Day 99

31st December 2008
Wednesday
Woke up early today. Was thinking about having games... Haa. I really did played. As my bro has yet to play, i used 2 comps. XD
I brush my teeth then played. Until 10 something when my bro wake up and said he wanted to play. LOL! Sad... can't use 2 comps.
Only awhile of playing, i asked Rachel and my bro to play Garena. Play Tower Defence. LOL! The games was like so funny. Hahahaha!
Anyway, it was ok. During the game, school called. @@
Why? Rachel( School one) asked me if i wanted to work with Horwath? @@ OMG? What an offer!!!
I accepted. LOLs! There goes the turning point of my life. ^^ Was quite happy that i finally may have my life changed.
Started to feel hungry, i off my comp and go had my lunch. After lunch, watch TV. LOLs. Then my dad called and asked me to go and get prepared as we will be going to a furniture shop. =.='''
He wanted to get a new air-conditioner and a plasma. WTF!!! Now economy so bad still buy so many stuff... Where can?
So i talk him into just buying 1. LOL! Hahaha!!!
The afternoon was spend just like that.
night fall. When my mum came home, i told her about Rachel calling for the offer. LOL! Had a talk and OMG i can't believe i will be wearing formal outfit everyday soon. LOL! I do worry that can i coupe with it... The social, the workload, the study...
Anyway... i will be going to the temple to countdown with my parents. LOL! My aunt and my cousins went too.
Got lucky draw! And got a phone also!!! Wah!!! =.='''
I got number 77 =.='''
oh... i think my mood was quite nice. There was always having the sing along activity, and i did sing along. LOL!
Number 77... Since it was a lucky draw... but don't look like one... Everyone get their gifts. Just that it is done in lucky draw style. LOL!
A lot of prizes had been given. And my chance of getting the phone is getting so close... When... 77~ was read. T_T!!!
There goes my number 77... no more hope. LOL! Get a towel. =.='''
Anyway, i don't have a face towel anyway. Useful. I got a handphone. Should not be so greedy as to get another one. XD
The lucky draw "prematurely ended" for us as we left. XD
Only my parents and i went as my bro was alone at home. We go for supper ^^
LOLs~~~ Think it is since so so so long ago that my parents had supper only so so late. 1am + already.
Haha~ That's all for today. Oh ya~
Happy New Year 2009! ^^
And Good Nights!

Day 98

30th December 2008
Tuesday
Today... Today... Today is your birthday. I send my birthday wishes for you last night... i know it is late, but still, i didn't forget.
Wish you had a really nice day today...
Today, i woke up quite late in the morning. About 9 something i guess. Only when i realize, Maplesea need to patch today. Can't play.
So... i decide to download some download manager to my laptop so that i can download movies, animes, and others. LOL!
Done download, i find some new movies and some old movies that i missed. When i done all these stuff, 2pm already. =.=''' Time flies...
So i tried maplesea again. This time, i patch it. So... waited for it to patch and i go watch TV. LOL!
Only by 4 something i came back and start to go in and play. Hmm... i just take a simple look in there, then bye bye~ lol!
Don't feel like mapling lately. Don't know why. Feel lazy. LOL!
I was thinking of going to see you. LOL! How crazy of me to think about this. LOL!!!
Anyway... i am still wondering what present should i buy for you...
Night fall, i followed my parents to the Buddhist temple and worship. LOL!!!
Then go for dinner at JLN Song. Haih~ Meet my "Da Jie Da" there. XD Jee Pei Ching. LOL! Woo~ she got bf le. Saw her Bf... em... no comment la. haha. Just go say hi then i need to go cause we already finished and are leaving. LOL!
Tomorrow will be the last day of 2008.
Wish you all the best oh. And too wish that you had a wonderful birthday today. ^^
Good Night ^^

Day 97

29th December 2008
Monday
My parents took leave today. LOL! Had curry for lunch, and a great dinner. ^^
I woke up at around 10 in the morning, and my mum was nagging about finding a job. LOL! Maybe i should really go get a job.
Spend whole day playing games. LOL!
Then in the afternoon, i followed my parents out. They wanna buy cooking gas =.='''
And i become coolie. Duh~~
LOL!
Anyway, after that is dinner. XD
A really fine and nice dinner i had. LOL! Sea cucumber soup and prawns. Sea Food! XD
After that, my dad asked for a game of... don't know what is it called. LOL! So we played. Using poker cards, and 2 sets of them... mix it together and put straight or 3 of a kind. =.=''' Blur... but did get the hang of it after a few games. LOL!
Since it require 2 packs of cards, i need to get another new sets. =.='''
And new mixed with old... had spend some time dividing the old and new cards after the game. LOL!!!
Then, it is game time all along.
Had maple at first... and in the end, Dota with Rachel. LOL! Her skill is not bad wor. @@
Still say self noob. LOL!!!
And... the time pass so fast that it has passed the time of 12am, when i should be sending you a sms. =.='''
But... 12am... lol... lucky i was aware of the time... quickly, type sms, and send... i am late. T_T sorry...
But i think you won't mind. Anyway, wish you happy birthday! Must take care of yourself well ok?
Good night. Sleep tight. and Sweet dreams. ^^

I really miss you...
and i hope i can spend my time with you on your birthday...
...

Day 96

28th December 2008
Sunday
A Sunday that give me the creeps. =.='''
I woke up, force by my parents... toke my shower and had breakfast... it was around 9am. After breakfast, we went to Saberkas to get my bro's phone repaired. Since the shop is not opened yet, we take a stroll in the shopping mall. SIANZ!
Walk walk walk... 12pm then go back again. Finally, done. The phone work out just nice there. So... go home. Reach home around 1.30pm. On comp and start playing. Duh~ bad game today. 2pm start 2x, when i go find Penguin(a mapler), seems like i annoyed her. LOL! Then i went off. Nothing to do, no people to disturb, i off and followed my parents to Saberkas again since my bro's phone got problem when we reach home =.='''
(This is annoying~)
And~ so i followed. After getting the phone repaired, we had KFC for dinner. =.='''
Today is Phang's Birthday. having a dinner with them tonight, so i only took a little to fill up my tummy for awhile. Reached home already 6pm, when Daniel called and ask me to prepare, they are coming. Just on time.
So, took my wallet and keys, i go off with them.
Congratulations and Happy Birthday to Mr. Phang! LOL!
We had steamboat buffet. Ate like so full. LOL! Cost me RM 22.50 and RM 5 for the present. =.='''
After that, Terence ask for Dota game. =.= WTF! Joined!
Rm 2.50. A total of RM 30 spent today. OMG!
Duh~ Rm30~
Came home around 11.30pm. On comp and saw so many people still online. My cous are all there. LOL! Penguin too. This time, penguin is ok. LOL. asked me to join in the training. So i joined. The problem here is... My cousin got angry this time. =(
I think i upset Pauline. LOL! Reply sms also cold cold de. =.='''
Haihz~ Don't care la. Should be over soon. LOL!
Anyway... seems like need to shut up a bit. Few days ago got Linda upset, and then go penguin, then Pauline. LOL!
Bad bad~~~
=.=''' At least i know penguin is always ok as her temper is mild. LOL!!!
Anyway, should stop "shooting" people. XD
Time for bed bed!
Nights! ^^
Sweet dreams ya!

Day 95

27th December 2008
Saturday
It is closing to year end now. 2008 is getting over soon. Haih~
Today, woke up, play games whole day. I even wonder did i had lunch or not... =.='''
5pm then i stop. So long i played... Had a simple dinner... i think didn't had much happening lately. Maybe cause indulge in games. LOL!!! Many things happen in games. I level up, train with my dear, go hunting... so on and so for. LOL! In real life, nothing happen.
After dinner, i watch tv with my bro. Only awhile that, i feel tired and went to had a short nap. Hmm... Wake up, i watch "Death Race". LOL! Nice movie. Haha!
After that, on comp play games again. Go disturb my friends in Maplesea. XD
That should be all for today...
I wonder if i stopped blogging here, i will forget you? Every time i am here, i will think of you. If i am to stop this blog, am i able to forget you???
Hmm... i smsed you today. it was like an urge to send it. I didn't hold back, and send it. @@ Since it was just a greeting message, it will surely be ok~ LOL!
I don't have to hide from you. That is what Rachel told me. As a friend, sending such a message is normal. Haha~ true. And giving gifts and presents is also normal as friends.
But if this is the case... i really don't know what to do... Because i want to be your friend, i want to be more than a friend. I don't know what i can do... =.='''
Stop thinking and go to bed! This may help crack the shell. Maybe God will tell me what to do. =.='''
Good night ^^

Day 94

26th December 2008
Friday
Time flies... i still think today is Thursday when i woke up. LOL!
And~ Rachel is back~ ^^ She is having her holidays now. Can play maple together. Haha... That is what i did today. I was awaken by my phone sms ring tone. Was lazy to wake and read, but then, feel that it is already late. So, just wake up. Brush and wash, and breakfast. Nice breakfast today. XD Western style.
After all these, then i read sms. It is Rach. @@
Feel sudden and shock to receive sms from her saying, "i am back~" LOL!
So, i on comp and we played Maplesea together. Stopped at around 5pm... Then go bathe and all those... dinner. Then watch TV. 8pm, on comp again. She is still there. @@ LOL!
Then play lo... until 11 when my bro ask me to on Garena and play Dota. =.='''
Seems like today was spent like this... only that Rachel came and play maplesea. LOL!!! She said she is going to Penang on Sunday. So fast~~~
Seems like only a few days only she will be playing. This should be all for today...
I am still wondering... What present should i give u for your birthday...
A really nice gift u gave me... but i still didn't use it. Haha...
Though we broke up, u still remember my existence. How happy am i...
Good night~ ^^ Sweet dreams!

