31 October 2008
Today is Friday... Friday with a Tax Seminar. Since there is a Seminar, i need to wake up earlier to go to this Seminar. But, i expect myself to be awaken by my mum or my brother... But no. I woke up on my own. Even quite early. I feel that there is a dream. A dream that woke me up. I think i saw you. I saw you.
Anyway, i did wake up. I get myself ready for the Seminar... and start to go at 9. Since the Seminar starts at 10, 9 is consider a bit late. But still arrive on time.
Reached. Saw Belinda(classmate). She's also looking where is the Seminar held. So we look around... Since Holiday Inn is not so big, i started with the bottom floor. =.='''
Lucky me... found it quite fast. Just in the corner. LOL!
I walk in... Saw the Sim brothers. They just arrived as well. So, the Seminar started. Listen... the speaker's English was so "British". LOL. Have a little problem catching what he is saying. But still... can know what he is saying. XD Compliment myself!
After this, Delon asked to have me give him a ride home. Of course, it is ok. But since my mum haven't come to fetch me yet, we decide to walk around. Tun Jugah... A place with plenty of memories of you n me. i shouldn't have go... But since i walked in, let just as well go walk...
I saw you n me... just like illusion in front of my eye... i miss you... yes... i really miss you now.
Why this happen?
i cannot control myself. You just flow into my head. I saw you. i miss you. i am thinking that if what are you doing now... if never were to break up... i will not feel this sadness... yes... regret...
Regret... But what to do? it is my choice. i choose to sacrifice you for me. I am bad... i am really bad... But this sacrifice... seems to be a waste... it did not help me much... Regret...
But since it is my choice, it is not wise to go back to you in this stat now. As i am spoiled. I am broken... Until i am good again, until i done what i promise... i will try to make it up to u. i already promise you this... and you are part of my future. Without you in it, it don't make my future a future.
Take care well ok? i will always be praying that you will be safe and healthy. Happy...
Never ever to cry. Must take care ok? You are pretty when you smile. i don't want to see you cry...
Friday, October 31, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Day 37
30th October 2008
Woke up 11 in the morning, was blurred with dreams. I can't recall what came into my head last night. But it was like... so real.
I get my lunch... and watch TV. Was like blank all along. Until some time... 3 something, my dad came home, telling me that got to go at 4 pm. So... in a rush, i prepare myself to go to school. My dad bring me for a drink before going to school. It was quite boring as i have no idea what they are talking about. But after that, school called and tell me that today's class has been canceled. =.='''
Lucky i followed my dad for a drink... if not... reach school then say no class... that is late... so late already. LOL!
So... go home... Like usual... play games... maple... Maple lately... a lot of time spend mapling... haih~ time is passing like crazy... i m playing like crazy... =.='''
...SO tiring... Tired of life...
Woke up 11 in the morning, was blurred with dreams. I can't recall what came into my head last night. But it was like... so real.
I get my lunch... and watch TV. Was like blank all along. Until some time... 3 something, my dad came home, telling me that got to go at 4 pm. So... in a rush, i prepare myself to go to school. My dad bring me for a drink before going to school. It was quite boring as i have no idea what they are talking about. But after that, school called and tell me that today's class has been canceled. =.='''
Lucky i followed my dad for a drink... if not... reach school then say no class... that is late... so late already. LOL!
So... go home... Like usual... play games... maple... Maple lately... a lot of time spend mapling... haih~ time is passing like crazy... i m playing like crazy... =.='''
...SO tiring... Tired of life...
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Day 36
29th October 2008
Today is Wednesday. I really dislike this day. Don't know why. I feel very... lazy... i hate Wednesday. I hate F6... Wonder why? Maybe is always discriminated by Lecturer. Haih~
Anyway, was really mindless. Absent Minded day.
Was not concentrating in class. If like this... how to pass the exam? Of course cannot like that... But what to do? I have to go on. Cannot stop. Cannot control...
I really need help... haih~
Today is Wednesday. I really dislike this day. Don't know why. I feel very... lazy... i hate Wednesday. I hate F6... Wonder why? Maybe is always discriminated by Lecturer. Haih~
Anyway, was really mindless. Absent Minded day.
Was not concentrating in class. If like this... how to pass the exam? Of course cannot like that... But what to do? I have to go on. Cannot stop. Cannot control...
I really need help... haih~
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Day 35
28th October 2008
Wake up with headache, whole day with headache... Haih~ But anyway, bear with it. I did do some reading before class. And... it is ok. Was quite a hot and wet day. LOL! Don't really like this type of weather. Really sickening.
Go to school at 430 in the afternoon. Hm... when i reached, was unable to go in to the lab where i usually go. Sad... Might as well stay at the lobby reading newspaper. Soon after, Phang also finish work. We go had our dinner. LOL! After dinner, of course, we go to class. We go earlier. I was like so free that i help clean the whiteboard and organise the curtains. =.='''
The lecturer came soon after. Like usual, ask me how is my revision going... Then start with the class when the other students come. I was first. LOL!
Go home at 930... home le... play game again... haih... so sianz...
Life is so... i feel that my life is like wasting time...
But anyway, i don't know what i am doing already...
Wake up with headache, whole day with headache... Haih~ But anyway, bear with it. I did do some reading before class. And... it is ok. Was quite a hot and wet day. LOL! Don't really like this type of weather. Really sickening.
Go to school at 430 in the afternoon. Hm... when i reached, was unable to go in to the lab where i usually go. Sad... Might as well stay at the lobby reading newspaper. Soon after, Phang also finish work. We go had our dinner. LOL! After dinner, of course, we go to class. We go earlier. I was like so free that i help clean the whiteboard and organise the curtains. =.='''
The lecturer came soon after. Like usual, ask me how is my revision going... Then start with the class when the other students come. I was first. LOL!
Go home at 930... home le... play game again... haih... so sianz...
Life is so... i feel that my life is like wasting time...
But anyway, i don't know what i am doing already...
Monday, October 27, 2008
Day 34
27th October 2008
Monday... a no class Monday. Hehe. Good thing i had nothing to do. And maplestory was having 2x exp event. So... i take up almost the whole day mapling with Linda. A friend i know in maple just few days ago. LOL
Haha... Was quite tiring. And did not gain a level. Duh~ wasting time. But did gain 29% exp. That is quite alot. LOL!
After that, since i grew tired, i off my comp and get some rest. LOL!
Then, 6pm, my bro came home and ask me to help him with his books. =.= I lost my 2 hours of 2x exp ar!!! Sianz...
Anyway, then i saw Rachel in Msn. So i pmed her and asked her her id and password. LOL... The MapleGF. XD
Since she is so so inactive, maybe i can help her with her level a bit.
Haih... People will change. Anyway, i shall end this here now. I think, you may be learning to drive. Because i remember that you have told me you will learn driving when u come back to Kuching. Might as well pray that you are safe. Take care. ^^
Monday... a no class Monday. Hehe. Good thing i had nothing to do. And maplestory was having 2x exp event. So... i take up almost the whole day mapling with Linda. A friend i know in maple just few days ago. LOL
Haha... Was quite tiring. And did not gain a level. Duh~ wasting time. But did gain 29% exp. That is quite alot. LOL!
After that, since i grew tired, i off my comp and get some rest. LOL!
Then, 6pm, my bro came home and ask me to help him with his books. =.= I lost my 2 hours of 2x exp ar!!! Sianz...
Anyway, then i saw Rachel in Msn. So i pmed her and asked her her id and password. LOL... The MapleGF. XD
Since she is so so inactive, maybe i can help her with her level a bit.
Haih... People will change. Anyway, i shall end this here now. I think, you may be learning to drive. Because i remember that you have told me you will learn driving when u come back to Kuching. Might as well pray that you are safe. Take care. ^^
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Day 33
26th October 2008
Sunday... Cloudy
Today was so carefree. LOL!. I woke up finding 2 sms. Same is asking... what will u tell me if i am going to die in 15 mins...?
LoL!!! Hard to reply. So i just simply give a lame and cold reply. LOL! Since the sms was from 9am, and i woke up at 11, i put it as if died hours ago.. so nothing to say already. XD
Then of course, 1 of them is unsatisfied with the answer. So... ask me retype lo... ma retype. LOL!
Sms whole morning... and i did give u a sms too. U did give me back one. ^^ Thxs. Was happy to receive it.
Afternoon... i manage to study some law. LOL!
Then, after 30 mins or around that, i on comp play maple. LOL! Was playing maple lately. Then 4pm stop for a rest. Did go to bed for some nap. XD
Woke up... Dad was cooking Crabby!!! my favorite food. Hehe... Nice dinner tonight.
It was quite a nice day. Just that my friends are like not so happy today. LOL! Quarreling. Afternoon 1 case, night 1 case. LOL! Haih... But did manage to solve them. haha...
Missing you is not a must. But it has become a part of life...
Sunday... Cloudy
Today was so carefree. LOL!. I woke up finding 2 sms. Same is asking... what will u tell me if i am going to die in 15 mins...?
LoL!!! Hard to reply. So i just simply give a lame and cold reply. LOL! Since the sms was from 9am, and i woke up at 11, i put it as if died hours ago.. so nothing to say already. XD
Then of course, 1 of them is unsatisfied with the answer. So... ask me retype lo... ma retype. LOL!
