached home around 1030pm. Clean up then online. I suppose... this is all. AUDIT!!! NOTES!!! Must do it tomorrow morning. LOL! Hahahaha!

Day 490

26th January 2010
Tuesday
A day that got class. F8... AUDIT! It is really tiring. Yesterday didn't write, basically, it was due to going out to play nearly whole day. LOL! Went shopping with Alvin Koh and the gang, and then go dinner, after that went to cyber cafe for some more Left4Dead. LOL! Anyway, that was yesterday.
It was 8 something in the morning when i woke up. After cleaning up, i was thinking... should i do my notes or just started playing games... So, in the end, i decided to do notes first then play. Finally, 10 something, i completed the audit notes. Of course, just the chapter that the lecturer taught in the last class. After that, it is mapling time. I played until nearly 1pm. LOL! Then, lunch. After lunch, i watch my bro dota. LOL! I actually didn't play much games today. That is quite special! LOL!!! Anyway, around 4, i left for school. I went into the MIT lab then was reading Audit again. Of course, i can't spent few hours sitting there reading audit... i check the computers and found GENERAL! A strategy game. So, i tried to play... luckily, still manage to win in my first attempt. LOL! Nice job! LOL!!! Not really... Around 615pm, i went into class. The lecturer was already here. Class... CLASS! LOL! ... It is really tiring having Audit. I don't know why... it doesn't really seems to be that hard. Maybe it is the pressure? Oddly, just 1 paper can give me such pressure? Unbelievable. Anyway, i don't think this will stop me from reaching my goal. I can't stop. Even if i worry about my previous exam, EVEN IF I FAILED! I AM WILLING TO GO FOR 3 THIS TIME. I really mean it. I won't lose no more. I WILL REALLY TRY MY BEST. Try again and again, until i achieve it. Besides, i believe i can!

Day 488

24th January 2010
It was 10 in the morning when i woke up. So late... It was because last night i went out with Alvin Koh and Alvin Tan them to Gizmo to play left4dead. LOL! It was simply funny and FUN! LOL! We on cheats and spawn those special zombies. It was so fun all along. Anyway, i reached home around 1am then after clean up direct went to bed.
After i woke up this morning, headache struck and make me feel nausea. LOL! Perhaps it was due to late sleep last night? No idea. Anyway, i on my laptop and started playing for awhile. MAPLING again. LOL! After a few minutes, i stopped and on msn to find someone to chat. Only Ling Chien chat with me. Anyway, around 1340, i prepare to go for badminton with my dad. LOL! Badminton!!! 4pm, after badminton, went home to get some rest of which i didn't really get my rest. I was watching my bro playing Dota and downloading that stupid warkey to be used in Dota.
650pm, prepare to go for basketball. LOL!!! INSANE! But that is not really insane. Just... exercise. I want to get back to 60kg! LOL! Anyway, that is not what i really want. I don't know. Perhaps, i don't like what i am now. That's why i want to go back in time. But that is impossible. Everyone knows that. Haih... Speechless as always...

Day 486

22th January 2010
Friday
Wow... 2010 already. It has been really long. I thought... i can forget you. I thought... i can let it go. I thought... if i stop this blog... it will be my first step to forget you. No... sadly, NO! This is not the truth. Just few days ago, i tell a lie. Which i may have tricked everyone around me, but not myself... Jessie Liew... What a great name i came up with. Peoples, friends... all think she really existed. LOL! So funny that i laugh all day, thinking about how successful i am in this fake account. But... for no reason, i feel disappointed. I feel sad. Reason for this sadness, no idea... Just feel sad for no reason! Then, you came into my mind. What's happening? Seems that, you still own a big space in my heart. Why???
Just yesterday, i've decided to delete that fake account, end this lie. But damage had been done. But at least, i knew what i am doing now. Again, i affirm your status in my heart. You might really be the one. What can i say? I can just sign... tell myself, let God decide for me. My love is not dead. It is just merely left me. Not with me... Because... it is owned. Hahaha... How sarcastic can this be. I actually came back to blog here. BACK TO WHERE I BEGIN! Hahahaha!