Day 93

25th December 2008
Thursday
Merry Christmas~ ^^
It is Christmas today. Like the greetings. I woke up, with a fine mood. I had a great sleep today. I think, it is the day that i had a full and sound sleep ever since the exams.
Wake up, go brush and wash and had simple breakfast. Coffee and dim sum. ^^
Then... walk around in the house do this do that. Haha~ Then on comp play games le... Only a few minutes later, Alvin called and asked me to join him go out play play. So... since staying at home is boring, i accepted and followed them out. We went to Saberkas... He is inquiring for PC prices. He is setting up one DIY! lol!
Seems like DIY PC are cheaper compared to those that are already done fixed. LOL!
The whole afternoon spend just doing this... and go visit CD stores... Hmm... Then come home le... It is already 4 when i reached home. Didn't feel the time pass so quickly. LOL!
Had fried noodle as dinner. LOL! simple dinner. Hahaha!!!
Then play maple. We had a Guild PQ. LOL! It is not smooth but still carried on. LOL!
10pm, when my guildmate asked me to go help in zkm, i went... and was happy to get my Skills. ^^
First time go ZaKuM and it did just fine. ^^
And later... Guildmates help me get my Last and Final Ulti skill, Genesis. WoW... we did it til 2am. That is now... LOL!
Seems like it is some big achievements in games today... =.=''' hope can do this good in real life too. Time to go to bed.
Good nights! ^^

Day 92

24th December 2008
Wednesday
Christmas eve~ What a Christmas eve...
I woke up quite late today. Was having a dream... can't recall what was it... i know i had a dream... and was awaken for some reason.
Brush and wash, on comp, and started playing. It was not a nice game today. LOL!
Since not having much fun, i off earlier. 12 i had my lunch... Until 1++ then i on back to play a bit. Should say i online in the game to chat mostly. LOL!
Until 4pm, when most of them stop or off, i also off since there is no one to talk to.
I go for a bathe, then, watch TV le... Until 7 when my parents came home and cook, it was a fine dinner. Asam prawn. =.=''' Actually i have trouble with spicy food. LOL!!! But nevermind. It taste good anyway.
Wonder what was playing in my mind... I celebrated Christmas with my friends in Maplesea. We decorate trees, and i set up some weather events. ^^ Having fun~
But soon, time flies. Offline~
It is only 12+ in the morning of 25th December... Haha... Still remember last time, it is sleeping time so that Santa will come. ^^
None the less, it is just a gift from parents or friends. Now grow up, such fairy tale vanished. Sad thing...
Oh yeah... Today's Maplesea was having great chatting! LOL! And... some really makes me think of you... and making me feeling lonely. T_T
I am now alone where such sweetness of the heart will not be felt once again. The taste of bliss is so far from me... when i now enjoys the freedom, which is another benefit of solitude...
Lets not brood over it... This is decisions and choices made... Since you made the choice, bear with it.
Good night... sweet dreams... Hope that you are well and fine. Merry Christmas~ ^^

Day 91

23 December 2008
Tuesday
I woke up 10 in the morning, dreaming about myself having corn breakfast. @@ And as a matter of fact, i really saw corn on the table. =.='''
OMG!
I on my comp, and just moments, Chris called. He asked me to join him to go to The Spring. So i go along since i was free and had nothing to do at home.
So... go there and waited for him to get his sim pack. He is getting a new tender number. =.=''' Congratulations.
Then, then... we had our lunch at Sugarbun. It was not a good meal... =.= The fish was... not "fresh". XD
Anyway... cost me rm10 =.='''
Went to Saberkas after that. He want to get a new phone. @@ So tag along and see what phone he is getting. And... what happen... he didn't find the one he likes. So... no buy lo.
Go home after that.
Only just few minutes later, Kenny SMSed. Asking me whether am i at home. So... Of course i'm at home. So... he say he come over. So... i just waited lo. He really came. I went down. And... he give me a present. @@ As i was told, it was from you. Oh dear... I never expect any gifts this birthday. Yet i receive one. Was amazed and shocked... Happy too. ^^
But... i don't know why... something just bothers me. i don't know what was that, but it is just that... something is bothering me. =.='''
Anyway... let just forget it.
I took a shower. Then had a short nap. =.=''' 7 something, i woke up. I saw the present. Hmm... Think i should just open it... And... a wallet. BodyGlove. =.='''
Oh man... must have cost an amount. Why buy me such valuable gift? I can't accept it.
...
I put it back... And i don't feel like using it... Don't know why... i look at it, reminds me of you.
Wonder if i really dare to use it...
Let just leave it there for now since my heart just don't feel right. But i suppose, you think it will be a token of gratitude, or just a birthday gift... but to me... ... i feel... bad. @@ why ar? I don't know... can't find the reason...
Felt myself to be worthless... Maybe this is the reason... =.='''
Anyway... maybe i should go to bed and stop thinking. Good night. ^^ Sweetdreams.

Day 90

22 December 2008
Monday
Another Monday has come. So???
LOLS! So time is running away when i am not doing anything. =.='''
Sianz~
What to do? What to do? Bored... Was like slacking, procrastinating all day. OMG!!!
How can this go on like this? It will be a disaster. Oh well. School called. They asked for payment. LOL! Before 7th Jan 2009. Hmm~
Anyway, i don't know... or should i say i can't recall what happen today. @@
Since it was all wasting time... feel meaningless. @@
Christmas is coming soon. ^^ Happy~ But don't know why happy. LOL! Am i really happy? i don't even know. =.='''
Haih~ Anyway...
Maybe should stop thinking and go to bed. @@
Good night. ^^

Day 89

21st December 2008
Sunday
Like i said, today morning got "event". LoLs... so must wake up early. Around 8 awaken by my dad. Asking me to go prepare as we will be going out at 830. Hm... was short. LOL! So, quickly go brush and wash then go "celebrate" Winter Solstice. LOL!
Had dinner with my aunt, then come home le. LOL! Actually nothing to celebrate also. Anyway, had a whole afternoon of games~ Games!
Until nightfall. Yes! Today i achieve level 120, able to get my long dream 4th job. LOL! Get it today with great help from the guild master. ^^ Touched. Trained me and spare me 3.5k @cash, that is $3.5 Sing dollar. OMG!
haha! Was happy. ^^
Tonight's dinner was simple and light. Take it quick and continue the game. LOL!
Suppose today was spend playing. =.='''
Tomorrow should be playing as well as i just reached 4th job. Trying out the skills. ^^
Good nights ^^
Supposed you are asleep now. So late le... Sweet dreams ya.

Day 88

20th December 2008
Saturday
LOL! Days 88. Time flies. So fast 88 days already. Hmm... i suppose... Things are going well. Healing. ^^
Although i still miss you everyday. Hehe...
Today, i woke up quite early. For what? No idea. LOLS!
so... since awaken, play comp lo... play play play... seems like i was playing whole day until 4 something when my parents came home. @@ had a very simple and quick lunch and go back play in the afternoon! LOL!
4pm, my dad asked me to go downstairs to buy something and move the car. =.='''
Of course, obeyed.
Then, i go to ACCA website to pay my annual fee. Hmm... was taking quite long to log in. LOL!!!
After that, bathe, and go for dinner. My aunt called us to join for the dinner. Had a fish dinner. LOL! Yesterday was Meat Dinner... Tonight is Fish dinner.
After dinner, go pick up my bro as he got a band performance. Hmm...
Come home at around 10pm...
Suppose that was for today... Bored... Tomorrow got event again. Haih~
Need to wake early. Good nights then. ^^ Sweet dreams. Wish you had a sweet dreams too.

Day 87

19th December 2008
Friday
It was raining when i wake up... the air was cold and wet... The floor feels sharp as if it poke my feet every steps i take. LOL!
Some how, it really feels like that oh.
My mum was preparing breakfast today. She's on leave. Hmm~ Today... i had my breakfast, and then, my mum asked my bro and i to clean up the room. So we do some tidying up work today. Was done around 11... LOL!
Happy was i, as i receive quite a number of smses, greeting me Happy Birthday. ^^
Thanks to all who greet me happy birthday. Hope that you all are well too.
Oh... after tidying up, online, play games le~ LOL!
Played til 2pm i went down to buy lunch. It was so late, and was a waste of effort as no more lunch now =.=''' the shop closed.
So... bear with it.
Continue on with the games until 4 when my dad came home. I followed him to buy some lubricants for the car and went to the repair shop. Waited there awhile, then when done, went home for bathe and prepare for tonight's dinner. ^^
Tonight's dinner was with my mum's colleague. LOL!
Had quite a dinner. ^^ Steak and all those... meat! LOL!
Back home at around 9... on comp play games again... =.='''
Seems like everyday also got games... haih~ But will be over soon.
This should be the end of the day ba... My birthday is over. I am no longer 18. Now i'm 19. ^^
Anyway, Take Care! All the Best for the new Beginning!

Day 86

18th December 2008
Thursday
I woke up quite early today, finding the weather was cold and wet... It should be a good sleep but i was awaken. =.='''
So... since i woke up, i go brush and wash, on my comp and starts playing. Since there was an event going on, i spend most of the time playing. But~ was like kinda lazy to play. =.=
So... end up watching TV! LOL!
After TV, go back to my comp... play again. Had fried rice as dinner. @@
A really simple dinner. XD Oh... just after dinner, mum gave me "ang pau" for my birthday! It's tomorrow, but she gave it to me today. Oh man~ i am no longer 18~ T_T sobs~
XD
around 9pm, on my comp and play maple again. Since my cous' ask me to on and play until 12, i should have known they wanted to celebrate my birthday with me in the game. So... invite my friends as well. =.=''' All are known in games... don't really know them in real life... But really hit it off well with them. ^^
Really had a great party~ fireworks~ greetings~ wishes~ and presents XD
Too~ i receive your message sharp on 12am. ^^ i can feel your sincerity. And too for my sis and bros who smsed me and wish me happy birthday. Thank everyone!
It is late now... Might as well go to bed. ^^ good nights!

Day 85

17th December 2008
Wednesday
Today... i woke up early. Cause i need to drive my mum to a seminar at a government department. Heck... everyone also know, government like spend money on such event. =.=''' Kinda meaningless... but also cannot say like that la... some people have no knowledge of such thing before. Maybe. LOL!
so... 11 something, my mum call me to go fetch her back. After that, we go shopping. =.=''' SO DAMN crowded. So... quickly, ran off. LOL!
After this, buy lunch for my bro and she go to work. Just like that, my whole morning spent.
Whole afternoon spend on TV~
Only by night fall... had dinner, then... was kinda tired... when i find that maplesea finally can log in... since they are having a server upgrade. ( Pui~ Upgrade head la... everytime after upgrade lag like shit!)
So play lo... so disappointed with Msea... Haih~
Anyway... today was like kinda grumpy. I don't know why... feel like... angry... but was able to handle it... keep it down. =.='''
Haih~ just don feel good...
Good night~ =.='''

Day 84

16th December 2008
Tuesday
Guess what day is today? 16th Dec... how can i forget? perhaps, you think i had forgotten... perhaps, you had forgotten... But i still remember today.
If we didn't broke up, today will be our 2nd anniversary. Haha... But i break it up. I suppose, that... i think i have nothing else to suppose too. It was a choice made and taken into action. Regret also no use...
I woke up quite early in the morning... play game like wasting time... so i just watch TV and spend less and less time on the comp. LOL! Also... today i got married in maplesea. =.='''
Married in the game. Why such a coincidence???
... i have been thinking...
How are you today... i was thinking whole night. It was raining heavily tonight. It was already almost 8 the sky is still bright... but rain.
I was numb and blanked. But did pull myself together when my bro called me for a game. LOL! Awaken from the dream. So... i on the comp. Was having a nice chat with my cous' friend in maple. It was long. LOL! Such a long chat.
After that, online here and write this... hm... today was spend just like that...
A simple good night here... and wish you sweet dreams. ^^