Sms whole morning... and i did give u a sms too. U did give me back one. ^^ Thxs. Was happy to receive it.
Afternoon... i manage to study some law. LOL!
Then, after 30 mins or around that, i on comp play maple. LOL! Was playing maple lately. Then 4pm stop for a rest. Did go to bed for some nap. XD
Woke up... Dad was cooking Crabby!!! my favorite food. Hehe... Nice dinner tonight.
It was quite a nice day. Just that my friends are like not so happy today. LOL! Quarreling. Afternoon 1 case, night 1 case. LOL! Haih... But did manage to solve them. haha...
Missing you is not a must. But it has become a part of life...
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Day 32
25th October 2008
Today morning, i was forced to wake up early. For what? Go to bau... Someplace there... Singaiwan... Go there climb a hill. LOL! So tiring. Since i did not had much sleep last night, it is tough for me to keep up my stamina... Anyway, i did make it to the top. An accomplishment for me. ^^
But, i am having a class in the afternoon. Reach home already 12+... No time to rest... Anyway, i still make myself go. Hmm... i was driving to school today... and was driving quite fast! LOL!
Anyway, it is ok today. Was not very down like yesterday. Just tired. But still manage to listen to the lecture.
Had a nice dinner today. ^^ my dad cook something new. It was sweet. But i did enjoy it.
After that, was having some games with my friends and my bro. This is today. A peaceful... cold... cloudy... and normal day...
Today morning, i was forced to wake up early. For what? Go to bau... Someplace there... Singaiwan... Go there climb a hill. LOL! So tiring. Since i did not had much sleep last night, it is tough for me to keep up my stamina... Anyway, i did make it to the top. An accomplishment for me. ^^
But, i am having a class in the afternoon. Reach home already 12+... No time to rest... Anyway, i still make myself go. Hmm... i was driving to school today... and was driving quite fast! LOL!
Anyway, it is ok today. Was not very down like yesterday. Just tired. But still manage to listen to the lecture.
Had a nice dinner today. ^^ my dad cook something new. It was sweet. But i did enjoy it.
After that, was having some games with my friends and my bro. This is today. A peaceful... cold... cloudy... and normal day...
Friday, October 24, 2008
Day 31
24th October 2008
A rainy day has always been a nice day to sleep. But was awaken because of the alarm clock that was set yesterday to prevent myself from sleeping too long... LOL!
Anyway, i woke up... and again, i start mapling. LOL!!!
Mapling... how long i did not do that... And only recently, i start playing it again. Hmm...
Afternoon, my bro buy lunch back. LOL!After that, we had our lunch and watch drama. Of course, i stop mapling and go watch drama together. Watch watch watch... he go school already i still continue to watch... and i finished it today! LOL!
It was 4pm already when i finished it. So i also quickly go bathe and prepare for school. Today is law class. Hmm... was quite good. i had my dinner with Phang and Damien when i reach school... When i just reach, first thing Phang said was... Lets go for dinner~ LOL!
So... just join lo... Damien tag along. XD
When had our dinner... Then back to school. Was quite short a time. After dinner, we stop by at the computer lab before going to class. While "wasting" time in the lab, i flip the papers and find that UK pound was now only 5.8. LOL!!! Rate drop so much!
Then go to class. Today's class... Hmm... just like usual. But i don't feel that Mr.Kho is teaching much today. LOL! was repeating...
After class... my parents came late to fetch me. LOL. Coincidently saw Mr.Philip. Had some chat with him. Then 2150 my parents came. Of course, good bye Mr.Philip... hehe...
Then we go to Kenyalang for ... supper? I didn't take. Just see them eat. LOL! Today is just... usual. Just feel a bit low. LOL!
Hahaha! why low? No idea as well... Anyway, wonder what are you doing now? ... take care no matter what...
A rainy day has always been a nice day to sleep. But was awaken because of the alarm clock that was set yesterday to prevent myself from sleeping too long... LOL!
Anyway, i woke up... and again, i start mapling. LOL!!!
Mapling... how long i did not do that... And only recently, i start playing it again. Hmm...
Afternoon, my bro buy lunch back. LOL!After that, we had our lunch and watch drama. Of course, i stop mapling and go watch drama together. Watch watch watch... he go school already i still continue to watch... and i finished it today! LOL!
It was 4pm already when i finished it. So i also quickly go bathe and prepare for school. Today is law class. Hmm... was quite good. i had my dinner with Phang and Damien when i reach school... When i just reach, first thing Phang said was... Lets go for dinner~ LOL!
So... just join lo... Damien tag along. XD
When had our dinner... Then back to school. Was quite short a time. After dinner, we stop by at the computer lab before going to class. While "wasting" time in the lab, i flip the papers and find that UK pound was now only 5.8. LOL!!! Rate drop so much!
Then go to class. Today's class... Hmm... just like usual. But i don't feel that Mr.Kho is teaching much today. LOL! was repeating...
After class... my parents came late to fetch me. LOL. Coincidently saw Mr.Philip. Had some chat with him. Then 2150 my parents came. Of course, good bye Mr.Philip... hehe...
Then we go to Kenyalang for ... supper? I didn't take. Just see them eat. LOL! Today is just... usual. Just feel a bit low. LOL!
Hahaha! why low? No idea as well... Anyway, wonder what are you doing now? ... take care no matter what...
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Day 30
23rd October 2008
Thursday. It was raining heavily today. +.+
I am wet. Should say that i reach school wet. And go buy my dinner, become even more wet. Lucky that now i am at home, i am not sick. LOL!
Today is F5 class. But unlike other class... today plays a lot. Was talkative. Hmm... Wonder why?
30 days... It has been 30 days... i rarely get your news nowadays. I think of you once in a while. Even the matter of death came to my thoughts, you sure will come out in my mind. Haih~ uncontrollable. I am addicted to you. But anyway, i still will need my focus on my dream... and my dream consist of you... But before that, something must be done before i step on to my dream.
Gambateh!!! Must study hard!
It is quite late every night when i go to bed... tired... and worn...
You must take care of yourself well ok? I know you will say this to me too... Anyway, take care...
Thursday. It was raining heavily today. +.+
I am wet. Should say that i reach school wet. And go buy my dinner, become even more wet. Lucky that now i am at home, i am not sick. LOL!
Today is F5 class. But unlike other class... today plays a lot. Was talkative. Hmm... Wonder why?
30 days... It has been 30 days... i rarely get your news nowadays. I think of you once in a while. Even the matter of death came to my thoughts, you sure will come out in my mind. Haih~ uncontrollable. I am addicted to you. But anyway, i still will need my focus on my dream... and my dream consist of you... But before that, something must be done before i step on to my dream.
Gambateh!!! Must study hard!
It is quite late every night when i go to bed... tired... and worn...
You must take care of yourself well ok? I know you will say this to me too... Anyway, take care...
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Day 29
22 October 2008
Today is F6... Oh... And it is a long sleep for today. I sleep until 1+ in the afternoon! LOL!
Tired... and headache. So tiring. And... lately my brain was filled with questions. Idiotic Questions. Sianz~
Anyway, that is no special subject... today just like usual... =.='''
And just some thing about tax... May as well stop here... LOL ... teacher was talking about the tax treatment. And the bad things about evading tax. That's why she don't go out to commercial line. Oh... that give more influence on me as the dream to start own business become stronger. XD
And it seems that Alex was having the same view as i do. Go for business rather than working for others although we are taking ACCA. HAHAHA!!!
Should be all for today... Hmm... The thoughts may bother me much... But will not came to an end any day... life and death... haih~
Good night dear... 11... it is a bit early... but i also wanted to say it. ^^ take care.
Today is F6... Oh... And it is a long sleep for today. I sleep until 1+ in the afternoon! LOL!
Tired... and headache. So tiring. And... lately my brain was filled with questions. Idiotic Questions. Sianz~
Anyway, that is no special subject... today just like usual... =.='''
And just some thing about tax... May as well stop here... LOL ... teacher was talking about the tax treatment. And the bad things about evading tax. That's why she don't go out to commercial line. Oh... that give more influence on me as the dream to start own business become stronger. XD
And it seems that Alex was having the same view as i do. Go for business rather than working for others although we are taking ACCA. HAHAHA!!!
Should be all for today... Hmm... The thoughts may bother me much... But will not came to an end any day... life and death... haih~
Good night dear... 11... it is a bit early... but i also wanted to say it. ^^ take care.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Day 28
21 October 2008
A fine Tuesday it is. Woke up quite early... Just that i was in a fright when i wake up. Not a good sign, not healthy, but anyway, not important...
It is only lately... when i woke up every morning... starts thinking what if today will be my last day in life... What will i do... I never come to an answer. Yet... again. It come to me... That i feel... my life is not as long as others. Maybe will be shorter... But i don't worry. Because i am blogging here everyday. This is like my life. Day28... Seems short... but it feels long to me... Really... Feels as if it is months and years... But for real... not even 1 month of time. But i feel that it is for months!
But no matter what, it is what it is... Stop thinking about all this. Should just focus on what is happening now. Get up to my study... and focus. Complete my ACCA and start of with my dream.
