Day 147

17th February 2009
Tuesday
Today i was awaken by my brother, he wanted lunch. So, i wake up. But due to my feet injury, i asked him to go buy lunch himself. Good thing, he just go and buy on this own. My mood swing... Is still there. I suppose this failure has really made me so shameful of myself that, i even went to had my hair cut bald. Hahahahaha.
So, after hair cut, i went home. i was in a blur still. My mind was still blank. I wonder if i can hang on... finally, i decided... to made my own rules, and must be followed. 3 simple rules...
i decided... tonight, i will tell my mum about my result. My bad result. I know i will disappoint her for sure. I know. While in the journey to the temple, i told her. She was nagging on me... telling me that it is so shameful to fail. I KNOW! Who don't know it is a shame. . .
Again... cried...
Reached... i prayed... i made this promise to God and hope that they will look over me. This is a promise. This is a rule. This is a must. I must follow these rules i made.
Haha... Wish i can do it.
I might as well stop here. Good Night.