Day 83

15th December 2008
Monday
Hahahaha!!! Hehehehehe!!! =.='''
It's so late and i am still awake. =.= 2am in the morning...
Anyway, lets start with today... morning woke up quite early. 8 something wake up... Then brush and wash... then on comp le... since my cous, Victor asked me to on earlier... so i on. LOL!
Then play game play til 4 something offline... Do what neh? Of course is go bathe and rest la.LOL!
Rest... until 7pm. LOL! Then on again... play play play... Tonight had asam fish. =.=''' What the heck... i don't like spicy food... so... i just simply eat some, then left the dining table. LOL! Wahaha!!! My cous also complain that the asam fish are "HOT" LOL!!!
Play play play... i think today just play play play... my eye a bit blurred also! @@
Anyway... Maybe should get some sleep now. @@ Hahaha!!!
So blur...
Good night! ^^

Day 82

14th December 2008
Sunday
Was like forced to wake up this morning. My parents took me to breakfast, then... go buy some grocery. @@
Since my bro wanted to go home earlier... we went home and didn't go for much shopping. LOLs...
so... Afternoon, bring my bro go to his Boy's Brigade activities. Then come back home... when my mum ask me to go bathe and get changed. LOL! we are going shopping. =.='''
What the heck...
LOL!!! Actually, we went to get my cloth. @@ I bought some new cloth. LOL!
Some how... changed my look @@
LOL!!!
Anyway, after that... come home lo... dinner... then on comp play games. LOL!!!
My parents have a what DAP dinner tonight... so late only come back. 11+ already. LOL!
Haih~ already quite late too now... maybe it is time to go to bed? @@
Seems like today is another day... which is so usual... only that i went shopping and get some cloth... change my look @@
Oh! 1 more thing... i read in newspapers that tonight got meteor rain. @@ Raining lei... how to see? LOL! Hahahaha!!!
Anyway... thats all for today... Nights! ^^

Day 81

13th December 2008
Saturday
A fine day? hmm... kinda. I woke up 9 in the morning, finding no food. =.='''
So... bear with the hunger, on my comp and play games. LOL!
Played til 1pm or 2pm, my mum come home. Asking me to prepare myself to go out... for acupuncture! @@
What the HECK! =.='''
Anyway... it was kinda relax... LOL! was a bit of pain. @@ but not that painful. just like got bitten by ant. @@
Then go home... was hungry... =.='''
Lucky, my dad was making dinner when reach home. Yeah... so... while waiting... i watch TV. XD
TV TV~
Then dinner. ^^ Nice dinner today. Had my favorite soup. Hehe ^^ Sea Cucumber! ^^
Wonder why i like seafood so much. LOL!
Then...
Night fall... haih~ feel a bit down... no idea why. So... on Maple and play again... play play play... now then i stopped.
Haih~ was also bored in there... don't know do what... Just there disturb others training. XD wahahaha... i am so bad...
So this is good night then? Tired too... =.='''
So today ended... Hope that tomorrow will be better...

Day 80

12 December 2008
Friday
It getting closer to year end now. And... was thinking about my exam result... as well as thinking about u. @@
I woke up 8 something in the morning... wonder if i had enough sleep today... i slept only 3 something in the morning last night. LOL!
So... wake up, look for breakfast... Then had my breakfast. Was quite blur... wonder what i took... i can't remember. LOL!!!!
After that, i switch on the comp and start playing... kinda like play whole day. But did stop earlier today. 10 something stop playing. @@ Odd!
I watch Tv... Day dream... LOL!!! Today was like... blurred... Go down buy lunch...
Already 12...
Had my lunch... Then on comp again... play whole afternoon... =.=''' This afternoon was more to like chatting in the game rather than playing. And those "guildmates"!!!
WTF! Was all so lame... even more lame than me. =.='''
After the chat... off lo... around 4 something... when my dad called to go bathe earlier as will be going to have dinner outside later. @@
So go bath lo...
Then really go had a dinner outside.... Stuffed. @@
Came home... On comp... and park my character at the wedding event map. Since my cous Morgan is getting married tonight, might as well think of getting him a gift. @@
LOL!!!
Then... wedding got problem... =.='''
helped him with the wedding... then... do this do that... 11+pm d... so late... Haih~
Then Pauline ask me to help her with the quest... =.='''
So again... help her with the quest... LOL! After done... 12am... She even joke that she will be going to tuition tomorrow to see "leng zai"! So must help her complete it fast. LOL!!!
=.='''
So... done... Then go to another server... Played 1 game with Delon n Phoebe, then offline. @@ Tired...
When i was about to off, you smsed. LOL! I was still here typing when u smsed. Hmm...
Was thinking about you when u smsed. ^^ Supposed... God has been giving me chances? Hahaha! Too bad i dare not accept the offer now. But anyway, it is like a boast of energy to me. ^^
Will be sleeping soundly tonight. Good night!

Day 79

11 December 2008
Thursday
Today was like... i woke up around 7 something in the morning... was blurred... i thought it is already night fall or what so ever. @@ Wonder why...
Then, when i saw my dad, and take a glance at the clock, i just knew it is only 7+ in the morning. So, i went back to sleep. =.=
Woke up later around 10... Brush my teeth, hav my "breaklunch", then start on comp and maple whole day. LOL!
When 4 something, i was feeling blurred. @@
Should be tired...
So i get some rest...
6pm then i wake up. Go bathe then wait for my parent to come back and had dinner...
Was like relaxing from then... 7+, a friend sms and asked me to on maple... =.=''' So damn early...
So, i on lo... then play play play until now just off. Was tired... haih~
Think will be going to bed... lately was like spending my time meaninglessly. @@ Don't know what am i doing... @@
LOL!!!

Day 78

10th December 2008
Wednesday
Today morning, i wake up around 9. I saw my breakfast was already prepared. On the dining table. Hmm... I didn't play games straight away today. LOL!!! Had my breakfast, then rest a bit, watch TV abit.
Only 1pm then i on my comp. I played Maple... But... SO LAG!!! so... stopped. =.='''
Then... my friends smsed me and tell me to go to play another server... so, i went over lo... Hmm... it is quite fun. LOL!
But was tired... played awhile, then off also already. Had my dinner, then help my parents with the Tv. =.='''
After doing that already 8. So, play games. =.='''
Today was feeling tired just after the game. It is only 12 now already sleepy. @@
Anyway, should be going to bed now. Tired~
Good Night~ ^^

Day 77

9th December 2008
Tuesday
I was suppose to be going to Matang today... but i rejected. LOL!
I woke up at around 10 in the morning. Brush my teeth, then started playing game. LOL! today's game was like a bit carefree as i was playing it and slack, walk around, then come back... and keep on talking. LOL!!
In the afternoon, tag along with my bro go to the barber as he had his haircut and i just wait. LOL!
After that, since tonight there will be a dinner, i go to bathe earlier at 6. Hm... It was a fine dinner... was full =.='''
I like don't dare to take alcohol. @@ Hahaha... so funny... did take a little.
Then, come home edi... today is so normal... so carefree... Haih~
Really kinda peaceful... yet a bit meaningless. =.='''
Anyway... pray that my exam will pass. ^^

Day 76

8th December 2008
Monday
Today i was still in Damai. Only by afternoon that i come home. LOLs. It was like... so funny in the morning when i woke up. I saw my cous all are still sleeping. And... when i woke from my bed, they all climb up =.=
seems like all of them are awake. LOL!
Anyway, we take turns to get changed and go for breakfast. Hmm... before that, we was listening to our aunt talking about her life in Singapore and her "husband". XD Think they will get married sooner or later. hahaha...
So... we go for our breakfast. Then Pauline(my cousin) smsed his bro Victor. LOL! She was asking about the meal we are going to when they only stay in the room eating maggi. XD so... since we are not checked or inquired about anything, Victor and i decide to do something... special... (illegal?) XD
What we do???
We asked them to go for the breakfast as well. We had ours, then we ran off, leaving our seat empty when they came and take over. @@
LOL!!! LOL!!! LOL!!!
Like that also can???
Anyway, It was like... so fun and exciting. @@ But i think if we got caught, it will be... ahem... *sign
After breakfast, we chit chat... crap crap. LOL! Then, since Carolyn is always asking when will we go for a swim? So... Of course, we get changed and go to the pool. =.=''' They went first to the baby pool. LOL! When Victor and i are done, we go find them. Then together we go to the bigger pool. =.='''
Since Carolyn and Morgan are youngest and are still small @@, it is like they are not safe to play there. So we need to keep an eye on them. XD
Those kids... LOL... suppose i play like a kid too then ... =x
It is only a while that Victor asked to go to the beach and Surf Wave. LOL!!! The wave is like so big... higher than me @@ OMG!
So we just play around in the shallow part to be safe since only me, Victor and Pauline are going. =.= The 3 big bro and sis ran off, left the 2 young one there. LOL!!! We so bad. =.='''
Anyway, we had our fun... and since the wave is getting bigger, we go back to the pool like 10 to 20 mins later. Played there for awhile then... go back to bathe le. The day is spend like this... We pack our things, and prepare to go home. LOL! On the way home was raining... was thinking of you... i saw them all sleep. LOL! must have been tired... or should say that they are sleeping now so that later can play games XD
Reached home at 1++pm... on comp directly. LOL! Do what? play game lo!!! We played from like 2 til 7~ LOL!!! so is like ... whole day. Tiring. Then my friends called me to go to cyber cafe to play with them again... =.= i rejected... Wonder why they came to my house... so... i go bathe at 730, then go out again... so tired... =.='''
12 already when i reached home... think it is time to go to bed. ^^ good night.

Day 75

7th December 2008
Sunday
Today, i woke up quite early in the morning. Why? Have breakfast with my dad of course. Since it was already 830 and i am going to Damai with my cous later, i was like kinda rush. LOL!
So... after breakfast, go for a short shopping to buy some tibbits for the night. Hmm... seems like these items came in handy. XD
My aunt came and pick me at around 12pm. @@ Lucky my cous did remind me to bring a toothbrush. XD If not i think i will not be able to brush my teeth tomorrow. Hahahah!
I thought that tonight i will not be able to write... But, my aunt brought her laptop along. ^^ This allow me to type the blog now. Hehehe!
It was quite fun today. LOL! Was swimming... and playing... Like young kids having ice-cream. LOL!
But, the day is gone quite fast. It is already 12+ now and can say it is already 8th. Going home in like few hours later. Hahaha... but was really kinda fun. LOL!
My bro didn't come along. So it was like me alone with my cousins.
It kinda late now... Should be going to bed soon. @@ Although i think i will not be able to sleep. XD
Anyway, Good Night. ^^
They are all asleep now. @@ Only me awake. LOL!
Night Cats are always Night Cats. XD
To you... i suppose you are also asleep now. Sweetdreams, and take care. ^^