You are part of my dream. Yes. That is true as well. I am not lying. Also not telling white lies...
Today... was like usual...
Just that many came to my thoughts...
F4 Law... was mostly on revisions today.
...
May i call it a full stop here? Maybe. Just hope that i can stop sleeping so late. It was already 5 in the morning when i go to bed... So pathetic. Such a bad life style... Must take care of myself... but no matter what, still hoping and wishing that you are well.. healthy and happy. ^^ Must take care of yourself ok?
A fine Tuesday it is. Woke up quite early... Just that i was in a fright when i wake up. Not a good sign, not healthy, but anyway, not important...
It is only lately... when i woke up every morning... starts thinking what if today will be my last day in life... What will i do... I never come to an answer. Yet... again. It come to me... That i feel... my life is not as long as others. Maybe will be shorter... But i don't worry. Because i am blogging here everyday. This is like my life. Day28... Seems short... but it feels long to me... Really... Feels as if it is months and years... But for real... not even 1 month of time. But i feel that it is for months!
But no matter what, it is what it is... Stop thinking about all this. Should just focus on what is happening now. Get up to my study... and focus. Complete my ACCA and start of with my dream.
You are part of my dream. Yes. That is true as well. I am not lying. Also not telling white lies...
Today... was like usual...
Just that many came to my thoughts...
F4 Law... was mostly on revisions today.
...
May i call it a full stop here? Maybe. Just hope that i can stop sleeping so late. It was already 5 in the morning when i go to bed... So pathetic. Such a bad life style... Must take care of myself... but no matter what, still hoping and wishing that you are well.. healthy and happy. ^^ Must take care of yourself ok?
Monday, October 20, 2008
Day 27
20th October 2008
Today is a Monday... Monday is also another happy day for me. Why? Because i no class on Monday!~ ^^
Anyway, i feel so lazy today. Morning already 12+ still don't want to wake up. Still lie at bed there. Anyway, 1pm like that i also force myself to wake. Cause sleep too much will headache. When wake up, i go check out lunch. Brush my teeth then quickly had my lunch. After lunch is drama time. LOL... I think whole afternoon was watching drama.
Luckily my Dad came home at 5. If not i sure is continue til 6pm. LOL!!! Then stopped. He called me to follow him down to get some Durians. =.=''' of course, i listen, and follow. Guess what. Didn't know he buy so much. 13 durians. OMG!
So heavy... eh... u know... Durians got thorns... so it is quite hard to carry. But still, manage to get 8 up. All by myself. =.='''
Then of course, after the "exercise", i go bathe. And for dinner, i take durians only. =.=
I quite like durians. LOL!!!
It is again a lazy day. No study... all procrastinating. And... got 1 thing i want to complain... STREAMYX LINE REALLY SUCKS LATELY!!!
lol... ok... stop here now... 2am already. =.='''
Nights~ And... i believe you had fallen asleep. ^^ U might no see this... u might not hear this... but i still wanted to say, Good night, sweetdreams and sleep well. ^^
Today is a Monday... Monday is also another happy day for me. Why? Because i no class on Monday!~ ^^
Anyway, i feel so lazy today. Morning already 12+ still don't want to wake up. Still lie at bed there. Anyway, 1pm like that i also force myself to wake. Cause sleep too much will headache. When wake up, i go check out lunch. Brush my teeth then quickly had my lunch. After lunch is drama time. LOL... I think whole afternoon was watching drama.
Luckily my Dad came home at 5. If not i sure is continue til 6pm. LOL!!! Then stopped. He called me to follow him down to get some Durians. =.=''' of course, i listen, and follow. Guess what. Didn't know he buy so much. 13 durians. OMG!
So heavy... eh... u know... Durians got thorns... so it is quite hard to carry. But still, manage to get 8 up. All by myself. =.='''
Then of course, after the "exercise", i go bathe. And for dinner, i take durians only. =.=
I quite like durians. LOL!!!
It is again a lazy day. No study... all procrastinating. And... got 1 thing i want to complain... STREAMYX LINE REALLY SUCKS LATELY!!!
lol... ok... stop here now... 2am already. =.='''
Nights~ And... i believe you had fallen asleep. ^^ U might no see this... u might not hear this... but i still wanted to say, Good night, sweetdreams and sleep well. ^^
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Day 26
19th October 2008
Sunday... Sweet Sunday. Why? Because of no class. LOL! So... it is a good day as i sleep until 11 something. Finally some sufficient sleep.
So... woke up in a simple blur blur, walk to wash room. After brushing my teeth, i just notice nobody is at home. Alone. LOL!
Anyway, i on my comp, start "Mapling". Really a bit miss Mapling as i stopped for quite some time already. Play play play... 12 something already... So, i look at the table... so empty... so waited for lunch. XD
But really, 1pm, my parents came back. I had my lunch, then continue on with the game... I stop playing only at 6pm. LOL!
Not really tired. Don't know why. But comp also need some rest. So i off it. LOL!
Sunday is really a lazy day. I didn't do any studying today~ LOL!!! Still dare to say... But anyway, will catch up as soon as possible. It is must ok!!!
Oh... half way mapling, a friend called. @@ Actually really odd. She don't really know me that well, yet we chat like we know each other well. =.='''
Of course, i still reserve myself for you. ^^
Anyway, it is just a simple chat. Very casual...
Back to 6pm, after dinner, my bro asked me for a Chinese Chess Game. So, accepted, played... and won. XD
After this, watch TV. Then my Cousin called. Asking me for a Dota game. =.=
Accepted again. And... badly, i lost. It is ok. I am already prepare for losing...
And... Streamyx line is so NOOB lately. Everytime play halfway will disconnect. So VEX!
Cool down...
...
I am missing you, missing your face... missing your smile... Yes... True...
I was looking forward to see you... But will not dare to face you. Don't know why... ...
Take care of yourself well ok?
Again... Take care of yourself...
Me will too~
Sunday... Sweet Sunday. Why? Because of no class. LOL! So... it is a good day as i sleep until 11 something. Finally some sufficient sleep.
So... woke up in a simple blur blur, walk to wash room. After brushing my teeth, i just notice nobody is at home. Alone. LOL!
Anyway, i on my comp, start "Mapling". Really a bit miss Mapling as i stopped for quite some time already. Play play play... 12 something already... So, i look at the table... so empty... so waited for lunch. XD
But really, 1pm, my parents came back. I had my lunch, then continue on with the game... I stop playing only at 6pm. LOL!
Not really tired. Don't know why. But comp also need some rest. So i off it. LOL!
Sunday is really a lazy day. I didn't do any studying today~ LOL!!! Still dare to say... But anyway, will catch up as soon as possible. It is must ok!!!
Oh... half way mapling, a friend called. @@ Actually really odd. She don't really know me that well, yet we chat like we know each other well. =.='''
Of course, i still reserve myself for you. ^^
Anyway, it is just a simple chat. Very casual...
Back to 6pm, after dinner, my bro asked me for a Chinese Chess Game. So, accepted, played... and won. XD
After this, watch TV. Then my Cousin called. Asking me for a Dota game. =.=
Accepted again. And... badly, i lost. It is ok. I am already prepare for losing...
And... Streamyx line is so NOOB lately. Everytime play halfway will disconnect. So VEX!
Cool down...
...
I am missing you, missing your face... missing your smile... Yes... True...
I was looking forward to see you... But will not dare to face you. Don't know why... ...
Take care of yourself well ok?
Again... Take care of yourself...
Me will too~
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Day 25
18th October 2008
Time really flies... LoL... I feel that i am repeating the same thing over and over again. Anyway, today was really tiring. But, i didn't get my sleep. I was unable to sleep last night. End up watching drama and reading F5 as today afternoon will be having a F5 mock exam. So... I study a bit lo. Good thing la. I did manage to try my best this time in the exam.
Lets start from 430am when i go to bed... i was actually not sleep when i go to bed. But i need to get some sleep because i am having a class in the morning and also afternoon got exam. So... Forced myself to sleep. After that, was again force to wake up at 7 to go to school... LOL!!! It is best not to sleep... wake up feel really headache and dizzy. And also feel like vomiting.
So... prepare go school. Then reach already, saw Daniel already waiting at the coffee shop. Hm... Early! It was only 730 then. So... we ate our breakfast. Then, go to class. The classroom was still empty. So it is like we are "Dominating" the classroom. XD
Anyway, after awhile, he also need to go back to his hostel as it is not his class he is in. LOL... So... we start our class... F6, taxation. Just like usual this class. Then, after that, i went to my friend's house to have a shower. LOL! So nice!!!
After that, of course i didn't join them for lunch as Daniel and Phang is waiting for me at Mega for lunch. After lunch we had a series of jokes. =.='''
Laugh till tummy pain. XD
Then of course, must settle down to take the F5 mock exam lo. At least i tried my best. ^^
So, after completing... actually i did not complete... cause question 1 i don't know how to do. LOL!!!
Then, hand in... At least i really did tried. Attempt it...
So... i go back ome after that. Reach home, bathe... then sleep. LOL! So tired! Wake up at 6 something for my dinner... Then after dinner back to sleep again. But i think i only slept for a few minutes. Then wake up again. On comp!!! Play game. =.='''
... This should be all for today... Take care of yourself! ^^Me too... i will take care of myself too!
