Day 8

1st of October...
Time really flies... I don't even feel the time going through... I feel like i am stuck there... Still somehow grieving over what had happen. I know that is my decision... and she did release me from my pain... But don't know why, i felt relief, but after that, i feel something is missing in my life... there is nothing left for me to wait for at night... yet... i still face a little problem with my sleep. I know i cannot continue on like this... i need to heal... if you love her, you will do whatever that is good for her... and also good for yourself. You must take care of yourself well you know? She will be sad if she know you are in such pain everyday... You really look horrible now you know? And become so emo... a bit a bit thing also get angry...
Today was a holiday... Raya for the Malays. We Chinese also enjoyed the holiday. As for me, i am just happy there is no class... But... i feel that having class will be a lot more better as i can reduce thinking so much... For our future's sack, i cannot stop my journey and waste my time here... i need to keep going... Go on~ Hang in there... U promised yourself to take 3 papers in the year end and make sure u pass them all. Then quickly move on to the second level before anyone else do. The shorter the time to graduate, the higher the chance to get her back...
Sorry... i wanted to say... Sorry...But i never dare say... So sorry... Please forgive my selfishness and unable to coup with my study and u... So sorry... i am even more sorry to myself that i let our relationship go... *sign... That is good though... good for her... So she can go on with or without me... i just don't want to waste her time if i get stuck somewhere... Go on girl... i will always be praying for you... u will have my full blessing. Forever.