Day 74

6th December 2008
Saturday
I was like so blur yesterday night. LOL! Wake up with a severe headache... should be the cause of the alcohol. LOL!
anyway, it was only 5am when i woke up. Done some exercise, then start on with my comp. Play game~ LOL!!! =.=''' Game...
But was like easily tired... so again, after playing awhile, i off and go to sleep again. Only by 10am i wake up. @@
Then, start to play the whole day. OMG! Whole day!!!
Anyway, it is only afternoon when my dad told us tonight we will be joining dinner with out cousin. @@
So, played til 5 something need to bathe and all those to prepare for the dinner. Went to my cous there, then we go. Had a great seafood dinner @@
Hahahaha!!!
Reached home already 10+...
So late... yet, we still played. XD As we were discussing during the meal, we decided to play some games for tomorrow as we are going to Damai. Hehe... Just only me follow my cous them... my bro ain't going... wonder why???
LOL! Should be with only 1 reason. GAME >.<
It is late... and i m tired. @@
Was like getting tired easily ever since last night. LOL!
Nights~

Day 73

5th December 2008
Friday
Omg... today was like... so blur... should say that i m blurred now. Now that the whole day is blurred. XD
so dizzy... hahahahahahaha....
think i got drunk.... first time feel the feeling of being drunk. LOL! really dizzy... suppose i m not able to walk in a straight line @@
I woke up quite early in the morning... last nite was not sleeping well... so was like tired.... LOL!! So, when i woke up, i on my comp and started to play games. LOL!
play whole day until afternoon, go down to buy lunch. @@
LOL... so dizzy now... was like typing with my eyes closed @@ so blurred... must have drink too much...
Today, my friend's sis wedding... i was invited. @@
i meet up with Daniel and Phang... at around 4 somthing at Hock Lee Centre. @@ After that, we walk to Kado to have a drink there. LOL!
so.... after that... we went to crown tower for the wedding dinner. LOL!
Was so... drunk! LOL! that Delon and his friends... all are like so pro in this alcohol thingy @@
we all had quite alot of alcohol tonight. @@ And... when it come to the one go part... LOL!!! i did make it... just that... after the one go~ feel dizzy... even now still dizzy. LOL! one go some amount of XO is really... LOL! NUTS~!
Hope i didn't make much mistake in typing as my eyes is half closed @@
LOL!The night was spend in such a blur blur ness that i myself can't even know what is happening now... LOL!
Think i needa sleep @@ good night @@

Day 72

4th December 2008
Thursday
Today, i woke up quite late. @@ Cause... last night i sleep late... watching jay chou's MV. LOL! Also something good... XD as you send me a sms. And i didn't miss it. Seems like it is some how destined. LOL!
Morning 10am, wake up... was kinda rush as i am suppose to be going to get the car to the repair shop. LOLs! so, quickly, i prepare myself and start on my tasks today. I bring the car to the shop, and take my bro buy his number... XD
LOLS! am i too fast or what... done everything so so so soon. Around 12pm back home already.
So... go bathe, and on comp... play games whole afternoon. ^^
Could say spend the whole day playing. LOL!
Anyway, tomorrow is going out. So won't have much time spend on the comp too. LOL! Good also... hehe...
Today... u smsed me. ^^ Was happy... really. We are like... sending sms... then... stopped. I think around 10 sms only. Anyway, it is always better to have some than none at all. ^^
I can't sleep tonight... wonder why... i was thinking about you. Everything... i really got a lot of things to say...
Trying my best to say it. Gambateh~
LOLs!
Anyway, take care! ^^

Day 71

3rd December 2008
Wednesday
Today, the 1st day of holiday... LOL! was unable to sleep last night... no idea why. @@
So... woke up with a little headache... but still can handle it. LOL!
On my comp... and started gaming! LOL!
The whole day is spend just like this... game game game... of course, i spend some little time for exercise and rest and also... read. Read? XD i just haven't finish the book i started before the exam, so i just finished it. Not bad a book. @@ it is about making choices. LOL!
After all these... night fall... when my parents told me what am i to do tomorrow. =.='''
I need to take the car and go for the repair work, then bring my bro go get his prepaid phone number... then... i think just like that. XD
Anyway... holiday is finally here. LOL! Have a nice holiday~ XD

Day 70

2nd December 2008
Tuesday
The exam is finally over now. LOL!
FINALLY! Today is law exam. Woke up a bit more late than yesterday. @@
Start to study after breakfast... don't know why... was unable to concentrate with my study today. Haih~
So... i go to school at 11 something... when i arrive, i go to the library. Saw Phang there. So~ study there also lo... 12+, i go to Daniel's hostel. XD go there talk talk talk... crap crap crap. Hahahaha!
After that, go back to library to prepare for the exam. Went into the exam hall at 245pm. haih~ was so nervous. LOL!
I tried my best in the exam... but... hope that i can pass. T_T
HOPE!
LOL!
Anyway, after the exam, we went for a drink before Chris called and ask just to join for a drink at Kado. LOL!
So... since i am driving, so i need to return the car... drive to my aunt there to park the car... then, my dad called and asked me to wait there =.='''
Already call Chris to wait for me at Bintawa when my dad called again and say he is coming to pick me up. =.='''
So... Chris has to wait for us at my house. LOL!
We drink at Kado...about 9 something, went home. Then play games... until now. LOL!
Exam finally over... a relief... but also... a worry. LOL! hope that my exam can pass. T_T

Day 69

1st December 2008
Monday! Sunny~
YOOH!!! First day of exam! XD It is a fine day. Really fine day. LOL! Maybe it is due to the mood. Anyway, it is really a fine day. LOL!
What happen eh... i woke up at 8 something in the morning. Had breakfast and continue to read tax law... so on and so for... Then about 11 something, i prepare for exam... going to school already so early. LOL! I was like so nervous! Really so so nervous. Heart beat was uncertain and was like shaking! @@
But did get through it after entering the exam hall in 230 in the afternoon. XD
Tried my best attempt all questions. Hopefully can get good grades. I am kinda confident that i can pass. LOL!!! Something just give me the push... a trust maybe... a trust in the answer that i can pass. XD
I completed the exam in like 2 and a half hour. @@ This exam took me longer time to complete as compared to the Mock exam. LOL!
But anyway, it is worth it. Now, it is time to prepare for the last and final exam of this Sem. OMG!!! Law!!! I most feared... don't know why... i only hope that i can perform well... i can pass this law paper... i am reading my notes... hopefully that can help me pass. LOL!
All thrown out now~ so might as well do my best to get what ever i can. MUST PASS!!! MUST!
XD
308 218... 2(a) 2 (b)... so many sections. @@ Blured~
Wish me luck!

Day 68

30th November 2008
Sunday
Sunny... with a little bit of rain in the afternoon
Guess what? Today is the last day... Last day to prepare for my exam!!! Hahaha!!! Was kinda happy somehow because the day that everyone is waiting for is finally here. Of course, this cannot apply to all students. >.<'''
I woke up in the morning, as my parents ask me to follow and get breakfast. After breakfast have a little short stroll in Boulevard, a Mega Market. LOLs!
This is like a routine to my parents. Wonder why every Sunday they sure do this? LOL!
After that, went home... and starts with my studying of Tax!!! TAX!!! TAX!!! =.='''
Was like... feeling that there is nothing to study... So... was like kinda loose... And... Of course... cannot sit down there just study, walk around and talk. LOL!
Afternoon... I started to feel the pressure. LOL! Some how gets tired. @@ Go for a short nap when my mum asked me to go for a haircut. Good also. Can relax when having my haircut. So i go... Only during the haircut, the hair dresser show me my head. =.=''' Get what i mean? Show me my "head". LOL! I AM STRESSED! He said. LOL! Why? Cause a certain part of my head is "hairless". LOL! Should say my hair is dropping off in a very scary way. Luckily it is just little "holes" now. Just looking at it makes me feel like... OMG!!! LOL!
Went home, bathe, then read again. Sleep abit... then dinner. After dinner then... WHOLE NIGHT there read Tax Tax TAX! LoLS! Feel fear all of a sudden. Nervous... Wonder if i can make it through tomorrow! Take a Deep breathe... again... then continue. Whenever feel the fear, take a Deep Breathe... again... then continue. LOL!
But did manage to cover most of the part. Hope that tomorrow comes quick so this nervousness and stress can BEGONE! LOL!
Good Luck YA!
All the Best and be the Gods be with you.
...

Day 67

29th November 2008
Saturday
Rain...
Today afternoon was raining heavily... makes me feel so calm... mind so empty. I woke up quite early. I start to read law when i just woke up... But after awhile, i on my comp and starts playing. =.='''
So... like not read much. But still, i just played for 2 hours. LOLs! Not bad also.
Then, have lunch, start whole afternoon studying. It was like... hmm... good thought. Can some how focus. Just that was more tired than usual. Feel like sleeping more. Get a very short nap, then continue with the study. LOLs. Then, hmm... did manage to finish the whole book. LOL! Not bad. XD
At night... haih~ night fall... games again... spend some little time study... finish the whole thing. Then had some little nap again. =.='''
After that... GAME! Relax! LOLS! Suppose that is unnecessary now! @@ Anyway...
So now, i can put my law book aside and focus on my tax. XD
Tax Tax Tax. After Tax, that is, tomorrow, will be the start... and also the end of everything. My exam... and it is also finally over. LOLs!
2nd Of December. My last day. Law paper too...
Good Luck! and all the best!

Day 66

28th November 2008
Friday
Today i woke up with a worn neck! So pain... whole day so pain... Even now is also giving me a sudden cramp. =.='''
Suppose last night i did not sleep well... i had dreams. I can't remember. But i am sure i had dreams.
I was supposed to be going to school to study but because of this "sore" neck, i skipped. LOL!
But i did manage to focus and study at home. XD That is somehow an accomplishment.
I go to school at 4 something... by then was raining heavily! @@
And ar... my neck pain... =.='''
of course, after i reach, i went to Insead room and start studying again. But was not as focus. LOL!
And!!! I FORGET TO BRING MY WALLET! T_T i cannot have my dinner. Sobs~
So i might as well watch them eat... and have my dinner later at 930 after class.
Today was like spotting questions and final questions. ^^ Did get a lot from the Lecturer, Mr Kho. He greet us all good luck and give some counseling just before then end of class. So nice a lecturer, where to find? XD
I will try my best to pass your paper. For you, and myself of course. XD And... someone who is important...
As i always said, there is no chances left, no time to waste...
GambatEH!

Day 65

27th November 2008
Thursday
Today i have to wake up early as was told by my parents. Today got some events going. LOLs. Joking la... just need to go to the temple to pray. LOL!
We meet up with some relatives there and had breakfast together. ^^
After that, go for some shopping at Saberkas. LOL! Lately was going to Saberkas a lot. LOL!
haha...
Anyway, was home at around 12. Today didn't touch any books. Haih~ why like that?
Anyway, i am going to school tomorrow. My last time to touch Law book. After tomorrow, will be tax, tax and tax. Hopefully i can totally abolish games starting Saturday. Why? because wanna set my mind for exams. !!!
!!!
Final is just a few days away now! OMG!!!
Anyway, wish me all the best!

I receive your sms today. Haha... just a few moments ago. ^^ Was happy when i receive it... it gave me... some how... a little motivation. I really do miss you. I suppose... if i do not stop writing here, i will never forget you. @@

Haha~ Most probably. I started because of you... end? When? Until the day i forget to write here, maybe that will be the day i forget you. Suppose that is not possible? Already reached Day 65 now. I am still the same... i never change. Take care ok?