Time really flies... LoL... I feel that i am repeating the same thing over and over again. Anyway, today was really tiring. But, i didn't get my sleep. I was unable to sleep last night. End up watching drama and reading F5 as today afternoon will be having a F5 mock exam. So... I study a bit lo. Good thing la. I did manage to try my best this time in the exam.
Lets start from 430am when i go to bed... i was actually not sleep when i go to bed. But i need to get some sleep because i am having a class in the morning and also afternoon got exam. So... Forced myself to sleep. After that, was again force to wake up at 7 to go to school... LOL!!! It is best not to sleep... wake up feel really headache and dizzy. And also feel like vomiting.
So... prepare go school. Then reach already, saw Daniel already waiting at the coffee shop. Hm... Early! It was only 730 then. So... we ate our breakfast. Then, go to class. The classroom was still empty. So it is like we are "Dominating" the classroom. XD
Anyway, after awhile, he also need to go back to his hostel as it is not his class he is in. LOL... So... we start our class... F6, taxation. Just like usual this class. Then, after that, i went to my friend's house to have a shower. LOL! So nice!!!
After that, of course i didn't join them for lunch as Daniel and Phang is waiting for me at Mega for lunch. After lunch we had a series of jokes. =.='''
Laugh till tummy pain. XD
Then of course, must settle down to take the F5 mock exam lo. At least i tried my best. ^^
So, after completing... actually i did not complete... cause question 1 i don't know how to do. LOL!!!
Then, hand in... At least i really did tried. Attempt it...
So... i go back ome after that. Reach home, bathe... then sleep. LOL! So tired! Wake up at 6 something for my dinner... Then after dinner back to sleep again. But i think i only slept for a few minutes. Then wake up again. On comp!!! Play game. =.='''
... This should be all for today... Take care of yourself! ^^Me too... i will take care of myself too!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Day 24
17th October 2008
It was 12 already when i woke up today. Was really blur and with slight headache. Had my lunch... Then my dad called asking me whether want to follow him for a haircut later... Of course, i wanted to join. As my hair was growing longer than i wanted to... LOL! So... i go for a haircut. Hmm... i did change my look. I cut my hair short... Really. LOL.
Then... after the haircut... i think i saw you. Yes... i think i saw you. Just a glimpse. But i think that is you... Perhaps you go to Pei Chen's house? right?
But i didn't guess much after that... Because it is not for me to decide. As long as you're happy, that's all that i want. You happy, i happy. ^^
Still feeling headache, i go to school. Hmm... that was causing me quite some concentration. And... That Daniel keep disturbing me. For the new look. =.='''
So annoying. You know what he do??? He try to "seduce" me... XD
Of course, i asked him to shock auntie better la with this "electricity". XD
During break time, i go buy some buns. So hungry!!! didn't take my dinner... =.='''
So... Bought some and... i decided to take it home to enjoy it during i was having my game. Haha... Too bad... when my parents came to fetch me, we go for supper. =.= For me is dinner la. XD
Then... i ate of course... That makes me full... So... even now, the bun i bought is still here with me... Haven't eat. LOL!!!
11+ already... Today is almost over. Good night Sing Ying. If i really did saw you today, you must be spending your night at Pei Chen's. Don't sleep late ok? Take care oh!
It was 12 already when i woke up today. Was really blur and with slight headache. Had my lunch... Then my dad called asking me whether want to follow him for a haircut later... Of course, i wanted to join. As my hair was growing longer than i wanted to... LOL! So... i go for a haircut. Hmm... i did change my look. I cut my hair short... Really. LOL.
Then... after the haircut... i think i saw you. Yes... i think i saw you. Just a glimpse. But i think that is you... Perhaps you go to Pei Chen's house? right?
But i didn't guess much after that... Because it is not for me to decide. As long as you're happy, that's all that i want. You happy, i happy. ^^
Still feeling headache, i go to school. Hmm... that was causing me quite some concentration. And... That Daniel keep disturbing me. For the new look. =.='''
So annoying. You know what he do??? He try to "seduce" me... XD
Of course, i asked him to shock auntie better la with this "electricity". XD
During break time, i go buy some buns. So hungry!!! didn't take my dinner... =.='''
So... Bought some and... i decided to take it home to enjoy it during i was having my game. Haha... Too bad... when my parents came to fetch me, we go for supper. =.= For me is dinner la. XD
Then... i ate of course... That makes me full... So... even now, the bun i bought is still here with me... Haven't eat. LOL!!!
11+ already... Today is almost over. Good night Sing Ying. If i really did saw you today, you must be spending your night at Pei Chen's. Don't sleep late ok? Take care oh!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Day 23
16th October 2008
Was unable to sleep last night. Maybe because of the coffee i take... Caffeine. But anyway, i did manage to fall asleep after 4 something. I suppose is 4 something since i go into the bedroom at 330am.
But, was awaken at 9+ in the morning. Wake up already, but tummy ache. =.='''
I recall going to answer the call of nature at least 3 times. And so painful... i didn't take anything odd last night... How come will like that? No idea.
It was 11... I look at the dining table, was empty. Today do not have lunch prepared. But i saw RM10 on the table. So, simple... take it and go down to buy myself some food. Of course, my brother also got his share. After lunch, i watch TV... But time is just like flying by. It is just like few seconds later that my friend called. Ban Leong called. To be more accurate, he smsed me. He said he is downstairs. So i joined him for some dessert just downstairs. It was like quite fun. Since it has been quite long that i never see my friends. Haha! Was talking about the past, when we were in Form5... and also some updates on the current situation.
But... Time really flies. Just like few minutes later it is already 430pm. Need to prepare to go to school. Go to school lo...
Then just like usual... go to cakehouse buy some bread. Then go class. Quite good today. Did focus on study and not wasting time. Exam coming soon... Saturday is having mock exam again... Good luck!
And... Sing Ying... I wonder how are you now... Suppose you're alright. I do believe that you will be ok. Take care of yourself well ok? ^^
Was unable to sleep last night. Maybe because of the coffee i take... Caffeine. But anyway, i did manage to fall asleep after 4 something. I suppose is 4 something since i go into the bedroom at 330am.
But, was awaken at 9+ in the morning. Wake up already, but tummy ache. =.='''
I recall going to answer the call of nature at least 3 times. And so painful... i didn't take anything odd last night... How come will like that? No idea.
It was 11... I look at the dining table, was empty. Today do not have lunch prepared. But i saw RM10 on the table. So, simple... take it and go down to buy myself some food. Of course, my brother also got his share. After lunch, i watch TV... But time is just like flying by. It is just like few seconds later that my friend called. Ban Leong called. To be more accurate, he smsed me. He said he is downstairs. So i joined him for some dessert just downstairs. It was like quite fun. Since it has been quite long that i never see my friends. Haha! Was talking about the past, when we were in Form5... and also some updates on the current situation.
But... Time really flies. Just like few minutes later it is already 430pm. Need to prepare to go to school. Go to school lo...
Then just like usual... go to cakehouse buy some bread. Then go class. Quite good today. Did focus on study and not wasting time. Exam coming soon... Saturday is having mock exam again... Good luck!
And... Sing Ying... I wonder how are you now... Suppose you're alright. I do believe that you will be ok. Take care of yourself well ok? ^^
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Day 22
15th October 2008
Today, i woke up 10+ in the morning... Thinking that i am having F6 tonight... Haih~ no mood already...
Every time having F6 class... will feel so tired. LOL... Maybe just psychology that causes this...
Anyway, prepare my bag then play games. Play play play... Daddy called. Then go bathe go school...
It is really a mess as my homework was not finished yet. LOL!
But, since the lecturer was not teaching today, it is ok. Today, the lecturer return us our test paper. It was really bad. LOL! I thought i pass. But actually, i fail. =.=''' Nothing to do... just being criticize by her lo...
Say this say that. I think everyone feel bad. Anyway, it is good... feeling threatened. LOL!
Go back home after this... Since nothing much happen... Just the incident of Being "Shot". XD
That is it for today... Hope that i can really stop playing games so much and do more revision. That will help a lot... Of course it will.
I must pass the exams. Then can i go on with ACCA. Then i can reach my goal. Then... ^^
But anyway, maybe i should not put too much hope in it... But i still will do what i must, and stand to my promise... I really miss you now...
Today, i woke up 10+ in the morning... Thinking that i am having F6 tonight... Haih~ no mood already...
Every time having F6 class... will feel so tired. LOL... Maybe just psychology that causes this...
Anyway, prepare my bag then play games. Play play play... Daddy called. Then go bathe go school...
It is really a mess as my homework was not finished yet. LOL!
But, since the lecturer was not teaching today, it is ok. Today, the lecturer return us our test paper. It was really bad. LOL! I thought i pass. But actually, i fail. =.=''' Nothing to do... just being criticize by her lo...
Say this say that. I think everyone feel bad. Anyway, it is good... feeling threatened. LOL!
Go back home after this... Since nothing much happen... Just the incident of Being "Shot". XD
That is it for today... Hope that i can really stop playing games so much and do more revision. That will help a lot... Of course it will.
