Day 486

22th January 2010
Friday
Wow... 2010 already. It has been really long. I thought... i can forget you. I thought... i can let it go. I thought... if i stop this blog... it will be my first step to forget you. No... sadly, NO! This is not the truth. Just few days ago, i tell a lie. Which i may have tricked everyone around me, but not myself... Jessie Liew... What a great name i came up with. Peoples, friends... all think she really existed. LOL! So funny that i laugh all day, thinking about how successful i am in this fake account. But... for no reason, i feel disappointed. I feel sad. Reason for this sadness, no idea... Just feel sad for no reason! Then, you came into my mind. What's happening? Seems that, you still own a big space in my heart. Why???
Just yesterday, i've decided to delete that fake account, end this lie. But damage had been done. But at least, i knew what i am doing now. Again, i affirm your status in my heart. You might really be the one. What can i say? I can just sign... tell myself, let God decide for me. My love is not dead. It is just merely left me. Not with me... Because... it is owned. Hahaha... How sarcastic can this be. I actually came back to blog here. BACK TO WHERE I BEGIN! Hahahaha!