Day 64

26th November 2008
Wednesday
Today, i need to wake up early. Why?
because i am going to school to do revision! LOLS! So, i wake early and prepare for school. Had breakfast with Daniel, then go to Insead room and start studying. It was quite good as i did make a lot of notes and study quite a few topics today. LOLS!
By 9 something, Chris called and asked us whether wanted to go out with him or not? LOL!
So we go lo... luckily it is just awhile. XD
So after that, we came back at around 11 and continue with the study.
At 3 something, we grow tired. LOLs~ so we play a bit while studying... was taking video clips. XD
So funny. haha... after that i went home le... at home... also know la... sure is cannot study already. LOL!
So... so... like usual then... play play play... LOL
Until night time... still play...
but tomorrow need to wake up early... so stop early lo~
Sleep time...

Day 63

25th November 2008
Tuesday
I woke up quite early today.
What i do? on comp then play game... =.=''' can easily guess huh... LOL! Today was like... spend quite a lot of time on playing!
Since the night is having a class... so... i prepare for class and stop playing earlier. Something happened in school today. @@
I was like arrive early. And i go to the classroom. No people there... so i stay there and study awhile... Then after like 1 hour, i go down to the computer lab. Then... i saw someone... that someone. i really don't know her... then she came and ask me: " are you from St. Paul?" @@ LOL?
Who the heck is this? How she know my primary school? a classmate from primary school? duh~ i didn't ask for her name... but i can't recall who is this... @@
Anyway... after that, i had my law class... the last class...
LOL!
Was so disappointed. DISAPPOINTED!
Why? My result lo!
Get only 46! Not even a pass! OMG!
=.=''' need to work harder now... Starting from tomorrow, that is the 26th of November, i will focus on my study! Law especially! LOL!
I cannot fail even once! =.=''' already defer the exam. If i am to fail, the time consume will be so much longer!!!
GAmBaTeh!!! One Go! PASS ALL! LOL!

Day 62

24th November 2008
Monday
Exam is so close now... yet i don't give a damn...
Why? i still am playing game every day... so worse... if i turn out to fail, i really is going to take all the blame myself for not studying!
i woke up with a little headache... and i continue to play games... and that make my head pains even more... haih~ but i did get some sleep after dinner...
I wasted a whole day playing games... wasting time... i need to control... perhaps i should go to school, so i have no comps to play... then i can study. LOL!
I think this maybe worth a try... will do it Wednesday as tomorrow is having the last class. Hmm... Zechs... This is no joke ok... must take it seriously now... less than a week to final now... the exam is only 2 days... just suffer for these few days then after that u can play all you want for 1 month!!! 1 MONTH!
=.='''
Gambateh!

Day 61

23rd November 2008
Sunday
Sunday... Forced to wake and go have breakfast with my parents. Today is nice... no rain. LOL.
I spend the day... like ... games... again... games... duh...
What to do??
i think of the exam... and i still play...
but... why?
today was spend meaninglessly. LOL!
...
...
...
really no comment about it...
U know... ever since we broke up... every night... i don't have to wait for any sms... or even touch my phone...
My phone bill dropped. I feel... odd... not about the money... but about the burden i carry. I used to wait... wait... and wait... now... i don't need to wait... and even sms come... i feel lazy to even go and open it... last time... i will always be like expecting something... something from you... it has been 2 months... approximately 2 months now. Yet i still miss you every night every day... =.='''
I do not feel grief... i just feel weak.
Anyway... i will try to pull things together... let me be me again... hope that i can still win your heart back... but not now... Take care!

Day 60

22nd November 2008
Today is Saturday. A Saturday with no class. Of course, it is now so close to the exam that there will not be much class left as all are preparing for the finals.
Today i woke up early and followed my mum down to have breakfast. LOL! It is quite long now since i didn't have breakfast with my mum. After that, i go to my cous' house. We played there... and had some little mapling going on... and some chatting. LOLS!
Around 12pm, we go home as my brother is going to have his activities going. So... alone, i online and play alone. XD
Luckily there are friends in there... so we trained together... It was tiring... don't know why today was tired when i play. Maybe because of the morning... waking early...
4pm, i stopped... and get myself some rest.
I didn't study today! @@
OMG!
I just keep thinking about it in my mind... the exam is coming... the exam is coming... then questions appear... then i try to solve it... all happens in the mind... @@
Odd eh?
But maybe that is how i study when i am not studying? ? ><
My dad wanted me to follow him down as to be his "kuli" LOLs!!! Need to carry the Cooking Gas Tank down the staircase and up again. Some sort of exercise for me~
But... after that was carefree... again... nothing to do... today seems to had more time spend on games. @@
Oh dear...
i need to control now. Should have started 1 week ago... need at least 2 week cooling period before the exam... but now is left 1 week... so... 1 week of cooling period... MUST NOT BE BROKEN!
I'll try my best... Take Care and all the Best to me ^^
Good night...
i suppose you are sleeping now... it is late. Good to hear that you sleep early now. Take Care...

Day 59

21st November 2008
Friday... Sunny...
Guess what happen today? my mum is not working today. And... i woke up at 8!!! @@ OMG!
Earliest ever now... I was like feeling nausea when i woke up... after that... i had my breakfast... feel better... Then... start playing games... whole day! LOLS! But did stop once in a while for break. LOLs... Then 3 something, i needa prepare to school le... So sianz... 2x time cannot play til the end... anyway... i prepare for class... as today the result will be given... was quite nervous and hoping to know what i get. LOL!
And... Wohooo~ i get the 3rd highest ranking in class... although just 68 marks... LOL! Was quite happy... but...
I still need to work hard on my studies to ensure 100% pass.
Must jia you oh!
oh... and my parents came so late to pick me... waited til 11PM!!! =.='''
Luckily Fook Quan them accompany me til 1030. LOLs... so i just need to spend 30 mins alone. LOL!
Now i back home... already almost 12... so i decide to on this blog and start right away. haha... so committed? Yes... just as if i am committed to you dear... I really miss you once in a while... can conclude it as every night i miss you... LOL! May be cause the happy blue face you give me... hehe...
i still feel happy just looking at it...
Take Care.

Day 58

20th November 2008
Thursday, Sunny in the morning and raining in the afternoon.
Today was so carefree. Was like without worries. I woke up at 830 in the morning... earliest ever since ... long ago. LOLs~
What i do? i on my computer... then starts mapling... if not mistaken, i spend the whole day mapling! @@
Wasn't i supposed to be studying? Anyway... i didn't study... i hope i can hold myself together and stop this insanity. I need to focus more on my studies... there is no reason and even a tiny slight space or gap for failure...
So...
seems like there is inside conflict again...
But that is not the point. The point is that... there is a need to study! Study! STUDY!
=.='''
Sign~
Good Luck in holding yourself together...
And remember... remember your promise... remember everything...
...
...
...

Day 57

19th November 2008
Wednesday...
Today is having F6 exam. OMG?
Haha... it is like usual... i go to school at around 5... Then, go to my friend's house... get some tax and start to study some. LOL! why? because i did not study at all at home!!! Was saying that i will be studying i will be studying... in the end... do what? Nothing... Dreaming... =.='''
When we go into class for the exam, it has just started... just in time in another word... XD
So... is started doing... i didn't even flip through the questions like everytime... i just do... LOL!!!
And it ends up... i think it is better. LOL!
I finish first among all.. 830... LOLs... i was like walking alone... when delon called... asking me where am i... so we go for a meal at Da Light... LOLs... After that, only 900... dad not coming yet.. so i went to his hostel and hang there. LOL!
Until my mum called. XD
When i reach home... patch maple! Then started playing maple... since maple is having a 2x, i played... and got new server... everything new... all started all over again... this new world... said is specially for Malaysian~ Nah~ your head la... where got? Even I play also lagging... called smooth game play for Malaysian? All thumbs down~
Anyway, that is not important now... i should be putting more effort on my study rather than games. LOL!
It is late now... it is time to go to bed... ^^
Good night.

Day 56

18 November 2008
Tuesday... Sunny + rain
I woke up at 9 this morning. @@ earliest ever since... forget since when... tomorrow will be having exam... Haih~
just thinking about it give stress. LOL! Today is law class. It is like usual... just that that Daniel and Phang... still the same... keep disturbing me... =.='''
And... during break, Daniel wanted to have his dinner... too bad the chicken rice store he wanted did not open. XD So... nothing to eat. hahaha... Then end up buying snacks. LOL!
After class... go home lo... but today my parents was late... so Daniel accompany me. We talk about cars... and lols... future? @@
It is weird. Lately was dreaming about my family... all about my family... My cousins, my uncle... all came out in my dream... wonder what it means... LOL! Anyway, tomorrow is exam... and after tonight... there will be no more games for me... LOL!!!
Hahaha! Gambateh! Stand to your word... Only after exam then continue to play games... Please... must focus on exam now.
And also... take care... myself... and also you...

Day 55

17th November 2008
Monday... woke up 10 something in the morning... @@
WOW? getting earlier... just when i started mapling, Ah Jin called. Asking me whether want to go out or not... lols. Of course~ then i joined him. LOLs... we went to a new restaurant. The food was kinda expensive. LOLs~ But still ok la... cause it was like very comfortable there... even got a chess board! XD
We had a game of chess... and then... ate... =.='''
Just chicken chop rice and honeydew juice cost me RM10... LOLs~ kinda... worth also la... juice wor. LOLs~
After that, we went to Saberkas to find some games to play... he bought some... while i was still there considering whether to buy or not to buy... =.='''
Still considering... better don't la... So... i go home empty while he have 2 piece of game with him... Tonight i am totally not sure got class or not... so i just skipped it... if got then = skipped. No class = correct. LOLs~
Then, all night didn't touch my books again... game game game... haih~ wonder what will happen to me... people says, future is in your hand... i will look... and see...

Day 54

16th November 2008
Sunday...
I actually hate today... =.='''
Why? Cause it is a full day class!!! And si all doing exercises. Alot Alot OF EXERCISES!
Anyway, it is close to exam also now. So it is a good thing to do anyway. So... today was like so tired... and my back hurt.. no idea why... =.=
Then... when i reached home... my mum asked me whether wanna do facial or not? XD
Of course i wan. XD
So... i take some hour relaxing... haha... Then... start with the games... I think i will need to work out on my tax and law... almost exam le... Gambateh!!!
Must put more effort... cannot play so much. If not... i will let myself down this time... also... i will let u go further... will be leave behind further... i don't want that to happen...
Take care....