I must pass the exams. Then can i go on with ACCA. Then i can reach my goal. Then... ^^
But anyway, maybe i should not put too much hope in it... But i still will do what i must, and stand to my promise... I really miss you now...
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Day 21
14th October 2008
Ever since i started this blog, i have been wondering when will i stop this blog... What if this last forever? Then that will make me write this forever?
This question is a big question i really don't know how to answer. I don't know. Never mind. If this is forever, then forever it is. So let it live as long as i live, as eternal as it can be.
Today, i woke up leaving plenty regrets. Because... i don't wanted to wake up. I was dreaming you. I saw you. We are nice together again. Yes... really happy to see... really happy. But it was so short... So so short... only a few seconds...
So... What to do??? must wake up also. So... wake up like usual. But, was feeling headache. Hmm... Maybe over slept. It was already 12+ in the afternoon... So late...
Anyway... Maybe due to late sleep. I sleep at 4am. LOL!
Forget it...
So, prepare my bag... read some notes... then watch TV. LOL! I am useless... Play too much. Not enough time to study.
Anyway, just don't feel well today. So tired... Still dreamy. Oh ya... Good thing that happen today. Should say just happen few minutes ago.
Sing Ying smsed me. ^^ So happy to receive it. It was like out of the blue... was so tired after class... And she send me a joke. A really nice relief of stress. ^^ Thank you... i forget to say... i forget to reply... i wanted to tell you... i dreamt of you today... but i didn't. Because i dare not approach you now. Because it is my wrong doing that separate us. I am so sorry... I don't know what to do. I love you more than i can say... But i will not tell now. Because i cannot do much for you. I cannot... Because i am weak. I cannot give u anything... i will only make you worry... will only make u sad...
But never mind now... i will focus on my study... so that i can hang on to my promise...
You must take care of yourself well ok? As i will try my best to do what i must do.
Ever since i started this blog, i have been wondering when will i stop this blog... What if this last forever? Then that will make me write this forever?
This question is a big question i really don't know how to answer. I don't know. Never mind. If this is forever, then forever it is. So let it live as long as i live, as eternal as it can be.
Today, i woke up leaving plenty regrets. Because... i don't wanted to wake up. I was dreaming you. I saw you. We are nice together again. Yes... really happy to see... really happy. But it was so short... So so short... only a few seconds...
So... What to do??? must wake up also. So... wake up like usual. But, was feeling headache. Hmm... Maybe over slept. It was already 12+ in the afternoon... So late...
Anyway... Maybe due to late sleep. I sleep at 4am. LOL!
Forget it...
So, prepare my bag... read some notes... then watch TV. LOL! I am useless... Play too much. Not enough time to study.
Anyway, just don't feel well today. So tired... Still dreamy. Oh ya... Good thing that happen today. Should say just happen few minutes ago.
Sing Ying smsed me. ^^ So happy to receive it. It was like out of the blue... was so tired after class... And she send me a joke. A really nice relief of stress. ^^ Thank you... i forget to say... i forget to reply... i wanted to tell you... i dreamt of you today... but i didn't. Because i dare not approach you now. Because it is my wrong doing that separate us. I am so sorry... I don't know what to do. I love you more than i can say... But i will not tell now. Because i cannot do much for you. I cannot... Because i am weak. I cannot give u anything... i will only make you worry... will only make u sad...
But never mind now... i will focus on my study... so that i can hang on to my promise...
You must take care of yourself well ok? As i will try my best to do what i must do.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Day 20
13th October 2008
Today is Monday. A holiday for me. LoL... Woke up 10+, watch drama. Then have lunch and on lappy play games again. LoL...
Game... Cannot quit?
Anyway, today was quite nice all along. Feel so relax. LOLS! Exam coming so near but still so relax. Need to do more revision! Fail then u can go suicide!
=.='''
Joking... But anyway, there is no space for failure. So it is a must to pass these 2 papers. I had already loose up my burden, taking only 2 papers...
Gambateh!!!
Today is Monday. A holiday for me. LoL... Woke up 10+, watch drama. Then have lunch and on lappy play games again. LoL...
Game... Cannot quit?
Anyway, today was quite nice all along. Feel so relax. LOLS! Exam coming so near but still so relax. Need to do more revision! Fail then u can go suicide!
=.='''
Joking... But anyway, there is no space for failure. So it is a must to pass these 2 papers. I had already loose up my burden, taking only 2 papers...
Gambateh!!!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Day 19
12 October 2008
Wow... Today was so tiring. It starts with last night, was rushing my assignment when it reach 3am i go to bed. Cannot sleep well and turn out lacking of sleep. 8 in the morning forced to wake up. Had a simple breakfast then go to school to finish the last question in assignment. More terrible thing is that the class continues from 9 until 5pm. =.= TIRING!!!
So, bear with it. Eye was quite pain all along in class. But still can focus. Just that sometimes will day dream. LOL!
When reach home in the evening, i had a very very short nap. Then wake up to bathe and had dinner. After dinner, watch TV awhile then go back to sleep again. LOL! until now then i wake up... now is 11pm already. Hahaha! but also la... will sleep tonight. Don't want to tired out myself. ^^ Because i got a long journey to go oh. I am taking 2 papers this time... i choose to slow my pace a bit. But no worry, i will bind to my promise. Sing Ying, if u will wait for me, i am more than willing to get u back with me again.
Wow... Today was so tiring. It starts with last night, was rushing my assignment when it reach 3am i go to bed. Cannot sleep well and turn out lacking of sleep. 8 in the morning forced to wake up. Had a simple breakfast then go to school to finish the last question in assignment. More terrible thing is that the class continues from 9 until 5pm. =.= TIRING!!!
So, bear with it. Eye was quite pain all along in class. But still can focus. Just that sometimes will day dream. LOL!
When reach home in the evening, i had a very very short nap. Then wake up to bathe and had dinner. After dinner, watch TV awhile then go back to sleep again. LOL! until now then i wake up... now is 11pm already. Hahaha! but also la... will sleep tonight. Don't want to tired out myself. ^^ Because i got a long journey to go oh. I am taking 2 papers this time... i choose to slow my pace a bit. But no worry, i will bind to my promise. Sing Ying, if u will wait for me, i am more than willing to get u back with me again.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Day 18
11-10-2008
Today was so tiring. Wake up around 12 in the morning... Since it was a Saturday, it should be alright to sleep late. But not for me. I got class at 2pm. So, quite rush. Prepare to go to school... had my lunch quickly, then go to school le... Today, F5 lecturer gave us back our test. That test is a bad one... i was in a bad mood while taking this test. It was the day before we break up... i still remember... So... i expected it to be lousy result. But it turn out not bad. @@ 1 question can score me 13 marks... Not bad huh~
So... do feel a bit content... then, she start lecturing. So must listen lo...
Tick - Tick - Tick
Time flies... so fast, class end. I consulted my lecturer whether can i take the exam, but she just tell me that if i put more effort in it, i can take it... But... i don't know... i feel that i can't. Not focus enough to study... But i did tell her that i will try my best. i really was thinking of taking 3 papers after the chat... But, after that, meaning tonight, my parents bring me out. I still haven't do my assignment la... my time ar!!!
No choice lo, my bro wanted to buy new phone. So i just go as advisor. Meet my cousins there. Just greetings then bye bye. And of course, my bro will be showing them the new phone he just bought. Was so tired after that. But assignment how? Must do also. Reached home already 9... My dad even asked me to help him do some setting to his phone... C'mon!!! My assignment haven't do la!!!
So, quickly helped him then do my assignment... Oh ya... forget to mention, i sign in to ACCA website before that. Then, go register for exam... so bad... i was still considering... in the end... i only take 2 exams... What a disgrace... Nevermind. I will ensure 100% passing rate taking 2 papers only. Sing Ying... i will not let you down. ^^ I promise.
So, after register, i start with my assignment... =.='''
So tired... you know, 1 question is able to leech 50% brain power. Of course, just giving extravagant example. XD Anyway, the truth is that it is really very tedious to do tax continuously. But, my "diligence" shows some effect. I did manage to sit there finish 4 questions. Took me approaximately 3 hours. Brain is now like cramped. =.='''
But i did took some coffee. Problem now is... i got 2 more question to do... Lazy le... Diligent? XD
Not a suitable word for me.
Anyway, maybe i should rest a while. Later( since now is already 1am+, so is morning) i will have a class from 9 in the morning until 5pm. =.=''' U say, can i survive that?
Anyway, i will try my best. May be will finish my 2 questions. Or may be 1. Left 1 to do in the morning. *yawn*
Headache already... =.='''
Better stop and get on with my work...
Today was so tiring. Wake up around 12 in the morning... Since it was a Saturday, it should be alright to sleep late. But not for me. I got class at 2pm. So, quite rush. Prepare to go to school... had my lunch quickly, then go to school le... Today, F5 lecturer gave us back our test. That test is a bad one... i was in a bad mood while taking this test. It was the day before we break up... i still remember... So... i expected it to be lousy result. But it turn out not bad. @@ 1 question can score me 13 marks... Not bad huh~
So... do feel a bit content... then, she start lecturing. So must listen lo...
