Day 38

31 October 2008
Today is Friday... Friday with a Tax Seminar. Since there is a Seminar, i need to wake up earlier to go to this Seminar. But, i expect myself to be awaken by my mum or my brother... But no. I woke up on my own. Even quite early. I feel that there is a dream. A dream that woke me up. I think i saw you. I saw you.
Anyway, i did wake up. I get myself ready for the Seminar... and start to go at 9. Since the Seminar starts at 10, 9 is consider a bit late. But still arrive on time.
Reached. Saw Belinda(classmate). She's also looking where is the Seminar held. So we look around... Since Holiday Inn is not so big, i started with the bottom floor. =.='''
Lucky me... found it quite fast. Just in the corner. LOL!
I walk in... Saw the Sim brothers. They just arrived as well. So, the Seminar started. Listen... the speaker's English was so "British". LOL. Have a little problem catching what he is saying. But still... can know what he is saying. XD Compliment myself!
After this, Delon asked to have me give him a ride home. Of course, it is ok. But since my mum haven't come to fetch me yet, we decide to walk around. Tun Jugah... A place with plenty of memories of you n me. i shouldn't have go... But since i walked in, let just as well go walk...
I saw you n me... just like illusion in front of my eye... i miss you... yes... i really miss you now.
Why this happen?
i cannot control myself. You just flow into my head. I saw you. i miss you. i am thinking that if what are you doing now... if never were to break up... i will not feel this sadness... yes... regret...
Regret... But what to do? it is my choice. i choose to sacrifice you for me. I am bad... i am really bad... But this sacrifice... seems to be a waste... it did not help me much... Regret...
But since it is my choice, it is not wise to go back to you in this stat now. As i am spoiled. I am broken... Until i am good again, until i done what i promise... i will try to make it up to u. i already promise you this... and you are part of my future. Without you in it, it don't make my future a future.
Take care well ok? i will always be praying that you will be safe and healthy. Happy...
Never ever to cry. Must take care ok? You are pretty when you smile. i don't want to see you cry...