Day 53

15th November 2008
Saturday, Sunny.
I was awaken by my dad... when i was having a weird dream. I was like... sacrifice myself for my family members... it was like... so odd. And to my amazement, my sacrifice bring me more good. @@
Anyway, the worst part of the dream is that there is a giant centipede appear and my uncle take a hammer and hit it flat. Eww~ you know? the Juice of the bug spit out like... =.=''' and it is slimy and smelly... and... i even go near it and "study" it. =.='''
Anyway, not important about that... i woke up... go prepare for school. My stomach is not feeling good since morning until evening. So bad... i ate... i gone to poop... But still feel bad. Wonder why... and also gastric... @@
Ate still got gastric? Odd right?
Anyway, i feel better now... but still will feel slight pain once in a while. =.='''
When i came home, i started doing my homework. Hmm... F6 lecturer gave 3 questions for us to do at home. We had F5 class in the afternoon... i only have tonight to do! XD
Say is like that... but i was doing the homework when i was having F5 class. LOL!
i managed to do 1.5 questions in F5 class. So when i reached home, i bathe and have my dinner... continue with my homework and done. Wala!~ XD
Got plenty of time for games... But think about tomorrow, there is a lot of things to do... tomorrow is another whole day class of F6... Tax =.='''
And the lecturer told us it will be Intensive! @@
OMG!
Hope that i can do it...
I still think of you... always wanted to see you... yes... last week God gave me a chance. I screwed it. =.='''
Anyway, i don't know how to face you too... but i just wanted to see you from afar. Just wanted to know that you are happy and well. Your smile still amaze me... ^^Make me happy...
Take care...

Day 52

14th Nov 2008
Friday
Time flies... it is now 52 days... and already 14 of November... So close to exam now... Yet... i m not well prepared.
Tomorrow is having a full day class. So tired of it... so hate... !!!
But what to do? i must also go. Cannot skip class. Haih... and teacher told us that there will be intensive revision class. Oh dear... should be a lot of exercises to be done. Tired...
Just thinking about it feel tired... LOL!
Anyway... today is having exam. F5 exam. i just do 1 question! actually i did 2... but only 1 that is the one i have confident about.
What next?
Daniel and i done fast and we go to have our dinner... LOL!
we like walk all over King Center looking for our dinner. XD We wanted to have roasted honey chicken rice... but then, the tau key say no more... Then we want go have vegetarian... Walk til there... shop no open... =.='''
so Finally!!! we decide to have char kueh tiaw! LOLS!
We ate... and then... just finish eating, Delon called... he just finished his exam. LOL!
So... since we finish eating, i call him to wait for us at school. So we walk back to school. Only by then, i didn't see him at school. LOL!
So we guessed he must have gone to Mei Yin's hostel. LOL!
i went up since my dad is not here yet. Just when i reach... he is here... =.='''
So i have to go down stairs again. =.='''
So... reached home at 830... was early. LOL!
so... on comp... play play play like usual... my homework is still not done. =.='''
Feel annoyed... Duh!!!
Anyway... Hope that i can handle tomorrow's work well...

Day 51

13th Nov 2008
Thursday
Today's weather... i don't know how to describe. Sunny... rainy... wet. LOL! But i just remember the moon is bright tonight.
I woke up quite late today... and feeling dizzy too... So... i had quick lunch. After lunch, i watch The Matrix! LOL! Old movie le... But i still watch it since i feel bored... Today exam F4(Law)... yet i did not study yet. LOL!!!!
But, when i reach school at 5, i flip the books and text... reading and try to memories. !!! Just hope that i can pass. This is just a Mock Exam... hope i can do better in real exam and ensure a pass. !!!
Important!
I finish my exam at around 8 to 830 pm. Then i give a call to my dad. He cam and pick me quite fast as they are also outside.
After that, we go for dinner at JLN Song. Hmm... Was quite full even now. I ate quite a LOT!
Tomorrow is also exam... F5(Performance Management)... haven't study also.. But i am not taking the exam in the final... so not so worry... HaiH~ but also must try my best in mock right?
Anyway... Hope i can make it...
Good luck!
I saw you online today... Wonder what are you doing there... i did not PM you... nor did i chat... i was thinking of going offline as soon as possible... LOL! But anyway, i left it there... Hope that you are as happy as always. ^^ take care ok?
Nights!

Day 50

12 Nov 2008
Sunny... Rainy... And rainy wet!
I woke up with a great sunshine in the morning... Since my bro is going out, i am left alone at home. I on the comp, start playing maple... play play play... feel bored... actually... i am having an exam tomorrow! But i haven't study!
What to do? no mood study also... So... play play play... Then 4 something... i go bathe and get ready for school. And homework also haven't done. So i did go to school a bit earlier to finish it. LOL! Did finish it. XD
Lucky~
Mdm Tan was like "shooting" again today... but at least not as "fierce" as last time. XD
Do the exercises she gave, do do do... until 930. =.='''
But got short break... today was a bit more relieve. LOL!
But she say that we need to prepare for Saturday and Sunday class! Why? cause there will be intensive revision! Meaning, no time to breathe!!! =.='''
Yeah right... scared? stress? no actually... don't know why... just don't have the "fire" that will set me burning and focus on my study... But no matter what... i will try to attempt it! i will not let myself down... i will not let you down...

Day 49

11 Nov 2008
Tuesday... Sunny...
I woke up earlier... 10am. @@
Getting more and more early... LOL! good right?
Life is getting better... But it is only today... i realised i fear death so much! So So Much!=.=
Why i say so?
Because... i was going to school today... and on the journey... my dad was driving quite fast!!! And scary... i was like... i fear that i will die @@
I don't used to be feared. Last time, i was like no worry... no fear. Now... scared... =.='''
Anyway, after that i went to school... Like usual... today's class is like ok... until that daniel start disturbing me... and phang join him Disturbing me. =.='''
So... ended up like no listen at all... Anyway... i at least know what the lecturer is talking about at least. LOL! It was Ok~ LOL!
It is like this... another night... u know... i really think a lot... And that caused me to be a bit like... worry too much... and my hair is dropping a lot nowadays... Really a lot... sometimes it is so scary...
Anyway... take care... you too ok?

Day 48

10th November 2008
Monday... Today i woke up 11 in the morning. Nice? ^^ Yes. it is... i am waking earlier and earlier. Now is getting better and better. I sleep at 230 now... And having a short nap before class is nice... cause it can give a boost on the performance in class as also apply to the ability to listen. XD
So... i went to class at 4 something like usual... and when i reach... they was already at the lab.
Go there watch them play chess and so on... so i decided to online... i downloaded some games... surfing with Google... then sharp 630... i go to class. LOL!
Since i was the only one in class when i arrive, it really feel odd. Daniel, Delon and Phang was having an exam... =.='''
Then soon... someone came... finally... not one on one with the lecturer. Anyway, now is not lectures... it is just revision class now... so... the lecturer drop down some exercise... and went off. Then, Lina came... LoL! Was still focusing on my work when she start to ask me about the notes and so on... and then... started to talk there.. =.= although just 3 person...
LOL! But also did done my part and complete the exercise... not actually complete... but did do some questions.
Then around 8pm, Delon come... he had finished his exam. @@ FAST!
1 hour like that he finished...
So... when he came, the exercise stopped. LOL! started talking there... All over the class...
Then Daniel come... When he come, it is impossible to study. XD Play games, chit chat... LOL!
Then 830, Phang came... LOL!
Then join in the chit chat... And that is it... the class like stopped when Daniel came. LOL!
930pm, go home...
Go home... upload the games into my comp... Then... now, still haven't try it... might as well try it after typing. ^^
Again... i thought of you now... still remember last time, we always start smsing starting now... until 12 something... sometimes it reached 1 or 2am. haha...
I missed those time... i did... now i do not have it... regret?
yes... regret... but what to do?
It is remembered... until my death... until my soul is dead...

Day 47

9th November 2008
Sunday... It a sunny, cloudy and rainy day. i woke up in the morning, sunny... before going to school... cloudy... during class... rainy. =.=
So... there is no suitable word to say today...
I woke up... with a little pain in the chest... and top of my stomach... that place should be the liver... i think... i must have my liver damaged... =.='''
Why? because of all these late sleep and all these things... I sometimes fear... i don't know why... i fear... death... Seems like i still don't want to face death... It is still too early for me...
Stop thinking...
So... i watch the unfinished series... Finish it today... and after awhile... times up. 1.30 pm already... prepare to school... Reach school just on time. LOL!
Today was about Tax Planning class. It is kinda nice... But i feel a slight burden... making me down and a bit moody. LOL!
But anyway... it is ok now...
After class... the rain was so heavy. I went to pick my brother and then... poof... go home. XD
Home Sweet Home...
Started with a bath. Since i got caught in the rain ... quite wet when i was home... So directly go for a bath... After bath... dinner time... after dinner... Game... =.='''
Only now that i stopped to write down what happen today... it is now already 12+ midnight... should be considered as another already... Haha...
No matter...
U slept? Should be... take care...

Day 46

8th November 2008
Time is getting shorter and shorter... even i feel my life is getting shorter and shorter... i feel tired... but there is little urge for sleep... today... i saw you... i really saw you... i even meet you... my report about my feelings when i saw you today... i can only hand in a blank report...
Why?
Reason is simple. I had 0 idea what i feel. I feel sad... i feel happy... i feel anxious to go talk to you when i first saw you... But i have no courage... But God decides that you appear in front of me... giving me a push to you... yes He helped... But me... i still dare not do anything...
At least i see that you are fine. I am happy for that... and grateful to God... that you are safe and happy... healthy all along. ^^ Hope that keep up. i saw you smile... i feel happy... yes... i did. But i was running away... too fast that i cannot catch a longer time with you... i really regret that... but that is what it is... do take care of yourself well...
I was feeling down after saw you in The Spring. I reached home at around 2pm. It was early... and lonely too... because my parents was out. That is good... at least i got some time to hold up myself. ^^ No one can see me cry or drop a single tear... good that no one will worry...
See... it is already Day 46... didn't know i had already been writing this long... sometimes... i really feel tired... every night there is a must for me to type what happen everyday. But this may be a very nice remedy for me when i feel sad. Even when i feel happy... i can come here... to share... Of course... i know there should be no people that can or will read this blog. ^^
Anyway... Cheer up ok?
It will not be a good thing staying this way. Exam is close... so close now... and you haven't start your revision... Take care... We 2 must take care of ourselves well...

Day 45

7th November 2008
Today's a Friday... Friday. It was cloudy when i woke up. Late? nope. The weather is like that. I take my lunch while playing Maple. LOL!
Then, after that, i take a short rest. Continue with my drama series. But soon after, i need to go pick my bro since it is raining.
Go to school... then... law class... Today was talking a lot. But didn't interrupt the class like everytime. LOL!
So... was quite ok... Not ok actually... cause was not listening!
=.='''
I really dislike Friday nowadays... No idea why... I don't feel as good as other days... hm...
Anyway... Let it be... Time will pass...