Tick - Tick - Tick
Time flies... so fast, class end. I consulted my lecturer whether can i take the exam, but she just tell me that if i put more effort in it, i can take it... But... i don't know... i feel that i can't. Not focus enough to study... But i did tell her that i will try my best. i really was thinking of taking 3 papers after the chat... But, after that, meaning tonight, my parents bring me out. I still haven't do my assignment la... my time ar!!!
No choice lo, my bro wanted to buy new phone. So i just go as advisor. Meet my cousins there. Just greetings then bye bye. And of course, my bro will be showing them the new phone he just bought. Was so tired after that. But assignment how? Must do also. Reached home already 9... My dad even asked me to help him do some setting to his phone... C'mon!!! My assignment haven't do la!!!
So, quickly helped him then do my assignment... Oh ya... forget to mention, i sign in to ACCA website before that. Then, go register for exam... so bad... i was still considering... in the end... i only take 2 exams... What a disgrace... Nevermind. I will ensure 100% passing rate taking 2 papers only. Sing Ying... i will not let you down. ^^ I promise.
So, after register, i start with my assignment... =.='''
So tired... you know, 1 question is able to leech 50% brain power. Of course, just giving extravagant example. XD Anyway, the truth is that it is really very tedious to do tax continuously. But, my "diligence" shows some effect. I did manage to sit there finish 4 questions. Took me approaximately 3 hours. Brain is now like cramped. =.='''
But i did took some coffee. Problem now is... i got 2 more question to do... Lazy le... Diligent? XD
Not a suitable word for me.
Anyway, maybe i should rest a while. Later( since now is already 1am+, so is morning) i will have a class from 9 in the morning until 5pm. =.=''' U say, can i survive that?
Anyway, i will try my best. May be will finish my 2 questions. Or may be 1. Left 1 to do in the morning. *yawn*
Headache already... =.='''
Better stop and get on with my work...
Friday, October 10, 2008
Day 17
10th October 2008
Today was not a good day. When i woke up in the morning, i think that my bro got school. But no. He don't. So, whole afternoon play with my bro lo... Game Game Game...
But bad thing is... Lately play Dota... lose all along... Sianz...
Then, prepare go to school... today so sianz... i forget to bring my text. So like not much listen at all... only focus partially... haih~ but also know what he is teaching. Anyway, don't feel good today...
Just few moments ago, she smsed me... @@ odd... But, some how, feel a bit happy. Although it is just a friendship sms, i do appreciate it...
Anyway, it did make me stun awhile. hehe...
I do miss you... like usual... just that i did not expect sms from u anymore... But it is happy to hear from u too. ^^
Today was not a good day. When i woke up in the morning, i think that my bro got school. But no. He don't. So, whole afternoon play with my bro lo... Game Game Game...
But bad thing is... Lately play Dota... lose all along... Sianz...
Then, prepare go to school... today so sianz... i forget to bring my text. So like not much listen at all... only focus partially... haih~ but also know what he is teaching. Anyway, don't feel good today...
Just few moments ago, she smsed me... @@ odd... But, some how, feel a bit happy. Although it is just a friendship sms, i do appreciate it...
Anyway, it did make me stun awhile. hehe...
I do miss you... like usual... just that i did not expect sms from u anymore... But it is happy to hear from u too. ^^
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Day 16
9th October 2008
Today is a Thursday. It is... like usual. But, today, was a bit bad... i was a bit off the track today... was no concentrating in class... Since i get to school... was like my soul is not there...
So bad...
But, did manage to catch what the lecturer was teaching. Haha... Day 16, so meaning is 2 weeks + le... Life goes on...
Sing Ying, you must take care of yourself well oh...
Today is a Thursday. It is... like usual. But, today, was a bit bad... i was a bit off the track today... was no concentrating in class... Since i get to school... was like my soul is not there...
So bad...
But, did manage to catch what the lecturer was teaching. Haha... Day 16, so meaning is 2 weeks + le... Life goes on...
Sing Ying, you must take care of yourself well oh...
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Day 15
8th October 2008
Today was having Tax class... So tiring... Don't know why Tax class sure tiring. Hmm... Today, was like usual, woke up around 12, then play game... didn't study again... assignment also haven't do... Haih~~~
So... 4 something, go to school. Bad thing is that time, rain just fall. Don't know why, feel like so tired... Don't want to go to school anymore... LOLS!!! Of course, that did not happen, i still go to school. The rain was... quite heavy. But, when i reach King Centre there, rain stopped. My mood did turn a bit better... again, was thinking about you... wonder why...
So... never mind... go to school... do the same thing... just that... today, teacher was teaching new topic. Luckily, she was not very strict today. But was fast... Pushing all along, very stressful... however, was able to catch up. Then, had my dinner after school. LoL... So late then have my dinner oh. Hmm... Anyway, after that, again, a game or two... Everyday also like that... Feel a bit tired of it... My assignment ar... Deadline is Sunday... Got 6 questions left... What to do???
Cannot like this lo... remember what you promise ar!!! And... u also haven't register for the exam... deadline is 15th of October ar... OMG!!! cannot like this!!! HELP!!!!
Today was having Tax class... So tiring... Don't know why Tax class sure tiring. Hmm... Today, was like usual, woke up around 12, then play game... didn't study again... assignment also haven't do... Haih~~~
So... 4 something, go to school. Bad thing is that time, rain just fall. Don't know why, feel like so tired... Don't want to go to school anymore... LOLS!!! Of course, that did not happen, i still go to school. The rain was... quite heavy. But, when i reach King Centre there, rain stopped. My mood did turn a bit better... again, was thinking about you... wonder why...
So... never mind... go to school... do the same thing... just that... today, teacher was teaching new topic. Luckily, she was not very strict today. But was fast... Pushing all along, very stressful... however, was able to catch up. Then, had my dinner after school. LoL... So late then have my dinner oh. Hmm... Anyway, after that, again, a game or two... Everyday also like that... Feel a bit tired of it... My assignment ar... Deadline is Sunday... Got 6 questions left... What to do???
Cannot like this lo... remember what you promise ar!!! And... u also haven't register for the exam... deadline is 15th of October ar... OMG!!! cannot like this!!! HELP!!!!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Day 14
7th October 2008
It was Tuesday today... Hmm... again... like usual... wake up quite late... So... again... This time... Day dreaming... It seems that daydreaming syndrome is affecting me now... LOL!!! Day Dream a lot...
4 Something get ready for school... LoLs... Again... Don't know why... everytime on the way to school will be thinking about you... Maybe you had really become a part of me. I always feels like there is something missing without you with me.
When i reaches school... Of course, go to lab, then simply click on the web pages...
Tonight will be law class...
Yesterday's funny thing is actually should be happening today. LOL... So... again... My friend, Phang and i, saw our lecturer Mr. Kho... Then greet him... Of course, this time is no more blur blur ness.
We go have our dinner... Then go to class... Today, he gave us back our Mock exam. LOL!!! i thought i can pass... Pass garantee some more... But turn out... scoring only 46. need 4 more marks to pass.
Anyway, nothing to grief about... Cause... i used 1 hour instead of 2 hour... 4 questions instead of 5 questions... if i use all the time... or just complete 5 questions, there is really a garantee to pass. No la... cannot be so confident... anyway, it sure will be better... but anyway, it is now a past. I learnt of where i made mistake.
So... After awhile, a friend from Bau phone Daniel. He invited us for a drink. Since we are having class, we can't go out... we negotiate to have a drink near school... Good thing. LoL!!! So, during recess, we go have a drink. We was talking about a holiday trip during December... i really would like to take a walk. Don't know why... feel really like to do that... Maybe that can heal me faster than usual. Was actually crapping more than planning. LOL!!!
So... in the end... end up just making 1 decision... see got cheap air plane ticket or not first. LOLS!
Just like that, we wasted 30 minutes of lecture. Daniel and i was late for class. LOL!!!
Lucky didn't miss out much. Mr. Kho was keping the pace quite slow. So we still manage to catch up. Lucky... Again... after school, i go home... Reached home on comp play games again...
Now 2am ++ in the morning... Every night like that... Ok now... Time to get some sleep... F6, Tax assignment not done yet...
It was Tuesday today... Hmm... again... like usual... wake up quite late... So... again... This time... Day dreaming... It seems that daydreaming syndrome is affecting me now... LOL!!! Day Dream a lot...
4 Something get ready for school... LoLs... Again... Don't know why... everytime on the way to school will be thinking about you... Maybe you had really become a part of me. I always feels like there is something missing without you with me.
When i reaches school... Of course, go to lab, then simply click on the web pages...
Tonight will be law class...
Yesterday's funny thing is actually should be happening today. LOL... So... again... My friend, Phang and i, saw our lecturer Mr. Kho... Then greet him... Of course, this time is no more blur blur ness.
We go have our dinner... Then go to class... Today, he gave us back our Mock exam. LOL!!! i thought i can pass... Pass garantee some more... But turn out... scoring only 46. need 4 more marks to pass.
Anyway, nothing to grief about... Cause... i used 1 hour instead of 2 hour... 4 questions instead of 5 questions... if i use all the time... or just complete 5 questions, there is really a garantee to pass. No la... cannot be so confident... anyway, it sure will be better... but anyway, it is now a past. I learnt of where i made mistake.
