Day 46

8th November 2008
Time is getting shorter and shorter... even i feel my life is getting shorter and shorter... i feel tired... but there is little urge for sleep... today... i saw you... i really saw you... i even meet you... my report about my feelings when i saw you today... i can only hand in a blank report...
Why?
Reason is simple. I had 0 idea what i feel. I feel sad... i feel happy... i feel anxious to go talk to you when i first saw you... But i have no courage... But God decides that you appear in front of me... giving me a push to you... yes He helped... But me... i still dare not do anything...
At least i see that you are fine. I am happy for that... and grateful to God... that you are safe and happy... healthy all along. ^^ Hope that keep up. i saw you smile... i feel happy... yes... i did. But i was running away... too fast that i cannot catch a longer time with you... i really regret that... but that is what it is... do take care of yourself well...
I was feeling down after saw you in The Spring. I reached home at around 2pm. It was early... and lonely too... because my parents was out. That is good... at least i got some time to hold up myself. ^^ No one can see me cry or drop a single tear... good that no one will worry...
See... it is already Day 46... didn't know i had already been writing this long... sometimes... i really feel tired... every night there is a must for me to type what happen everyday. But this may be a very nice remedy for me when i feel sad. Even when i feel happy... i can come here... to share... Of course... i know there should be no people that can or will read this blog. ^^
Anyway... Cheer up ok?
It will not be a good thing staying this way. Exam is close... so close now... and you haven't start your revision... Take care... We 2 must take care of ourselves well...