Day 44

6th November 2008
Thursday... Sunny...
Today, i was forced to wake up early. Why? To bring my bro to school as "Parents". LOLS!
So, like usual, my dad bring us there. When i arrive, i saw my teachers. They still remember me. LOLs... And most sarcastic thing that Puan Jong ever said to me happened this day. What is it? She say... wow, u upgrade to be parents now. LOLs!
Anyway, means no harm. XD
I just sit in there like a dummy. And only 10+ it is over. So, i take him for lunch before going home as we will not be coming out from the house after lunch. LOL!
So, we settle our lunch at a coffee shop. Hmm... Cost me Rm 11. It is ok. LOLS!
After that, we go home. Started Maple... Then 2 something, stop playing and rest. I was quite tired. Since i had to wake up early... LOL! So... i tried to sleep. And that stupid bro of mine... he keep on disturbing me. =.='''
Can't sleep...
No choice. Don't sleep lo... Then go to class at 530. Today was late. LOLs. But still not late for class. XD
Was feeling like collapsing... LOL! And that Daniel and Phang... OMG! Today like "sot ki"... "harrass" me the whole class. After harrass me then harrass my pencil case. =.='''
Anyway, didn't mean any harm. LOL! At least that keep me awake. =.='''
After class, my dad came to bring me home. Was punctual today. LOL!
Home... then on my comp... play a bit of game... but was like watching youtube more than playing game. LOL! Watching some very funny and stupid stuff =.='''
Now 11+... Today is almost over...
Just like usual... it seems you came... and you go... so freely in my mind... that i can't control...

Day 43

5th November 2008
Wednesday, Sunny.
It was a fine day. i woke up 11 in the morning. Seems like i am getting better. Had reduced my time for bed from 5 to 3 now and wake up earlier. From 1 to 11 in the morning. Good news. ^^
I woke up, and i saw my bro still not prepared for school. So i asked him why is he not ready... he said he don't want to go. LOLs! Like that also can? Anyway, it is ok as there is already no more class. Now only go there to waste time.
So, the afternoon was just playing games. Since he is at home, we played Dota. With his friend. LOLS! And was good games. Because... i win. XD
Anyway, after that, my dad called quite early. 4pm only. Luckily i go bathe earlier at 3. So that i can prepare for school right away. I packed my bag, then go. When arrive, we went to the office to make payment for the course next year. Hmm. Like usual... dad will ask a lot of questions. After that, i went to my friend's house. LOL! Hang around there before class. When reached school, that Kim Leng asked us to sign at a birthday card. For who? i asked... Quan~
LOLs! i didn't know!
Quan is my Dota Teacher. XD and also a nice friend. Really nice. Cause i told him a lot of things too. Hmm... so... after signing, the lecturer came too. He also ask the lecturer to sign. LOL!
Then, good thing, Mdm Tan also played along. She went to the cake house near the school and bought a cake for him. LOLS! Still had a short party in class. LOL!
Anyway, my dad came to pick me up on time today. And my bro is in the car as well. So meaning must be got go to some place else before going home.
As i expected. We are going to jln Song for our "dinner". LOL!
So we ate... Hmm... i ate quite much tonight. =.=
Anyway, after dinner, go home of course. I start playing games when i reach home. Games again...
hahaha!!!
... A rainy night...

Missing you...

Day 42

4th November 2008
Today... i was like so blur. Wake up blur... Everything blur. Even my sight is blurred half way in class. Don't know why...
I woke up at 12. It was better than yesterday. Even my sleep is always 1 hour earlier than yesterday. It is good. But... i was having sudden heart pain today. Twice. Once in school. Another when i sleep. But it is over now. LOL!
I go to school as usual on 5. Then, after dinner with Phang, we go back to class. We were late. LOLS! The food we ordered took 20 minutes to serve. SLOW!
Anyway, we didn't miss out much as Mr.Kho was recapping what was taught yesterday.
So... as i said... my vision blurred all of sudden during class. Don't know why... I was like fainting... But still not fainted. LOL!
But that was scary. Anyway, don't think about it too much. It will get better soon.
I think i saw someone that had walk in my life... Linda Wong... But i cannot be sure. Because was far. She was sitting in "igloo". Anyway, it is not important. Just curious. Seems that i do not hate her anymore.
I reached home at around 10. So... see my bro playing Maple... Join of course. LOL! So that is all... Still... i am typing this when i am playing half way. LOLS!
...

Day 41

3rd October 2008
Monday... Last night, i sleep at 5.30am. Early? Yes, very early. =.='''
Had severe headache when i wake up at 1pm. OMG~ Anyway, just treat it as if nothing happen, i had a quick lunch, then pack for tonight's class. Monday class is really tiring. Just don't know why i hate Monday having class.
So i went to school... with my headache...
Then today was having revision class. So the lecturer drop down exercise let us do. So just do lo...
Then after class... came home...
Just like usual... Just that during the journey... i was thinking about someone. I was thinking about you...
Anyway... Tired of the pain... Maybe should get some rest...
But the sleeping seems to leave me so far... that i am not sleeping well...

Day 40

2nd November 2008
Sunday. Sunny + Cloudy
Today, i woke up quite early in the morning and followed my parents for breakfast. And of course, they will certainly go for shopping. I as well, followed. Had some talk about my course with my mum during the journey.
After that, reached home. Then i started to feel that there is nothing to do... So... start to on my comp when Isabella smsed. Then started mapling until my bro came home... and continue as my bro asked me to help him train.
Then 4 something... stop mapling and get some rest. Was thinking of having a nap while saw my parents watching drama. So i joined them... =.=
Didn't get any rest today...
So tired...
Night Fall... Had my dinner... then started the games again. See... seems like every post i write, is related to game. I never get the time to study!
Can i continue on like this?
=.='''
God Knows...

Day 39

1st November 2008
As usual, a Saturday is a day i dislike. Why? Because always having class in Saturday. And it is whole day. But good thing... i was not having class this afternoon when teacher told us that the afternoon class will be canceled. So happy to hear that. LOLs. But the afternoon was so tiring... and tedious. As mum was already scolding my bro for losing the key in school this morning... and then, i go down to pack lunch for my dad...
After that go to salvation army to put down those clothes. Then after that, my mum came home, asking about the course. I hate this. Everytime that come to this sure is like there nag nag nag...
ask me do this, ask me do that... say me stupid... what so ever... haih~ Tired of it... So ignorance is a way to solve this. =.=
So, they called the school asking about the details. Good thing... don't have to bother me. I don't really bother. =.='''
Anyway, we had a simple dinner after this. Then had some supper...
It was quite a boring and... tiresome day...

Day 38

31 October 2008
Today is Friday... Friday with a Tax Seminar. Since there is a Seminar, i need to wake up earlier to go to this Seminar. But, i expect myself to be awaken by my mum or my brother... But no. I woke up on my own. Even quite early. I feel that there is a dream. A dream that woke me up. I think i saw you. I saw you.
Anyway, i did wake up. I get myself ready for the Seminar... and start to go at 9. Since the Seminar starts at 10, 9 is consider a bit late. But still arrive on time.
Reached. Saw Belinda(classmate). She's also looking where is the Seminar held. So we look around... Since Holiday Inn is not so big, i started with the bottom floor. =.='''
Lucky me... found it quite fast. Just in the corner. LOL!
I walk in... Saw the Sim brothers. They just arrived as well. So, the Seminar started. Listen... the speaker's English was so "British". LOL. Have a little problem catching what he is saying. But still... can know what he is saying. XD Compliment myself!
After this, Delon asked to have me give him a ride home. Of course, it is ok. But since my mum haven't come to fetch me yet, we decide to walk around. Tun Jugah... A place with plenty of memories of you n me. i shouldn't have go... But since i walked in, let just as well go walk...
I saw you n me... just like illusion in front of my eye... i miss you... yes... i really miss you now.
Why this happen?
i cannot control myself. You just flow into my head. I saw you. i miss you. i am thinking that if what are you doing now... if never were to break up... i will not feel this sadness... yes... regret...
Regret... But what to do? it is my choice. i choose to sacrifice you for me. I am bad... i am really bad... But this sacrifice... seems to be a waste... it did not help me much... Regret...
But since it is my choice, it is not wise to go back to you in this stat now. As i am spoiled. I am broken... Until i am good again, until i done what i promise... i will try to make it up to u. i already promise you this... and you are part of my future. Without you in it, it don't make my future a future.
Take care well ok? i will always be praying that you will be safe and healthy. Happy...
Never ever to cry. Must take care ok? You are pretty when you smile. i don't want to see you cry...

Day 37

30th October 2008
Woke up 11 in the morning, was blurred with dreams. I can't recall what came into my head last night. But it was like... so real.
I get my lunch... and watch TV. Was like blank all along. Until some time... 3 something, my dad came home, telling me that got to go at 4 pm. So... in a rush, i prepare myself to go to school. My dad bring me for a drink before going to school. It was quite boring as i have no idea what they are talking about. But after that, school called and tell me that today's class has been canceled. =.='''
Lucky i followed my dad for a drink... if not... reach school then say no class... that is late... so late already. LOL!
So... go home... Like usual... play games... maple... Maple lately... a lot of time spend mapling... haih~ time is passing like crazy... i m playing like crazy... =.='''
...SO tiring... Tired of life...

Day 36

29th October 2008
Today is Wednesday. I really dislike this day. Don't know why. I feel very... lazy... i hate Wednesday. I hate F6... Wonder why? Maybe is always discriminated by Lecturer. Haih~
Anyway, was really mindless. Absent Minded day.
Was not concentrating in class. If like this... how to pass the exam? Of course cannot like that... But what to do? I have to go on. Cannot stop. Cannot control...
I really need help... haih~

Day 35

28th October 2008
Wake up with headache, whole day with headache... Haih~ But anyway, bear with it. I did do some reading before class. And... it is ok. Was quite a hot and wet day. LOL! Don't really like this type of weather. Really sickening.
Go to school at 430 in the afternoon. Hm... when i reached, was unable to go in to the lab where i usually go. Sad... Might as well stay at the lobby reading newspaper. Soon after, Phang also finish work. We go had our dinner. LOL! After dinner, of course, we go to class. We go earlier. I was like so free that i help clean the whiteboard and organise the curtains. =.='''
The lecturer came soon after. Like usual, ask me how is my revision going... Then start with the class when the other students come. I was first. LOL!
Go home at 930... home le... play game again... haih... so sianz...
Life is so... i feel that my life is like wasting time...
But anyway, i don't know what i am doing already...

