Day 133

3rd February 2009
Tuesday
What happen today? I suppose... it is a mystery. I can't even recall what happen today... Think i need to start from where i go to bed...
It was already 3am when i go to bed last night. My sleep was unstable. I was haunted by dreams... Dreams of all kinds. I think it maybe caused by the pillow. LOL! Anyway, i woke up in the morning, still feeling my eye lids to be heavy. But who cares? I use a wet and cold towel, splash it onto my face. Wah! I feel so wide awake. LOL! Since my brother is already watching DVD, so i just tag along and watch.
It was already 12pm when i had my lunch. He went to school and i was still continue on with the DVD. 2pm, i feel tired watching DVD. My mind was empty that once. So, i decide to take out my notes and my exercises. I took my pen out. When i was about to start, my mind go blank... I was thinking about Horwath interview days ago... i was thinking about getting a work. But, now i am still here. I am getting no where. Man, seems like i am dropped out again. But who cares! They didn't employ me, that is their lost. My imagination grows wild while my papers are still left empty...
Today, my mood is blue. I feel rather low today. 4pm, my dad reached home. Of course, i go bathe and prepare myself for school tonight. Upon reaching school at around 5pm, i stay at the lobby reading papers. World peace... wonder when will that really happen? World peace...
A few minutes later, i go to the lab, getting myself online and starts surfing meaninglessly without directions. Lucky that only took me awhile until Terence and Phang came down. Phang asked me to tag along for dinner. So, since i still haven't had my dinner, i go along. We had fishball soup. I was asking him about the work. Then he ask me to try my luck with Ernst & Young. =.=''' Wow~ joking man! Ernst & Young is one of the Big 4 accounting firm in the world! If i am able to work there, my future will be so much brighter! Don't know why, i feel that my hope shattered. Everything come to dust. I feels like everything is so far away. Wonder what is happening to me?
I feel lonely. This is awfully terrible! This is a big problem! Lucky there is a class coming that keep my mind busy for a while. So, i went to class directly after dinner. I never visit the lab after that...
I went to class, start of with the homework and reading the notes. I don't even remember what i read just now. Seems like i am just reading for the sake of reading. =.=''' Died... Seems like i am dead some how.
The time pass quickly. It is time to go home. A song kills me instantly in the car. I don't know the name, i don't even know the singer. But that song... just put me into a very awful situation.
Anyway, reached home after that. I had dinner again. Another dinner. LOL!
Wonder how can i eat so much. I on maplesea after dinner. I was having fun playing, chatting, and joking with these girls in maplesea. Jessy, Penguin and Rachel. Haha.
I was even thinking about you then. I was even telling them about you. It was you that makes me talk to dolls. It was you that bring me so much. I can remember.
It was 1+am when i received a sms from you. You always seems to had a sense of sending me sms when i feel down. I do feel happy to receive it just now. But, it is late. Why are you still up at such a late hour? Go to bed early. It will be better for u.
Its late for me too now. 230am. Wonder if i can fall asleep later... Must try non the less. Good Night now~ Take Care~