So... After awhile, a friend from Bau phone Daniel. He invited us for a drink. Since we are having class, we can't go out... we negotiate to have a drink near school... Good thing. LoL!!! So, during recess, we go have a drink. We was talking about a holiday trip during December... i really would like to take a walk. Don't know why... feel really like to do that... Maybe that can heal me faster than usual. Was actually crapping more than planning. LOL!!!
So... in the end... end up just making 1 decision... see got cheap air plane ticket or not first. LOLS!
Just like that, we wasted 30 minutes of lecture. Daniel and i was late for class. LOL!!!
Lucky didn't miss out much. Mr. Kho was keping the pace quite slow. So we still manage to catch up. Lucky... Again... after school, i go home... Reached home on comp play games again...
Now 2am ++ in the morning... Every night like that... Ok now... Time to get some sleep... F6, Tax assignment not done yet...
Monday, October 6, 2008
Day 13
6th October 2008
I dreamt of u today... Suppose it was already 6 or 7 in the morning...
it was back in time... when in secondary school... but the situation is still the same as now... we was in the same class... u was just sitting a row next to me... with your friends... i wanted to take a look at you... but i was afraid to look at see you sad... but, i overheard, you were telling your friend, complaining that i break my promise...
i don't wanted to... i am also very sad for this...
Since i feel very miserable sitting there... i changed class. But without notifying the teacher... during recess, i pack my bag and go to C class... ( i was in A class)... I downgrade myself... ... ... going to a class which is more like a weaker class... i still remember i said something very... childish... "i only do what i wanted to do!" my friends were speechless when i say this... i was so... sad and miserable after listening to what you said... because i feel sad too... i feel that i am useless... i cannot handle our relationship and my study at the same time... so... after a few minutes in class... i again packed my bag and run off the class. Suddenly feeling dizzy and totally without strength... Since there is always a small period to swap class... i walk away from school... i NEVER DO SUCH A THING!!!! i am ready feeling big disgrace and totally shameful of this act... I actually ran away from problems...
Then... while i was going off... you and your gang was following me... you asked your friend to get me a pack of tissue. With some content in it...
It was opened... and... feel a bit odd. It contains tissue of course, and a few rm5 and rm10 notes... suppose it was a total of rm 25 or 30... i don't understand what that means... but i was bad... i keep walking off... i never look back, i never stop... was giddy on the way and i do feel that i was not able to walk in straight line...
But... i was left alone... after i am out of the school compound...
I woke up after i was alone... i feel my face was a bit wet... why?
I look out the door, my dad was sitting on the sofa reading the news... So... i drag myself out of my bed, wipe my eyes and walk quite swiftly to the washroom... washed my face, then look the at time... 12+ already... So late...
So i pack my bag... Today is Monday, i have no class!!! Yet i pack my bag... i suppose i lost track of where am i and what am i doing... I just... pack up... and prepare to go to school... And... 4 something... i really go to school. LOL!!!
When i reached, i walk into the computer lab... clicking... browsing... i... don't know why... feel like i was empty... my soul is not with me... in the trip to school... i was praying, hoping that it will not rain... because i feel more and more deep in pain when the sky grow darker... i don't get it why... I know... i was a bit worry... my mind is thinking... are you alright??? Please don't play in the rain... Hope that you are already in the house... more and more sorrow flows into my mind...
Yet... i was blank...
Until 5 something, my friend ask me to join him for dinner... That is when we meet our law lecturer... he greet us and we greet him... then one very funny thing... He said "see you tomorrow." I replied, "see you later." LOLS!!! Then he must be blurred. Then we continue with our "target"(food). On the way, i was blurred too... my friend ask me... Why are you here today? Today you don't have class lei.. ... ...
Oh no... see what happen??? i go to school, which today do not have a class...
Days without you is really a bit miserable... Can i have you back by my side again???
I dare not ask... Cause i must... i cannot hurt you again.. because i will feel the same pain... Cause i promise to God, whatever pain that you have to suffer, it will be shared with me. And all that i was to suffer, will only be on me. I made such a promise... and one of the most important promise... i will be here, i will be waiting here... if you feel lost, i am here as always... the one that i broke... but i will make up to it... I will... i must... FOCUS on my study... if not... ... ... i will not only break my promise to you, i will break a promise to myself... and our future... I build my future... with you in it... i remember... that was what promise...
I dreamt of u today... Suppose it was already 6 or 7 in the morning...
it was back in time... when in secondary school... but the situation is still the same as now... we was in the same class... u was just sitting a row next to me... with your friends... i wanted to take a look at you... but i was afraid to look at see you sad... but, i overheard, you were telling your friend, complaining that i break my promise...
i don't wanted to... i am also very sad for this...
Since i feel very miserable sitting there... i changed class. But without notifying the teacher... during recess, i pack my bag and go to C class... ( i was in A class)... I downgrade myself... ... ... going to a class which is more like a weaker class... i still remember i said something very... childish... "i only do what i wanted to do!" my friends were speechless when i say this... i was so... sad and miserable after listening to what you said... because i feel sad too... i feel that i am useless... i cannot handle our relationship and my study at the same time... so... after a few minutes in class... i again packed my bag and run off the class. Suddenly feeling dizzy and totally without strength... Since there is always a small period to swap class... i walk away from school... i NEVER DO SUCH A THING!!!! i am ready feeling big disgrace and totally shameful of this act... I actually ran away from problems...
Then... while i was going off... you and your gang was following me... you asked your friend to get me a pack of tissue. With some content in it...
It was opened... and... feel a bit odd. It contains tissue of course, and a few rm5 and rm10 notes... suppose it was a total of rm 25 or 30... i don't understand what that means... but i was bad... i keep walking off... i never look back, i never stop... was giddy on the way and i do feel that i was not able to walk in straight line...
But... i was left alone... after i am out of the school compound...
I woke up after i was alone... i feel my face was a bit wet... why?
I look out the door, my dad was sitting on the sofa reading the news... So... i drag myself out of my bed, wipe my eyes and walk quite swiftly to the washroom... washed my face, then look the at time... 12+ already... So late...
So i pack my bag... Today is Monday, i have no class!!! Yet i pack my bag... i suppose i lost track of where am i and what am i doing... I just... pack up... and prepare to go to school... And... 4 something... i really go to school. LOL!!!
When i reached, i walk into the computer lab... clicking... browsing... i... don't know why... feel like i was empty... my soul is not with me... in the trip to school... i was praying, hoping that it will not rain... because i feel more and more deep in pain when the sky grow darker... i don't get it why... I know... i was a bit worry... my mind is thinking... are you alright??? Please don't play in the rain... Hope that you are already in the house... more and more sorrow flows into my mind...
Yet... i was blank...
Until 5 something, my friend ask me to join him for dinner... That is when we meet our law lecturer... he greet us and we greet him... then one very funny thing... He said "see you tomorrow." I replied, "see you later." LOLS!!! Then he must be blurred. Then we continue with our "target"(food). On the way, i was blurred too... my friend ask me... Why are you here today? Today you don't have class lei.. ... ...
Oh no... see what happen??? i go to school, which today do not have a class...
Days without you is really a bit miserable... Can i have you back by my side again???
I dare not ask... Cause i must... i cannot hurt you again.. because i will feel the same pain... Cause i promise to God, whatever pain that you have to suffer, it will be shared with me. And all that i was to suffer, will only be on me. I made such a promise... and one of the most important promise... i will be here, i will be waiting here... if you feel lost, i am here as always... the one that i broke... but i will make up to it... I will... i must... FOCUS on my study... if not... ... ... i will not only break my promise to you, i will break a promise to myself... and our future... I build my future... with you in it... i remember... that was what promise...
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Day 12
5th October 2008
Today was like so tired... since last night i sleep at around 3, i must wake up at 7 because i have a class at 9. =.='''
So tiring... Full day class today. So... brain still a not at full blast, go to school... a bit of blur blur ness... Then... start class... do exercise again...!!! TAX TAX TAX~
=.=''' Just see it also feel nausea...
Did like 6 questions today... cause full day ma... afternoon break for lunch, then back to class start again... this time is more better than last time though. Cause was able to do the tax computation without much referring and help from friends and lecturer. Gratz me~
So tired when i reached home... wanted to lie down on bed and get a short nap... Of course, go to bathe first thing. Then watch TV. @@
Around 6 have my dinner... =.=''' Curry... not my favorite... but anyway, better don't complain so much or i'll get bombed~ LOL!
Day12 le dear... I will hang in there until i complete what i targeted. Please bear with it...
Today was like so tired... since last night i sleep at around 3, i must wake up at 7 because i have a class at 9. =.='''
So tiring... Full day class today. So... brain still a not at full blast, go to school... a bit of blur blur ness... Then... start class... do exercise again...!!! TAX TAX TAX~
=.=''' Just see it also feel nausea...
Did like 6 questions today... cause full day ma... afternoon break for lunch, then back to class start again... this time is more better than last time though. Cause was able to do the tax computation without much referring and help from friends and lecturer. Gratz me~
So tired when i reached home... wanted to lie down on bed and get a short nap... Of course, go to bathe first thing. Then watch TV. @@
Around 6 have my dinner... =.=''' Curry... not my favorite... but anyway, better don't complain so much or i'll get bombed~ LOL!