Day 34

27th October 2008
Monday... a no class Monday. Hehe. Good thing i had nothing to do. And maplestory was having 2x exp event. So... i take up almost the whole day mapling with Linda. A friend i know in maple just few days ago. LOL
Haha... Was quite tiring. And did not gain a level. Duh~ wasting time. But did gain 29% exp. That is quite alot. LOL!
After that, since i grew tired, i off my comp and get some rest. LOL!
Then, 6pm, my bro came home and ask me to help him with his books. =.= I lost my 2 hours of 2x exp ar!!! Sianz...
Anyway, then i saw Rachel in Msn. So i pmed her and asked her her id and password. LOL... The MapleGF. XD
Since she is so so inactive, maybe i can help her with her level a bit.
Haih... People will change. Anyway, i shall end this here now. I think, you may be learning to drive. Because i remember that you have told me you will learn driving when u come back to Kuching. Might as well pray that you are safe. Take care. ^^

Day 33

26th October 2008
Sunday... Cloudy
Today was so carefree. LOL!. I woke up finding 2 sms. Same is asking... what will u tell me if i am going to die in 15 mins...?
LoL!!! Hard to reply. So i just simply give a lame and cold reply. LOL! Since the sms was from 9am, and i woke up at 11, i put it as if died hours ago.. so nothing to say already. XD
Then of course, 1 of them is unsatisfied with the answer. So... ask me retype lo... ma retype. LOL!
Sms whole morning... and i did give u a sms too. U did give me back one. ^^ Thxs. Was happy to receive it.
Afternoon... i manage to study some law. LOL!
Then, after 30 mins or around that, i on comp play maple. LOL! Was playing maple lately. Then 4pm stop for a rest. Did go to bed for some nap. XD
Woke up... Dad was cooking Crabby!!! my favorite food. Hehe... Nice dinner tonight.
It was quite a nice day. Just that my friends are like not so happy today. LOL! Quarreling. Afternoon 1 case, night 1 case. LOL! Haih... But did manage to solve them. haha...
Missing you is not a must. But it has become a part of life...

Day 32

25th October 2008
Today morning, i was forced to wake up early. For what? Go to bau... Someplace there... Singaiwan... Go there climb a hill. LOL! So tiring. Since i did not had much sleep last night, it is tough for me to keep up my stamina... Anyway, i did make it to the top. An accomplishment for me. ^^
But, i am having a class in the afternoon. Reach home already 12+... No time to rest... Anyway, i still make myself go. Hmm... i was driving to school today... and was driving quite fast! LOL!
Anyway, it is ok today. Was not very down like yesterday. Just tired. But still manage to listen to the lecture.
Had a nice dinner today. ^^ my dad cook something new. It was sweet. But i did enjoy it.
After that, was having some games with my friends and my bro. This is today. A peaceful... cold... cloudy... and normal day...

Day 31

24th October 2008
A rainy day has always been a nice day to sleep. But was awaken because of the alarm clock that was set yesterday to prevent myself from sleeping too long... LOL!
Anyway, i woke up... and again, i start mapling. LOL!!!
Mapling... how long i did not do that... And only recently, i start playing it again. Hmm...
Afternoon, my bro buy lunch back. LOL!After that, we had our lunch and watch drama. Of course, i stop mapling and go watch drama together. Watch watch watch... he go school already i still continue to watch... and i finished it today! LOL!
It was 4pm already when i finished it. So i also quickly go bathe and prepare for school. Today is law class. Hmm... was quite good. i had my dinner with Phang and Damien when i reach school... When i just reach, first thing Phang said was... Lets go for dinner~ LOL!
So... just join lo... Damien tag along. XD
When had our dinner... Then back to school. Was quite short a time. After dinner, we stop by at the computer lab before going to class. While "wasting" time in the lab, i flip the papers and find that UK pound was now only 5.8. LOL!!! Rate drop so much!
Then go to class. Today's class... Hmm... just like usual. But i don't feel that Mr.Kho is teaching much today. LOL! was repeating...
After class... my parents came late to fetch me. LOL. Coincidently saw Mr.Philip. Had some chat with him. Then 2150 my parents came. Of course, good bye Mr.Philip... hehe...
Then we go to Kenyalang for ... supper? I didn't take. Just see them eat. LOL! Today is just... usual. Just feel a bit low. LOL!
Hahaha! why low? No idea as well... Anyway, wonder what are you doing now? ... take care no matter what...

Day 30

23rd October 2008
Thursday. It was raining heavily today. +.+
I am wet. Should say that i reach school wet. And go buy my dinner, become even more wet. Lucky that now i am at home, i am not sick. LOL!
Today is F5 class. But unlike other class... today plays a lot. Was talkative. Hmm... Wonder why?
30 days... It has been 30 days... i rarely get your news nowadays. I think of you once in a while. Even the matter of death came to my thoughts, you sure will come out in my mind. Haih~ uncontrollable. I am addicted to you. But anyway, i still will need my focus on my dream... and my dream consist of you... But before that, something must be done before i step on to my dream.
Gambateh!!! Must study hard!
It is quite late every night when i go to bed... tired... and worn...
You must take care of yourself well ok? I know you will say this to me too... Anyway, take care...

Day 29

22 October 2008
Today is F6... Oh... And it is a long sleep for today. I sleep until 1+ in the afternoon! LOL!
Tired... and headache. So tiring. And... lately my brain was filled with questions. Idiotic Questions. Sianz~
Anyway, that is no special subject... today just like usual... =.='''
And just some thing about tax... May as well stop here... LOL ... teacher was talking about the tax treatment. And the bad things about evading tax. That's why she don't go out to commercial line. Oh... that give more influence on me as the dream to start own business become stronger. XD
And it seems that Alex was having the same view as i do. Go for business rather than working for others although we are taking ACCA. HAHAHA!!!
Should be all for today... Hmm... The thoughts may bother me much... But will not came to an end any day... life and death... haih~
Good night dear... 11... it is a bit early... but i also wanted to say it. ^^ take care.

Day 28

21 October 2008
A fine Tuesday it is. Woke up quite early... Just that i was in a fright when i wake up. Not a good sign, not healthy, but anyway, not important...
It is only lately... when i woke up every morning... starts thinking what if today will be my last day in life... What will i do... I never come to an answer. Yet... again. It come to me... That i feel... my life is not as long as others. Maybe will be shorter... But i don't worry. Because i am blogging here everyday. This is like my life. Day28... Seems short... but it feels long to me... Really... Feels as if it is months and years... But for real... not even 1 month of time. But i feel that it is for months!
But no matter what, it is what it is... Stop thinking about all this. Should just focus on what is happening now. Get up to my study... and focus. Complete my ACCA and start of with my dream.
You are part of my dream. Yes. That is true as well. I am not lying. Also not telling white lies...
Today... was like usual...
Just that many came to my thoughts...
F4 Law... was mostly on revisions today.
...
May i call it a full stop here? Maybe. Just hope that i can stop sleeping so late. It was already 5 in the morning when i go to bed... So pathetic. Such a bad life style... Must take care of myself... but no matter what, still hoping and wishing that you are well.. healthy and happy. ^^ Must take care of yourself ok?

Day 27

20th October 2008
Today is a Monday... Monday is also another happy day for me. Why? Because i no class on Monday!~ ^^
Anyway, i feel so lazy today. Morning already 12+ still don't want to wake up. Still lie at bed there. Anyway, 1pm like that i also force myself to wake. Cause sleep too much will headache. When wake up, i go check out lunch. Brush my teeth then quickly had my lunch. After lunch is drama time. LOL... I think whole afternoon was watching drama.
Luckily my Dad came home at 5. If not i sure is continue til 6pm. LOL!!! Then stopped. He called me to follow him down to get some Durians. =.=''' of course, i listen, and follow. Guess what. Didn't know he buy so much. 13 durians. OMG!
So heavy... eh... u know... Durians got thorns... so it is quite hard to carry. But still, manage to get 8 up. All by myself. =.='''
Then of course, after the "exercise", i go bathe. And for dinner, i take durians only. =.=
I quite like durians. LOL!!!
It is again a lazy day. No study... all procrastinating. And... got 1 thing i want to complain... STREAMYX LINE REALLY SUCKS LATELY!!!
lol... ok... stop here now... 2am already. =.='''
Nights~ And... i believe you had fallen asleep. ^^ U might no see this... u might not hear this... but i still wanted to say, Good night, sweetdreams and sleep well. ^^

Day 26

19th October 2008
Sunday... Sweet Sunday. Why? Because of no class. LOL! So... it is a good day as i sleep until 11 something. Finally some sufficient sleep.
So... woke up in a simple blur blur, walk to wash room. After brushing my teeth, i just notice nobody is at home. Alone. LOL!
Anyway, i on my comp, start "Mapling". Really a bit miss Mapling as i stopped for quite some time already. Play play play... 12 something already... So, i look at the table... so empty... so waited for lunch. XD
But really, 1pm, my parents came back. I had my lunch, then continue on with the game... I stop playing only at 6pm. LOL!
Not really tired. Don't know why. But comp also need some rest. So i off it. LOL!
Sunday is really a lazy day. I didn't do any studying today~ LOL!!! Still dare to say... But anyway, will catch up as soon as possible. It is must ok!!!
Oh... half way mapling, a friend called. @@ Actually really odd. She don't really know me that well, yet we chat like we know each other well. =.='''
Of course, i still reserve myself for you. ^^
Anyway, it is just a simple chat. Very casual...
Back to 6pm, after dinner, my bro asked me for a Chinese Chess Game. So, accepted, played... and won. XD
After this, watch TV. Then my Cousin called. Asking me for a Dota game. =.=
Accepted again. And... badly, i lost. It is ok. I am already prepare for losing...
And... Streamyx line is so NOOB lately. Everytime play halfway will disconnect. So VEX!
Cool down...
...
I am missing you, missing your face... missing your smile... Yes... True...
I was looking forward to see you... But will not dare to face you. Don't know why... ...
Take care of yourself well ok?
Again... Take care of yourself...
Me will too~

Day 25

18th October 2008
Time really flies... LoL... I feel that i am repeating the same thing over and over again. Anyway, today was really tiring. But, i didn't get my sleep. I was unable to sleep last night. End up watching drama and reading F5 as today afternoon will be having a F5 mock exam. So... I study a bit lo. Good thing la. I did manage to try my best this time in the exam.
Lets start from 430am when i go to bed... i was actually not sleep when i go to bed. But i need to get some sleep because i am having a class in the morning and also afternoon got exam. So... Forced myself to sleep. After that, was again force to wake up at 7 to go to school... LOL!!! It is best not to sleep... wake up feel really headache and dizzy. And also feel like vomiting.
So... prepare go school. Then reach already, saw Daniel already waiting at the coffee shop. Hm... Early! It was only 730 then. So... we ate our breakfast. Then, go to class. The classroom was still empty. So it is like we are "Dominating" the classroom. XD
Anyway, after awhile, he also need to go back to his hostel as it is not his class he is in. LOL... So... we start our class... F6, taxation. Just like usual this class. Then, after that, i went to my friend's house to have a shower. LOL! So nice!!!
After that, of course i didn't join them for lunch as Daniel and Phang is waiting for me at Mega for lunch. After lunch we had a series of jokes. =.='''
Laugh till tummy pain. XD
Then of course, must settle down to take the F5 mock exam lo. At least i tried my best. ^^
So, after completing... actually i did not complete... cause question 1 i don't know how to do. LOL!!!
Then, hand in... At least i really did tried. Attempt it...
So... i go back ome after that. Reach home, bathe... then sleep. LOL! So tired! Wake up at 6 something for my dinner... Then after dinner back to sleep again. But i think i only slept for a few minutes. Then wake up again. On comp!!! Play game. =.='''
... This should be all for today... Take care of yourself! ^^Me too... i will take care of myself too!