Day12 le dear... I will hang in there until i complete what i targeted. Please bear with it...
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Day 11
4th of October 2008
As i was playing game til quite late last night... i think it is not only that... i failed to fall asleep early. LOL... Make it maybe like 3+ then i fall asleep...
Bad thing... Today got class. F5 class. =.=''' I hate classes on weekends... Thinking about tomorrow also got class... No mood already.
*sign
11 days had past. Today, or should i say is yesterday... i dreamt of her. @@
I had forgotten what happen... but i can recall i saw her in my dream... Sing Ying... i suppose you are alright... Please be... but no matter what, i will still be praying for you. Hoping you will be happy always... and of course safe and sound...
So... waking up in a little of bitterness, i drag my body to the washroom... Do the usual things, brush n wash...
Then, saw my bro playing game already... so early ar him... Actually already 10+, it is me that is late. LOLS!!! so... i also join in. Werewolf game. This game really quite cute though. Just like a game played when young.
But too bad, after few little "seconds" of playing, had to go prepare for class. Go for lunch then go to school... Was a bit of sleepy in class today. But did manage to finish and understand what the lecturer taught. Hmm... Life is getting more stable now. Sing Ying, i promise... i will do my best in life, and complete what i must... i will be here... i promise... i remember my promise...
As i was playing game til quite late last night... i think it is not only that... i failed to fall asleep early. LOL... Make it maybe like 3+ then i fall asleep...
Bad thing... Today got class. F5 class. =.=''' I hate classes on weekends... Thinking about tomorrow also got class... No mood already.
*sign11 days had past. Today, or should i say is yesterday... i dreamt of her. @@
I had forgotten what happen... but i can recall i saw her in my dream... Sing Ying... i suppose you are alright... Please be... but no matter what, i will still be praying for you. Hoping you will be happy always... and of course safe and sound...
So... waking up in a little of bitterness, i drag my body to the washroom... Do the usual things, brush n wash...
Then, saw my bro playing game already... so early ar him... Actually already 10+, it is me that is late. LOLS!!! so... i also join in. Werewolf game. This game really quite cute though. Just like a game played when young.
But too bad, after few little "seconds" of playing, had to go prepare for class. Go for lunch then go to school... Was a bit of sleepy in class today. But did manage to finish and understand what the lecturer taught. Hmm... Life is getting more stable now. Sing Ying, i promise... i will do my best in life, and complete what i must... i will be here... i promise... i remember my promise...
Day 10
3rd of October... Today was having law class... i think i perform quite well today... cause i was able to focus on what the lecturer was talking about the whole class. ^^
Lets recap a bit... Article of Association and Memorandum of Association... Section 67 of company act... Case law on Trevor V Whitworth. General rule in this case: The company cannot purchase own shares, which was stated in Section 67(1). In section 67(2), it states the exception of section 67(1), that is the purchase of own shares. In section 67(2), there is 3 more subsections. LoLs... it will be taking quite long if i am to type everything down.
So, after class, my parents take me to Jalan Song for dinner. Quite nice a dinner as i had lamb chop~ my favorite. hehe...
Reached home already 11+... Then on my comp play game... Still dota+ ing. LOLS!!!
After some game of dota... already 2 something... so go sleep le... Just don't know why... i will remember, i will reminisce the time together with you before i fall asleep. You just came to my mind every night...
Lets recap a bit... Article of Association and Memorandum of Association... Section 67 of company act... Case law on Trevor V Whitworth. General rule in this case: The company cannot purchase own shares, which was stated in Section 67(1). In section 67(2), it states the exception of section 67(1), that is the purchase of own shares. In section 67(2), there is 3 more subsections. LoLs... it will be taking quite long if i am to type everything down.
So, after class, my parents take me to Jalan Song for dinner. Quite nice a dinner as i had lamb chop~ my favorite. hehe...
Reached home already 11+... Then on my comp play game... Still dota+ ing. LOLS!!!
After some game of dota... already 2 something... so go sleep le... Just don't know why... i will remember, i will reminisce the time together with you before i fall asleep. You just came to my mind every night...
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Day 9
2nd of October...
Today was still holiday... my dad asked us to go to Serian for a walk. Hmm... Maybe will be good for me though... Cause i was unable to focus on anything. So... was forced to wake up on 9am... Brush n wash then is time to sit in the car and wait almost an hour trip to Serian's Ranchan Fall. We actually had our "breakfast" at 17th Mile and it was already 10am+. So... on the journey, i was reading law paper. Hmm... good effort there... too bad i just read 3 questions... Don't know why, can't seems to concentrate. Either is listening to my parents' chat, or looking out the window daydreaming...
So... after breakfast, we go to Ranchan Fall. The water was cool... Good! Too bad i was not in the mood to swim... i just play with the water... LOL!
After having some walk in the "forest", my bro starts wining about the slippery steps as the stairs there are like without maintenance. So... we go home after that... again, on the way home, i read... 1 question, not yet finished, fallen asleep edi... Then reached home le... play game liaw... GAME GAME GAME... =.='''
No Game will die huh?!!!
So... after that, we go out for dinner... and some shopping...
Sing Ying... i really miss you u know... But what to do... i never dare to tell u anymore...
Today was still holiday... my dad asked us to go to Serian for a walk. Hmm... Maybe will be good for me though... Cause i was unable to focus on anything. So... was forced to wake up on 9am... Brush n wash then is time to sit in the car and wait almost an hour trip to Serian's Ranchan Fall. We actually had our "breakfast" at 17th Mile and it was already 10am+. So... on the journey, i was reading law paper. Hmm... good effort there... too bad i just read 3 questions... Don't know why, can't seems to concentrate. Either is listening to my parents' chat, or looking out the window daydreaming...
So... after breakfast, we go to Ranchan Fall. The water was cool... Good! Too bad i was not in the mood to swim... i just play with the water... LOL!
After having some walk in the "forest", my bro starts wining about the slippery steps as the stairs there are like without maintenance. So... we go home after that... again, on the way home, i read... 1 question, not yet finished, fallen asleep edi... Then reached home le... play game liaw... GAME GAME GAME... =.='''
No Game will die huh?!!!
So... after that, we go out for dinner... and some shopping...
Sing Ying... i really miss you u know... But what to do... i never dare to tell u anymore...
Day 8
1st of October...
Time really flies... I don't even feel the time going through... I feel like i am stuck there... Still somehow grieving over what had happen. I know that is my decision... and she did release me from my pain... But don't know why, i felt relief, but after that, i feel something is missing in my life... there is nothing left for me to wait for at night... yet... i still face a little problem with my sleep. I know i cannot continue on like this... i need to heal... if you love her, you will do whatever that is good for her... and also good for yourself. You must take care of yourself well you know? She will be sad if she know you are in such pain everyday... You really look horrible now you know? And become so emo... a bit a bit thing also get angry...
Today was a holiday... Raya for the Malays. We Chinese also enjoyed the holiday. As for me, i am just happy there is no class... But... i feel that having class will be a lot more better as i can reduce thinking so much... For our future's sack, i cannot stop my journey and waste my time here... i need to keep going... Go on~ Hang in there... U promised yourself to take 3 papers in the year end and make sure u pass them all. Then quickly move on to the second level before anyone else do. The shorter the time to graduate, the higher the chance to get her back...
Sorry... i wanted to say... Sorry...But i never dare say... So sorry... Please forgive my selfishness and unable to coup with my study and u... So sorry... i am even more sorry to myself that i let our relationship go... *sign... That is good though... good for her... So she can go on with or without me... i just don't want to waste her time if i get stuck somewhere... Go on girl... i will always be praying for you... u will have my full blessing. Forever.
Time really flies... I don't even feel the time going through... I feel like i am stuck there... Still somehow grieving over what had happen. I know that is my decision... and she did release me from my pain... But don't know why, i felt relief, but after that, i feel something is missing in my life... there is nothing left for me to wait for at night... yet... i still face a little problem with my sleep. I know i cannot continue on like this... i need to heal... if you love her, you will do whatever that is good for her... and also good for yourself. You must take care of yourself well you know? She will be sad if she know you are in such pain everyday... You really look horrible now you know? And become so emo... a bit a bit thing also get angry...
Today was a holiday... Raya for the Malays. We Chinese also enjoyed the holiday. As for me, i am just happy there is no class... But... i feel that having class will be a lot more better as i can reduce thinking so much... For our future's sack, i cannot stop my journey and waste my time here... i need to keep going... Go on~ Hang in there... U promised yourself to take 3 papers in the year end and make sure u pass them all. Then quickly move on to the second level before anyone else do. The shorter the time to graduate, the higher the chance to get her back...
Sorry... i wanted to say... Sorry...But i never dare say... So sorry... Please forgive my selfishness and unable to coup with my study and u... So sorry... i am even more sorry to myself that i let our relationship go... *sign... That is good though... good for her... So she can go on with or without me... i just don't want to waste her time if i get stuck somewhere... Go on girl... i will always be praying for you... u will have my full blessing. Forever.
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